neekafat
07.12.21 | Fuck me idk England played pretty well |
ArsMoriendi
07.12.21 | Sorry to hear you're down neeka |
Lord(e)Po)))ts
07.12.21 | Thinking of you buddy. I went through an eerily similar situation a few years back and this song really helped pull me through it. Maybe it can be a friend to you the way it was a friend to me those many moons ago xoxo
https://youtu.be/HgV1O0X4uXI |
Sharenge
07.12.21 | let me tell you something neeka... I don't care how close you are - in the end, your friends are gonna let you down
don't trust nobody... not even yourself |
Divaman
07.12.21 | Hang in there neeka. Good to hear from you. |
Dewinged
07.12.21 | I highly doubt it's your fault dude. People living abroad always tend to paint a pretty picture of their lives at home, after 12 years I still do it all the time, but it's just based on nostalgia, plus the grass is always greener on the other side. Don't mortify yourself with a sense of guilt or think you could have done more for her, what she's going through is completely normal and part of her story.
Hope you feel better soon brother neek. |
Relinquished
07.12.21 | Keep working with yourself dawg
people come and go, you’re in that flesh cage forever
enjoy the ride |
Colton
07.12.21 | shar and relish giving the type of advice that an old hardened man would precede with "listen, kid" in a movie |
YoYoMancuso
07.12.21 | yup this is my entire life |
neekafat
07.12.21 | Thank you everyone for the much needed validation of my feelings < 3
"Don't mortify yourself with a sense of guilt or think you could have done more for her" I really really try not to but this is what my mental illness literally makes me do lol |
Dewinged
07.12.21 | I know it's easier said than done ;)
Go to a mirror and say this loud three times. Either I will appear dressed with a white tunic or you will feel better. |
SlothcoreSam
07.12.21 | https://images.theconversation.com/files/254148/original/file-20190116-163280-19jpoyb.jpg?ixlib=rb-1.1.0&q=45&auto=format&w=1000&fit=clip |
SlothcoreSam
07.12.21 | A quick pic to add to your collection. |
Lasssie
07.12.21 | dont think i have ADHD but have certainly struggled With similar thoughts lol. hang in there! You should not listen too much to Lucy Dacus or Julien Baker when you are feeling like this. what i have done in the past in delving into Electronic Music or trash metal heheh |
Trifolium
07.12.21 | This feeling sucks neek, but you'll get through it. Sending over love and good vibes!!! 🍃✨✨✨🤗 |
conesmoke
07.12.21 | Hang in there Neek, know that you're not alone |
combustion07
07.12.21 | I just got back from vacation where I spent damn near every night chainsmoking on the balcony of my room tearing up to Funeral and the rest of my sad playlist lol. I feel ya. Hope you start feeling better soon man. I tend to put the burden of everything that doesn't go my way onto myself too but it's important to try your best to keep yourself grounded when you fall too deep into that hole. Good vibes your wayy |
JohnnyoftheWell
07.12.21 | Yeah it's not your fault [123] and what the people-come-and-go crowd are glossing is that if you're the kind of person who values and makes lasting friendships with worthwhile people now, you'll end up making them again in future. It's obvs a downer if someone you're close with is leaving, but I can't imagine you at all being lonely in the long run
Besides, isn't LA full of arseholes? Guess it's not your fault if your mutual friends suck either. Keep yourself afloat and you'll wind up with folks worth sticking with
But also yeah re. Lasseg comment, sometimes you've gotta find the line between validating and indulging lowfeels with lowfeels musix. Stay healthy |
Lasssie
07.12.21 | I have done that mistake that i have listened to a lot of Music i love while having the blues (or whatever i should Call it) and it has made many albums and songs i love almost impossible for me to listen to without going back to the state of mind i was in while listening to them constantly. A good example for me is Bon Iver - 22, a Million (8 circle to be specific lol).
One thing i have done to cope With shit was that i started running back in 2013 or 2014 (cant remember exactly when because i started out doing it in small doses) but now i run like 15 km everyday and that is holy for me. It is like this time of the day when i only Focus on breathing, putting one foot in front of the other and sort of meditate. You should find Your form for "meditation", if it is in excercise, yoga, Reading or whatever.
Sorry if my writing is messy i should feel With you, neeka lol |
BlushfulHippocrene
07.12.21 | I love you Neeka; hope you're feeling better soon. Don't know how it is in the US (shit, I imagine), but hope you can find a therapist/counsellor soon, too.
...regardless, keep making lists. |
JesperL
07.12.21 | really sorry to hear that neek, i hope things get a whole lot better real soon < 3 |
dedex
07.12.21 | Hang in there neekabro, hope things get better for you m/ mucho love |
Egarran
07.12.21 | Just here to confirm you are one of the best sputnikkers |
CugnoBrasso
07.12.21 | You're good Neek |
zakalwe
07.12.21 | Rejection Sensitive Disorder aka as half human half puppy syndrome. Look on the bright side you’ll be able to lick your own bollocks.
