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Last Active 11-28-16 9:01 pm
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 | macman76 I also have no idea what that means
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 | Mystletainn At some point you got to wonder if anyone enjoys drinking like that or if they just have other issues and use it to cope or w/e. When I was drinking it wasn't really recreational at all either, I wanted to die and didn't give a s*** about nothing. So even you dont know what you said to her, jeez must of been something big if she wont even talk to you.
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| Mystletainn You can't explain yourself to her? The way you drink is crazy man... reminds me of my crazy ass grandpa. I think the most I drank alone was 1.75 liter of Bacardi in 3 days.
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| Mystletainn Sounds to me like u need to find yourself a sugga momma within 18h if you know what I mean.
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| Mystletainn The woes of this world are too much to bear sometimes.
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| Mystletainn Lol good point maybe. There's nothing you can do to make amends with the family? They can't be that heartless to have their son love on the streets can they?
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| Mystletainn You make me sad bud but that's okay. I really hope you don't do anything stupid.
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| Mystletainn What ever do you mean? Stop speaking in riddles Sach
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| Mystletainn What a mess. Well iidk what to say anymore, I'm sure you already know what your next step is, finding a place to stay, good luck.
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| Mystletainn So there's nothing you can do to fight it then? I mean if this is the results of mental illness then that's just completely unfair... if the individual can get good grades the other stuff shouldn't matter but yeah I guess life ain't like that.
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| Mystletainn Are you like not very out going in person and sorta keep to yourself? Because if that is the case that's fking bulls***. I know here uni's want you to be well rounded, join clubs, volunteer be social w/e stupid crap they want. I'm introverted and feel like I'm at a disadvantage in this society.
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| Mystletainn I don't think there any many people in this life that can say their life went exactly how they wanted.
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 | hal1ax ya maybe ill sign up for it. i don't have any pictures tho haha. i hate taking pictures. id be down to chat on it tho. or u can get whatsapp and chillit with me and the homie puntu
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| Mystletainn :( yeah I feel yah but maybe you will have to change your goals/dreams to something more realistic. The things I wanted in life seemed unattainable and after a while it was too depressing trying to pursue them, I've had to completely change my path nothing I want now is the same it as it was and I think that has helped improve my negativity, taking it a day at a time. Life has a funny way of doing a 180 on you when you think you've got it all figured out.
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 | ArsMoriendi No problem dude. Maybe troll on like Omegle though. Actually anonymity might be better lol
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 | Deathconscious seriously dude, do something healthier to get out your negative emotions. i can brush you and futures off, this is no big deal to me, but youre not doing yourself any favors.
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| Mystletainn Look man, I saw your recent list about your scholarship and s***. I think this big of a set back would make anyone stress like you are. I know when I was at my worst any set back made me want to end it. But there has to be some way you can accomplish your goals, even if it takes you 10 years... even if you need to find 2 jobs and pay your way. Being as self destructive as you're being right now isn't helping anything if you have hope of one day turning this around.
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| ArsMoriendi While I understand that, maybe realize that other users (some of which you target) may be going through similar levels of difficulty and that it might not be healthy for them to attack them like that. Y'know, maybe some empathy might benefit you.
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| hal1ax broski,,, no one is cut out for this sh1t. i wouldn;t wish this sh1t on my worst enemy. it ain't going to be like this forever tho homie. like i know first-hand how exhaustive and despondent it can get but i swear u can bounce back. you need to believe in yourself and in the fact that things can get better... and eventually, love yourself. cuz u are the man. not just sayin that. one of a fuggin kind
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| hal1ax haha no i do not. dawg cmon. take it ez. ill miss u if u go
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| hal1ax well, technically you are right, but the fact that you choose methods of suicide that are easily reversible by intrinsic human survival reflexes means u don't want to die. if u really wanted finality, u would choose a more final method. i've been around a lot of this stuff man, i think deep down u want to continue on. just have to unravel lots of painful mental tangles
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| hal1ax but your resistance to it says otherwise. maybe you need a semester or two off man. go spend time with your family and relax. it feels like your fam stuff kind of ignited a lot of this. maybe u need to go and make peace with all that and it'll change your perspective a bit
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| hal1ax fck my life has been a succession of embarrassing and regretful moments resulting from substance abuse. i think eventually u just get so tired of brushing against bottom that u end up forcing change. but i'm not a good example of that haha. but trust... sobriety is the only solution. just gotta figure out some halfway-decent reasons to stay sober i guess lol
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| hal1ax then u don't rly want to die. if u did, u would not have an issue with finding resolve. i wish i could give u advice but i've been struggling too lately so the sh1t i would normally say just feels hollow right now in my head. but i rly hope u stay alive
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| hal1ax and unfortunately this is like the 965th time haha. first time was prob around 17 yrs old. but ya i just need to stop being a pussy i guess idk
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| hal1ax made it 4 days without kra and ended up taking some today lol. just constantly b1tching out on being sober lol. it's honestly heart-breaking
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 | Jots experimental gets thrown around way too much as a tag but sput lacks a lot of ~avant~ tags so it gets used as a catch-all
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 | Cryptkeeper It's free dude, I want to make sure you're not gonna do some s*** you're going to regret
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 | StarlessCore sach fly to ny so u can come to city of caterpillar live with me and not wanna kill self!
