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| Self-Doubt and Personal Reflection
A vent/reflect based on some thoughts that have been plaguing me today. List is digs, though I was tempted to make it albums with songs about self-doubt and the like. | | 1 |  | Palm Reader
Bad Weather
So, I've been thinking a lot about self-doubt and my own issues with people pleasing and mental health. Long story short, I have a habit of worrying that I'm being super fucking annoying and should just go away. | | 2 |  | Silent Planet
Everything Was Sound
The worst part of it is the mental disconnect. Logically I know it's not true, but emotionally, my brain is screaming at me about it. | | 3 |  | Set It Off
Cinematics
There've been multiple times where I've thought about just quietly leaving the site, or Discord servers I'm in, or going no contact for a multitude of reasons. | | 4 |  | One Ok Rock
Luxury Disease
It's a tricky-ass thing to deal with, and I'd like nothing more than to fully boot it for good. And I'm working on that! But it's trickier some days compared to others. | | 5 |  | Rush
Hold Your Fire
I'm telling myself that it'll get better, because I'd rather push through and make my best effort to do well and improve as opposed to just laying down and letting myself be defeated. | | 6 |  | ERRA
Cure
A big part of that has been this site. We may give each other shit a bunch, and sure, there are a few bad apples and arguments here and there, but y'all have been insanely welcoming and incredibly kind, even when I put out a review or opinion that I feel is shit.
So thank you guys for that. | | 7 |  | Green Day
Saviors
But yeah. I just wanted to be candid and open for a bit, I guess. Life is weird and difficult and crazy, but fun and worth it in the end.
Have a great day everyone. | |
AnimalForce1
02.26.24 | Bit of an unorthodox list, but I wanted to be a bit vulnerable today, so here you go. | JKing92
02.26.24 | I'd say do whatever you feel you need to do. I've left the site for weeks (even months) at a time, on quite a few occasions because of my own mental health issues, because being on this site just isn't good for my real life stress. If you feel the need to take time for yourself by leaving the site, do it -- whatever makes you the most happy is probably the best solution.
Ultimately, regardless of what I have to say about my own experiences, just do what you feel is good for you. That's really what is likely the best outcome with all of this. | artificialbox
02.26.24 | Man I feel this super hard. Sendin hugs 🤗 | AnimalForce1
02.26.24 | @Artificialbox thank you
@JKing it's not that I want to leave for the sake of my mental health. It's that I want to leave because my brain is undergoing cognitive distortions and is convincing me that everyone on this site wants me gone lol
So I stay and reread shit that helps combat that distortion | artificialbox
02.26.24 | worst part about having an ingrained sense of being an unlikeable annoyance is that it makes you less likely to reach out to people and make connections which in turn exacerbates the feeling of isolation. any time anyone has said something positive about me it comes as a huge surprise and is pretty hard to believe/accept. | pizzamachine
02.26.24 | You are not annoying AnimalForce1 | AnimalForce1
02.26.24 | Thank you Pizza. That genuinely means a ton
“which in turn exacerbates the feeling of isolation”
I feel this HEAVILY. I’ve been trying to break that cycle recently | anode
02.26.24 | just be like me and be annoying and move on. i mean in person you cant really do that but on the internet you can kinda just act how you want. thats the joy of the internet | bellovddd
02.26.24 | you're one of the good ones. | AnimalForce1
02.27.24 | I mean, IDK if I want to be annoying, but that is the beauty of the internet. Can’t argue with that | anode
02.27.24 | i dont wanna be annoying either (unless someones annoyed me) but if it's a consequence of me being myself then so be it. in person its different though and a lil inconsiderate to be annoying obviously but as long as you arent harming anyone and following your own standards of how to treat people then it makes it a lot easier to not be judgmental of yourself. if you built a strong standard for yourself and follow it, other people's opinions really matter a lot less, at least thats what ive found for myself | Ladron93
03.08.24 | Rush's Hold Your Fire is my fave album of Rush. |
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