RIP ThyCrossAwaits

2026-01-04 by Sowing STAFF | 157 Comments
It is with a heavy heart that we bid adieu to our fellow Sputnikmusic user and brother, ThyCrossAwaits. This was an unexpected passing that weighs on us, and we ask that you share any praise or fond memories here as a way of honoring his memory. ThyCrossAwaits was with the site since 2007 and continually shared his love of metal with the community through his reviews, lists, and warm interactions.

The following link was shared with us. We ask that you respect the privacy of his loved ones.
https://www.heritagesfsd.com/obituary/ryan-marks

"Ryan’s greatest passion was music. He loved movies, video games, and other “nerdy” pursuits, but music was always at the center of his life. He collected CDs and vinyl records—especially metal and noise genres—and created annual “best of” lists for new releases. Ryan frequently posted album reviews on Sputnik Music (sputnikmusic.com), combining his passion for music and his unique writing talents. He was always thrilled when his reviews were chosen to be featured on their homepage. Ryan also composed and recorded noise music under the names “Coumadin,” “Cut Rings,” and “Ram Ventilation,” proudly releasing twenty-nine recordings both independently and in collaboration with other artists."

Rest in peace, ThyCrossAwaits.

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Hawks
Staff Reviewer
January 4th 2026
124205 Comments


RIP brother. :[[[

Voivod
Staff Reviewer
January 4th 2026
11769 Comments


Terrible news…… RIP…. So young….

FearThyEvil
January 4th 2026
19488 Comments


What the hell? He was so nice to talk with or discuss things in threads. R.I.P.! This is really horrible!

heck
January 4th 2026
7819 Comments


fuck. RIP brother, he was a good dude

Hyperion1001
Emeritus
January 4th 2026
30035 Comments


rest in peace brother.

Lender
January 4th 2026
253 Comments


Very sad, way too young. RIP my man.

rockandmetaljunkie
Contributing Reviewer
January 4th 2026
10124 Comments


Horrible news, do we know how he passed away?

Hawks
Staff Reviewer
January 4th 2026
124205 Comments


The obituary just says natural causes.

RunOfTheMill
January 4th 2026
4899 Comments


Huge loss for the family, huge loss for the site. Rest in peace.

rockandmetaljunkie
Contributing Reviewer
January 4th 2026
10124 Comments


"The obituary just says natural causes"

I read the obituary, it's crazy to think that one so young can die of natural causes, no one dies this young of natural causes...

jrlikestodance
January 4th 2026
8509 Comments


RIP king

DungeonBoy
January 4th 2026
10372 Comments


Lost another great one way too soon. RIP. Condolences to his friends and family

arthropod
January 4th 2026
3200 Comments


What the fuck. I second what junkie said, this is crazy.
From my limited interactions with him on here, he seemed really nice and passionate about what he was doing. R.I.P. hard, and condolences to those close to him.

Gosh, what a way to start the year.

arapinho1
January 4th 2026
490 Comments


RIP condolences to his family

AlkemestRedux
Contributing Reviewer
January 4th 2026
2372 Comments


Oh no that's terrible. RIP man. He seemed like a super chill dude, this sucks.

brickhed
Contributing Reviewer
January 4th 2026
1667 Comments


"I read the obituary, it's crazy to think that one so young can die of natural causes, no one dies this young of natural causes..."

i just think about how he was at the lowest point in his life and suddenly died. everything leading up to this makes it even more heartbreaking. i remember eagerly awaiting his input on noise stuff since he was one of the only people here that likes it. i've already grieved, but now i'm just confused.

mkmusic1995
Contributing Reviewer
January 4th 2026
2659 Comments


RIP man, this fucking sucks so much.

evilford
January 4th 2026
72771 Comments


Damn this is awful. RIP hard man

Kimm
January 4th 2026
6564 Comments


A man whose consuming passion was music, rivaled only by the profound love he had for his cats (and any other animal that crossed his path). His passions exemplified the inner world of one with a tortured yet gentle soul.

