madrigal30: my friends are dying.

madrigal30 07.27.21	list is shit i jam when i get the call saying they're gone
Clumseee 07.27.21	saw the title and expected no closer to heaven sorry to hear about your friends that sounds horrible
ReefaJones 07.27.21	everyone dies
Sinternet 07.27.21	no shit reefa, wanna take your turn? sorry for your loss madri, hope time heals and you can cherish the memories of them you have
Shadowmire 07.27.21	really sorry to hear. i'm here on the off chance you need anyone to talk to
TwigTW 07.27.21	i know the feeling... hang in there
Grungil 07.27.21	You will meet them on the other side. Enjoy your life in their honor.
SlothcoreSam 07.27.21	Sorry to hear Mikey. I'm sure their memory will live strong in you. When the time is right, use this to inspire your next EP.
0GuyMan0 07.27.21	I'm 35. It has started happening to me too, in the last couple years. My first bandmate bro randomly dropped dead on someone's lawn last year. Old high school buddy didn't wake up after a bender in his parent's basement a couple years before that. It doesn't make sense, and it sucks. My mom always says that the first half of your life you go to weddings, the second half you go to funerals. Hang in there homes.
ZippaThaRippa 07.27.21	my friends are all okay I'm thankful every day
Lord(e)Po)))ts 07.27.21	reefa did you know that if you tie a plastic bag around your head and jerk off until you fall unconscious your calf muscles will grow by 50% overnight? go ahead, try it.
ReefaJones 07.28.21	I'll try it on your mom
botb 07.28.21	Feel this
combustion07 07.28.21	same. Hang in there my dude. Gonna jam these. Haven't heard any of em
dedex 07.28.21	Sorry to hear this Mikey. Don't hesitate to reach out if needed
madrigal30 07.28.21	thanks folks. idk what to do lmao it's like,, these people are 19. or were. and now thwy are Gone.
twlight 07.28.21	hang in there man, focus on making a healthy and happy life for yourself. i'm sorry to hear you've lost some friends
DavidYowi 07.28.21	Christ that's so frightening! I hope you feel better soon, and whatever you do don't blame yourself for their deaths
cordwainerbird 07.28.21	mikey we never really get any chances to talk but im here for you < 3
madrigal30 07.28.21	thanks cord!!! i am really havin a hard time
RogueNine 07.29.21	Gahhhh this is like my worst fear. Definitely check in with your sputbros if you need to.
parksungjoon 07.29.21	sadly it never gets easier... no matter whom you lose or how many of them, unless you make a concerted effort to bottle it all up and not think too much like some people i know... it never gets easier because every person is a clump of circumstances, experiences, actions, words, inaction, fears, thoughts, wants, hopes almost infinitely complex... and friends are some of the few we have the privilege to actually sort of begin to unravel the complexity and understand and share some of those things with... unless you subscribe to solipsism or the philosophical zombie idea or anything similar, its kind of crazy to think about that complexity, what a miracle it is that we have developed such language, that we are able to form complex bonds that go far, far beyond the "natural" of families, mates and tribes ... for such complexity to be snuffed out entirely and irreversibly, it never really gets easier to lose the ones you understand best and who understand you best, and the specifics can only make things harder really... i really can't fault anyone who turns to religion in an attempt to find comfort for this sort of thing i don't know what the best thing to do is though. in the end we have to live with things one way or another, however few or many our own days might be... i like the idea of focusing on the beautiful and joyous moments shared together, on the things they taught you or helped you learn or made you reflect on, on honouring their memory by just trying and continuing to be the kind of person that they liked you for because you cant change the past, and the future has a way of not giving a shit about our plans and preparations sometimes. you cant change your feelings, and im of the opinion that you shouldnt try to suppress them either, pretty much the only thing you can change is what you choose to do within whatever circumstances you're given. everyone is unique, no matter how hard it can be to see or admit or understand in certain situations, no matter how hard anyone might try to stamp that uniqueness out. so any loss is the loss of someone unique, and im sure you wouldnt have made this if you didnt find them wonderful and lovely in their uniqueness, and out of fear that other wonderful and lovely ones will one day be lost as well. the hard and unfortunate part is that there's no denying any of that, it's as true as it is inevitable. the only silver lining some have helped me see is that, while we will never be graced again by the specific ones we've lost, the possibility remains to discover and connect with other wonderful people. there can never be substitution, sure, but its something...
parksungjoon 07.29.21	i dont know if any of this helps at all, probably not, all i can say is that as someone who has lost very many myself i at least have some idea of how hard it can be and all manner of thoughts that it can bring about... i wish i could do more than offer my sincerest condolences