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 | Mort. I dunno fam im not ypur therapist
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| hal1ax lol fr ??? Umm, maybe try some heavy duty detergent ??? Fck ammonia always just zaps that shi for me. How much did u bleed g??? Haha fckin gore fest up in that bih
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 | adr imma gonna watch some ~soccer now~ to release the anger now i guess b_b
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| adr he's trying too hard to be the ~innocent victim~ while he's saying stuff like that, plus he loves to tell others how they need to see a therapist or something in that vein, i've seen that multiple times for real.
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| adr i wasn't mad before mystleiitltl saying that i need to see a therapist in already the s***ty day i had
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| hal1ax Warm water / ammonia. The. Blot with a sponge with cold water
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 | Spec Aiight well hang tight, we're all mean to each other on sput but thats because we're all family ya dig? Hit up some therapy if possible.
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| hal1ax crypt this bih doesn't even have whatsapp. i been tryinn... swear to allah im at my wicks end WITCHOO
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| Spec Well yeah but if you want to shoot the s*** feel free. Would be beneficial for me too I'm sure.
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| Spec Internet personalities and real personalities are different entities.
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| Spec Partially maybe but it's still some messed up brain chemistry making things harder.
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| Spec Ssri's, opiates, detox, treatment, all that s***
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| Spec Dude it doesn't matter to me who you actually are, if you're truly having problems with alcohol you can talk to me, I've been through it all.
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| Cryptkeeper If you want you can add me on Skype/my phone number if you wanna talk on WhatsApp
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| hal1ax sry dawggy :[ hang in therr souljahhhh
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| hal1ax Damn. No wAy u can talk to someone about it. ? Like ur in therapy and sh1t so obviously ur trying to improve your mental state. Like u can't rly help that sh1t... Ugh so fcking stupid
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| hal1ax Why don't u apply for some financial aid ? Idk how it works in aus but I'm the US u can qualify for all kinds of grants / loans , especially if u have good grades
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| hal1ax Ugh. I'm so sorry my mans. :[
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| hal1ax Are u serious ???? How is that even a thing? Like u have a diagnosable mental condition. That's bullshjj111tttt now I'm angry
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| hal1ax Why u gonna lose ur schol
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| hal1ax Lmao the idm hate is real huh. U do care nig don't even play. U too smart to lose yourself in the addiction maelstrom. I belieeeeveee in yewwwwwwaruuuuu
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| hal1ax cmon senn. u gonna end up like ol grandpa hal if u keep that naught boi shiii uppp cuhzin
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 | ZippaThaRippa It wasn't really 'hacked' haha you posted the password. It was more like you invited strangers into your room and one of them slept in the bed.
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| ZippaThaRippa You're even confusing poor Futures now, look at what you're doing! This madness has to stop!
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| ZippaThaRippa Okay come on man you're Ballsdeeper. Maybe just that one but at LEAST that one.
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| hal1ax haha this is awesome. thx
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| hal1ax Yaaaa I wasn't crazy about the samples either tbh. It goes soooo hard in some areas tho holy sh1t. I def feel the machismo worship doe
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| hal1ax Ya it kinda does huh. I still dig it. Shi goes haaard
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| hal1ax boo kitten how u gon 2 Herukrat~i bear witness on RYM. that shii bangsssss
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 | Winters exactly. at least i have music and film, that helps. sucks to have to be conscious all the time though.
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| Winters yeah i feel that. i would definitely rather be a tree than a person as odd as that sounds. just to live and be and not worry about survival or accomplishment. every once in a while i get some sort of experience or feeling that truly makes me thankful for my existence and that's enough but it's still difficult as hell just to keep going.
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| Winters on beautiful days when I feel like I would live all that s*** just for that moment. I'm manic depressive so I get pulled in both directions and its really confusing.
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| Winters Yeah of course. For me it comes to erasing responsibility. Wanting to feel like I never had to do anything. Like I never had to fulfill anyone else's dreams. Like I never had to fulfill my own dreams. Like the accomplishments other people make don't matter because quality of life and progress is super relative and no one understands or appreciates the basic standard of life they're born into. It would be nice to transcend all of that. But then there are moments like when I'm walking or driving
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| Winters it's nice to just slip into the darknesskind of what it used to feel to just go to bed as kid****
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| Winters yeah i really hope it ends ok. though i honestly don't know. we'll see. keep strong against the opiods, not much else to say on that front. enjoy the numbness, it's better than the rest for now
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| Winters family issues fu.ck you up. it's my main drag too. i like weed a lot more as a drug but alcohol is a lot more available. the baggage and the general facts of life are too much to handle most of the time. if i'm distracted i'm fine. left to my own devices i devolve quick.
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| Winters i inherited an addictive personality and am semi-alcoholic (do most things including work sober but drink almost every day). definitely a balancing act. did well at school in spite of it and feel like s*** for not achieving my potential or whatever. we'll see what happens long term. i just keep trying to enjoy what i can each day. but that's hard most of the time
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| Winters yeah, i'm in atlanta GA at the moment, running out of money but I should have enough to get through the year with minimal luxuries and just the normal amount of work stress so that's actually pretty good for me
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| Winters of all the resorts the blood tends to be more exhaustingwhatever keeps you at bay from that is a green light
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| Winters cliche trigger warning: aren't we allgonna finish this 12 pack tonight, what a life
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