ThyCrossAwaits - You will undoubtedly be missed by your family, your friends, the Sputnik community, the noise scene/other musical endeavors you were involved in, and your beautiful kitties - "your girls" as you called them - who loved you so much.

*A toast* To a fellow lover of music and animals, and the inspiring passion he had for both.

Rest in peace, Ryan. You are loved.

Emim
January 4th 2026
39667 Comments


Oh man, not again 😔

He was always bumping bangers and sharing hard jams. He will be missed

Spec
January 4th 2026
41505 Comments


Rest easy Ryan. I hope you’re surrounded by cats wherever you are.

DocSportello
January 4th 2026
3701 Comments


RIP — I did not personally know Ryan but his presence was a gift. Peace to all, prayers for his friends and family, and may death indeed be but a station to something even greater

Asdfp277
January 4th 2026
26007 Comments


may he rest in peace

JayEnder
January 4th 2026
23229 Comments


Fuck man, this is terrible news. He seemed like a really cool, intelligent dude. We never really had any personal interactions but I always valued his takes (on metal especially) and enjoyed seeing him around. Now this place feels even more empty and desolate.

RIP Ryan.

syco722
January 4th 2026
857 Comments


Rest in peace fellow sput king

Brabiz
January 4th 2026
2940 Comments


this is horrible news.. RIP man

cylinder
January 4th 2026
4745 Comments


Taken from us far too soon. Rest easy Ryan, you’ll be missed dearly.

Scoot
January 4th 2026
24481 Comments


fuck man...never good to see anyone go down

RIP

smaugman
January 4th 2026
5877 Comments


33 is way too early to go, rip

Essence
January 4th 2026
6859 Comments


fuck i meant to reach out to you since we were both minnesota sputnikers. rip

Mongi123
January 4th 2026
22751 Comments


Aww RIP.

Get Low
January 4th 2026
15580 Comments


RIP

BAT
January 4th 2026
2343 Comments


Rest in peace

ArsMoriendi
January 4th 2026
42490 Comments


Didn't really know him well, but RIP regardless

33 is so young

Beardog
January 4th 2026
6862 Comments


Man that's such awful news... RIP

Crysis
Emeritus
January 4th 2026
17653 Comments


RIP

Futures
Staff Reviewer
January 4th 2026
18541 Comments


hurts to lose anyone here but especially such a mainstay who contributed so many great reviews and lists. seemed like a great guy. such a touching obituary and just to know how much this place meant to him. as it does for so many of us. absolutely tragic at such a young age. rest easy ryan.

Trundle
January 4th 2026
4072 Comments


Fuck, rip man, his contributions will definitely be missed, wishing his family the best,

JerseyJimmy
January 4th 2026
424 Comments


awful, awful news. rest well, man.

gabba
January 4th 2026
3166 Comments


This is so sad, rest in peace Ryan! You had the best profile pic among us all.

JeetJeet
January 4th 2026
12986 Comments


Fuck. Terrible news man gone waayyy too young. RIP

Eakflanderyof
January 4th 2026
6868 Comments


Fuck man, thats awful to hear... RIP

Sniff
January 4th 2026
8474 Comments


Rest in peace and riffs

0xME
January 4th 2026
1177 Comments


RIP man, what a tragedy

Storm In A Teacup
January 4th 2026
47181 Comments


Rest in peace Cross

Josh D.
January 4th 2026
18591 Comments


Younger than I am, terrible. Rest in peace.

Pooter9000
January 4th 2026
405 Comments


Big rip.

Titan
January 4th 2026
27167 Comments


This is awful news. The phrase ‘rest in peace’ is very profound and I realize this the older I get.

Rest in peace, Ryan, our sputbro.

botb
January 4th 2026
20058 Comments


Rip, always kind, always thoughtful, great taste. Will miss seeing him post here.

Dewinged
Emeritus
January 5th 2026
33226 Comments


Horrible news, I remember a few interactions with him, really smart dude, and he always had cool music to share. It's so sad to see people so young go. Lots of love for his family and friends.

bigguytoo9
January 5th 2026
1505 Comments


RIP

Valzentia
January 5th 2026
1791 Comments


Awful news. Too fucking young to die. Rest in Peace : (

brainmelter
January 5th 2026
8546 Comments


What a loss, rest in peace.

Sevengill
January 5th 2026
13380 Comments


Nooooooo what???

Veldin
January 5th 2026
6029 Comments


RIP

vult
January 5th 2026
3472 Comments


Damn RIP dude was two months younger than me, I liked his lists a lot. That is awful

MO
January 5th 2026
24314 Comments


Holy shit. Legend. Huge RIP

JWT155
January 5th 2026
15114 Comments


Well fuck

ShadowRemains
January 5th 2026
29013 Comments


too many people dying from this website man, fuck

anarchistfish
January 5th 2026
30626 Comments


^yeah man

RIP

zaruyache
January 5th 2026
28812 Comments


Man.

Here's a link to the cat rescue listed in the obit, I sent some money over in his honor.

https://www.thekittenleague.org/ways-to-help/

AlexKzillion
Emeritus
January 5th 2026
19190 Comments


big RIP that's absolutely heartbreaking

Sevengill
January 5th 2026
13380 Comments


Thanks for the link Zar. Also just donated for our mate. I hope he knew how many people care.

MarkTheDead
January 5th 2026
746 Comments


Rest in peace, man.. thank you for being a our brother here.

Muzz79
Contributing Reviewer
January 5th 2026
4191 Comments


Huge RIP, sorry to hear

Piglet
January 5th 2026
8593 Comments


Rest In Peace fallen brother. Thank you for your service

garas
Staff Reviewer
January 5th 2026
8505 Comments


Holy fucking shit... devastating news. RIP, bro.

hansoloshotfirst
January 5th 2026
1687 Comments


horrible news. my heart goes out to his friends and family. discovered some good music because of him. RIP

LouBreed
January 5th 2026
500 Comments


I see the mods featured some of Ryan's reviews on the front page to commemorate him, nice touch. I'm not a religious man, but I still hope there's some kind of afterlife for a decent guy who loved music and cats, that is better than just 33 years burdened with debts, rejection, and medical issues (that's judging by his own description provided in one of his lists).


insomniac15
Staff Reviewer
January 5th 2026
6471 Comments


RIP

rafalafa
January 5th 2026
323 Comments


Rest easy, brother. Hearts out to his family and friends.

aaronrkc
January 5th 2026
472 Comments


RIP fellow rocker.

Scheumke
January 5th 2026
2880 Comments


RIP

e210013
January 5th 2026
6616 Comments


RIP mate. You were too young to die so soon.

manosg
Emeritus
January 5th 2026
12717 Comments


Awful news, RIP Ryan.

Sevengill
January 5th 2026
13380 Comments


we shared the same music site for almost 20 years and I only just learned his name was Ryan

;~;

unclereich
January 5th 2026
14628 Comments


I’m so sorry to his family and loved ones for their loss. Thank you for making this a news item sowing. I hope his family sees how many lives he touched. Rest easy buddy.

farmerobama
January 5th 2026
688 Comments


Damn...RIP Ryan

CalDaoBoy
January 5th 2026
1 Comments


RIP brother.

Dolving999
January 5th 2026
1866 Comments


Hard RIP

Gameofmetal
Emeritus
January 5th 2026
12232 Comments


Don't think I was too familiar with him but RIP it's absolutely fucked up that we all aren't naturally living to 100 by this point in human history.

Christbait
January 5th 2026
1856 Comments


Very sad to hear this. I ran across a reddit post featuring him and had no idea that there was a connection to here. Seemed to be a very talented noise artist and a great contributor to the site.

outliers
January 5th 2026
5371 Comments


damn he was only one day older than me. brutal. RIP brother

DarkNoctus
January 5th 2026
12902 Comments


he was one of the earliest supporters of my music and really encouraged me to keep going, on top of that his endless passion was a joy to read about and discuss with him

heartbreaking. i'm eternally grateful for knowing him.

zakalwe
January 5th 2026
42353 Comments


Awful.
When one of us goes you can’t help but feel it.
Condolences to friends and family

DarkNoctus
January 5th 2026
12902 Comments


i would like to add it is best we don't speculate about the cause of his death here - the family will release more information if they wish to. in the event they find this page i'd want them to appreciate the fact that ryan touched so many people as opposed to dwelling on the no doubt tragic circumstances around his passing. let's focus on our fond memories of him.

theacademy
Staff Reviewer
January 5th 2026
31895 Comments


RIP

MTObsidian
January 5th 2026
868 Comments


Terrible news. Rest in peace, man. May your passion for music inspire us all in some way, shape, or form.

Rowhaus
January 5th 2026
7791 Comments


Rest easy king

Jots
Emeritus
January 5th 2026
7634 Comments


rip. didn't know him very well directly but he was a friend-of-friends, and I knew he liked noise music and cats, so was always cool in my books. way too young. glad he left his mark on the community

DarkNoctus
January 5th 2026
12902 Comments


hi everyone, i had a brief conversation with ryan's mother who gave me permission to share this:

"We so appreciate all the kind words and tributes being shared on Sputnik. We noticed a few questions about Ryan’s cause of death, which are very understandable for a person of his age. As I am sure many of the community are aware, Ryan had struggled with depression and other mental health challenges for a long time. What was probably less known is that he had a significant history of physical illnesses, as well. Through all of his mental and physical challenges he kept up the good fight, but in the end his physical body is what gave up. Feel free to share if you feel it would be helpful for both those who are concerned about Ryan and for others who may find themselves battling similar challenges."

she is immensely appreciative for your kind words and i encourage all of you to continue sharing your memories of ryan. it's best we don't ask any further questions about ryan's circumstances as it was extremely graceful of her to share these further details. ♥

EyesWideShut
January 5th 2026
6168 Comments


RIP BROSKI !! Long Live The Riff M/

RunOfTheMill
January 5th 2026
4899 Comments


That’s very kind of her to share that, thanks Noct

hotsoap
January 5th 2026
67 Comments


RIP

brickhed
Contributing Reviewer
January 5th 2026
1667 Comments


very nice to get closure like that. still is devastating but it does connect with some dots. respect to his family and friends.

Beardog
January 5th 2026
6862 Comments


Very kind of her indeed, thanks for sharing.

ABalefulAura
January 5th 2026
368 Comments


RIP cross

Winsomniac
January 5th 2026
8962 Comments


This sucks hard. I hope his family can take some modicum of solace knowing we grieve with them. No parent should have to bury their child.

Rest in peace, Ryan. We'll miss you around these parts.

bach
January 5th 2026
17255 Comments


damn this is terrible. don't know if I ever interacted with him but rip. way too young

Futures
Staff Reviewer
January 5th 2026
18541 Comments


cherish every single day you have, life is unfair.

Dedes
January 5th 2026
12025 Comments


RIP brother. No one deserves to have a life cut before it's led to completion. From my limited interactions with him he definitely had a sense of warmth and passion.

Nikkolae
January 5th 2026
6965 Comments


god fucking dammit, RIP thycross, Ryan, you will be missed

XingKing
January 5th 2026
16437 Comments


RIP to Ryan and condolences to his family. His mother sharing that update and knowing how much Sput loved him is powerful.

newsteamchannel4
January 5th 2026
128 Comments


rest in peace

Nikkolae
January 5th 2026
6965 Comments


"His mother sharing that update and knowing how much Sput loved him is powerful."

considering that we are the smallest of the small music communities around and we were still so impactful in his life should really make us all reconsider how we treat each other around here, once more RIP R, today we celebrate you bud.

Shamus248
Staff Reviewer
January 5th 2026
1371 Comments


RIP

RVAHC13
January 5th 2026
3246 Comments


@DarkNoctus thank you for sharing that with us, I hope she knows her son will be missed here

Aids
January 5th 2026
25127 Comments


damn that is so sad

RIP hard, fellow enjoyer of music

RadioSuicide
January 5th 2026
2963 Comments


damn, hate to see a longtime sputter go down at too young of an age. RIP

Grungil
January 6th 2026
689 Comments


RIP.

Kimm
January 6th 2026
6564 Comments


"considering that we are the smallest of the small music communities around and we were still so impactful in his life should really make us all reconsider how we treat each other around here"

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[3]
[100]



Kimm
January 6th 2026
6564 Comments


Thanks for sharing that update, Noctus.

ScuroFantasma
Emeritus
January 6th 2026
13078 Comments


Horrible news, RIP

artificialbox
Emeritus
January 6th 2026
3900 Comments


Fucking hell. Through all the shit this community has gone through Ryan has always been a beacon of decency and common sense. Rest in peace Ryan.

Trebor.
Emeritus
January 6th 2026
60378 Comments


RIP to a truly special person
Life sucks so bad

bananatossing
January 6th 2026
2767 Comments


so sorry to hear. rip

Inveigh
January 6th 2026
27050 Comments


Rest in peace, Ryan.

MarkTheDead
January 6th 2026
746 Comments


"considering that we are the smallest of the small music communities around and we were still so impactful in his life should really make us all reconsider how we treat each other around here"

[1000]

Christbait
January 6th 2026
1856 Comments


"considering that we are the smallest of the small music communities around and we were still so impactful in his life should really make us all reconsider how we treat each other around here"

Amen, brother.

Sevengill
January 6th 2026
13380 Comments


thanks for the update, Noct and Mom. ❤️

this place has a weird magic about it.

VicariousIntent
January 6th 2026
1650 Comments


"considering that we are the smallest of the small music communities around and we were still so impactful in his life should really make us all reconsider how we treat each other around here"

Could not agree with this more. It is a small comfort that he found joy in this place. I truly hope he is at peace. RIP this is so, so sad. I joined the same year as him and we are the same age. This is sobering news for sure.

Sevengill
January 6th 2026
13380 Comments


if there's anyone with the ability to fix the account creation issue...this might be a reminder of what Sputnik means to people. in real life, beyond the blogosphere. I think we've all made great friendships here and want to keep sharing that joy.

RVAHC13
January 6th 2026
3246 Comments


All we can do is hold on hope that it’ll get fixed, in the meantime I’m going to enjoy the dedication of this small community as if it were a small up and coming site and cherish its flaws as such

evilford
January 6th 2026
72771 Comments


Thanks for that update noctus, just saw that. What a wonderful lady

I can't fucking imagine having to bury one of my children. How do you even cope with that. The pain and grief must be unimaginable.

RIP hard brother

brickhed
Contributing Reviewer
January 6th 2026
1667 Comments


yeah now i can't listen to goregrind without thinking of thycrossawaits. its really surreal and heartbreaking to know that i dude that i paid a lot of attention to is really gone.

because of him i got into Sulfuric Cautery from his last list, and checked out Killing Spree. now I'm actually trying out Last Days of Humanity and giving goregrind another chance. it's sticking more this time around. he for sure has helped me explore more extreme music and noise. also, his last soundoff was a harsh noise album that i wrote down to check before he died. it's brutal that he's not there to make lists or anything anymore.

gregorgojira
January 7th 2026
108 Comments


my deepest condolences.

ConcubinaryCode
January 7th 2026
8264 Comments


It always sucks seeing a community member isn't with us anymore. RIP to one of the iconic users to visit here.

Sevengill
January 8th 2026
13380 Comments


make sure your homies know they're iconic while they're still around

arthropod
January 8th 2026
3200 Comments


[2]

efp123
January 8th 2026
1604 Comments


"make sure your homies know they're iconic while they're still around"
yes

ShadowRemains
January 8th 2026
29013 Comments


if you ever needed further evidence as to why i prefer the community (warts and all) on sputnik vs. rym/etc., look no further than this thread

evilford
January 8th 2026
72771 Comments


[2]
[3]
[100000]

StormChaser
January 8th 2026
3277 Comments


damn fucking rip

gabba
January 8th 2026
3166 Comments


As Sevengill pointed out elsewhere, Ryan's comment from 26/12, just few days before his passing is really heart-wrenching:

"I always forget that I joined in early December. This will be year 18 for me which blows my mind that I’ve been on this site for over half my life now."

RVAHC13
January 8th 2026
3246 Comments


I saw that, hope to god I never delete that list on accident

ConcubinaryCode
January 8th 2026
8264 Comments


We should have an effigy for our fallen sput mates with their favorite music.

"make sure your homies know they're iconic while they're still around"

I'll be real, that's an iconic sentiment. Youre iconic too.



efp123
January 9th 2026
1604 Comments


great user ^

Teal
January 9th 2026
704 Comments


Rest in peace, ThyCrossAwaits.

Wildcardbitchesss
January 9th 2026
21312 Comments


Do we have some kind of thread with everyone we’ve lost?

I feel like that would be a good move… it’s sad that we’ve lost so many longtime users but it would be a nice little place for everyone to pay their respects

Wildcardbitchesss
January 9th 2026
21312 Comments


RIP Thy… I didn’t know him well but he seemed chill the few times I interacted with him, and his maudlin review is excellent so I’m kinda bummed I didn’t get to know him better.

Rest easy brother, hope they got good music for us on the other side.

efp123
January 9th 2026
1604 Comments


https://www.sputnikmusic.com/list.php?memberid=1061284&listid=200628

Nikkolae
January 9th 2026
6965 Comments


"Do we have some kind of thread with everyone we’ve lost?

I feel like that would be a good move… it’s sad that we’ve lost so many longtime users but it would be a nice little place for everyone to pay their respects"

idea is good but id say its a bit difficult to implement when some users just never log back in and we never find out what happened, maybe a In Memoriam tab with some of the best write ups of the ones we do know of their passing would be nice.

arthropod
January 9th 2026
3200 Comments


efp's comment

Nikkolae
January 9th 2026
6965 Comments


lmao yeah that would do it, tho i was thinking more of a tab at the top next to best new music or something like that that the staff could keep up to date when these things happen, but yea that works lol

arthropod
January 9th 2026
3200 Comments


I mean, a tab would be optimal for being in a visible and accessible spot. Don't know how feasible it is from the coding angle but definitely a good idea.

Asdfp277
January 9th 2026
26007 Comments


it would be easy to do, html-wise, but it would require mx to do it

Asdfp277
January 9th 2026
26007 Comments


also, i had no idea so many users had died :[

somehow, everyone in my mind is just frozen in time

arthropod
January 9th 2026
3200 Comments


To me it's an effect of anonymity and comments outliving the users. I suspect the site is outright littered with eidola. That's bitersweet.

Futures
Staff Reviewer
January 9th 2026
18541 Comments


shame after this wonderful thread the site instantly devolved into well you know

pyroflare77
January 9th 2026
744 Comments


Circumstances outside our control bring people together

Tomstein
January 9th 2026
731 Comments


Rip

Wildcardbitchesss
January 10th 2026
21312 Comments


“To me it's an effect of anonymity and comments outliving the users. I suspect the site is outright littered with eidola. That's bitersweet.”

ugh my heart, very well said.

Like I can think of at least 5 once very active users that have passed, but I’m sure that number is a lot higher.

RIP Sprit, Funeral, and Papa too 💔

RVAHC13
January 10th 2026
3246 Comments


@Futures

Devolved into arguments and slander i.e. actual Sputnik lol

Tunaboy45
January 10th 2026
19023 Comments


RIP

PortalofPerfection
January 15th 2026
3465 Comments


Damn man.

"Peacefully of natural causes"

Dude was 33. We know not the hour. Enjoy life guys.

RIP.

combustion07
January 16th 2026
13130 Comments


Very sad news. RIP

mindleviticus
January 16th 2026
10957 Comments


RIP hard, that is so sad



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