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Atari
07.12.21 | take care of yourself, bud
side note: I'm really digging 3 lately |
SitarHero
07.12.21 | It's not you Neek. You're a good dude. Listen to some Eiffel 65 and dance those blues away. |
Sunnyvale
07.12.21 | Hang in there! If it helps, I recommend the latest Lightning Bug and Phantom Handshakes albums as feel-good listens. List title rules, by the way
AND THAT'S JUST HOW I FEEL, ALWAYS HAVE AND I ALWAYS WILL |
SoggyWetDreamzz
07.12.21 | "let me tell you something neeka... I don't care how close you are - in the end, your friends are gonna let you down
don't trust nobody... not even yourself"
This is rubbish. If you can't find good friends maybe the problem is you. Maybe you have unreasonable expectations of people. Maybe your expectations are just unclear. Whatever it is, if you think ALL people will chronically let you down there's a good chance you are part of the problem. |
Sowing
07.12.21 | you're a good dude. losing friends sucks, but you have to understand that's her decision and it has nothing to do with you - so def don't accept blame internally for someone else's life choices. other than that, it's okay to sort through the hard feelings...it's a form of loss and you're supposed to grieve. |
porcupinetheater
07.12.21 | “Go to a mirror and say this loud three times. Either I will appear dressed with a white tunic or you will feel better.”
Bold assumption Dewi showing up behind me in a white tunic isn’t the real mood enhancer
Sorry to hear it’s rough right now, Neek, internal monologues that don’t play fair are the fucking worst. Heart goes out |
Ryus
07.12.21 | ok i gotta pots made me laugh
feel better neekbro |
neekafat
07.12.21 | "Whatever it is, if you think ALL people will chronically let you down there's a good chance you are part of the problem."
What part of mental disorder do you not understand lmao, obvs I'm part of the problem |
neekafat
07.12.21 | But otherwise seriously thank you everyone. Reading all of this is genuinely helping me get a handle on things. U all rock n shit, love all your support < 3 |
neekafat
07.12.21 | @Lasseg no I totally get you bro! I had a similar experience with that Bon Iver album too, it's really powerful stuff. I need to find my meditation but it's hard when I work 14 hr days usually ): |
Lasssie
07.12.21 | 14 hours? fuu.. damn days that long kind of makes something that could be great distraction nothing more but draining af!
I will try to sleep on this and figure out some suggestions for you because om a tard lol heheh |
neekafat
07.12.21 | Yeahhh I'm in the film industry but luckily my days are a bit relaxed lately so I've been getting away with listening to tunes, been focusing on my breathing lately too (: |
chemicalmarriage
07.12.21 | It's all right to get low sometimes. Allow yourself to feel and process what it is you are going through. There is no shame in that. You are stronger than you think you are. Stay true to yourself |
botb
07.12.21 | Listening to more than sadgirlcore would help you probably but also I hope you feel better regardless. |
bgillesp
07.12.21 | Aw man, hope you get to doing okay soon |
neekafat
07.12.21 | Thank you guys (:
@botb idk if that's even possible lmao |
SoggyWetDreamzz
07.13.21 | @neekafat I was not even talking to you (hence the directly responding to a quote someone that is not you wrote). obviously from this list you are self aware about your mental health. I think the person I was responding to was offering a very poor and unhelpful insight |
neekafat
07.13.21 | I agree but your stance seemed weirdly pointed at what I was talking about so I was confused lol, sorry for taking offense |
SoggyWetDreamzz
07.13.21 | No, sorry, I didn't mean it to be. I get the sense from this list that you very much already knew what I was saying. But imagine giving sharenge's advice to someone who doesn't know that! Yikes |
neekafat
07.13.21 | No worries! And yeah man, they've got a worldview that I just can't ascribe to, but I feel bad for whatever happened to th to make them think it |
WatchItExplode
07.13.21 | I just want to throw out there that with the sorry state of mental health care in the US a lot of the folks I work with have been digging their phone counseling. If you end up struggling to get someone locally it's a very good option. About half of the folks I offered this to over the past couple years have ended up preferring it to in person counseling. YMMV, but availability and cost / coverage are pretty darn good. |
veninblazer
07.13.21 | i feel this |
Divaman
07.13.21 | I've been using phone counseling since the lockdown. Or more precisely, Zoom counseling. Eventually they're gonna make me go back in person, but I'm in no rush. |
Storm In A Teacup
07.14.21 | my brother finally finished therapy and has been mentally approved to move back to California from here in Oklahoma and resume being a professor. he goes back in september, i will miss him, but im way more than happy that he's getting his life back together. |
WatchItExplode
07.14.21 | All the studies I've seen to say there is no particular benefit to in-person counseling / therapy. More traditional programs do seem to want to get people back in the office though. |
Lord(e)Po)))ts
07.14.21 | This reminds of that time yaknips was like "my house burned down" and storm was like "yeah bro my second cousin cut his hand on a spoon" |
JohnnyoftheWell
07.14.21 | yikes that was ages ago |
twlight
07.14.21 | Hope you feel better bruv.
You can't help most people. You can only help yourself. If she wants to leave, give her a fond farewell. She'll be back. I bet it.
Take care of yourself and listen to music. Get some good healthy food from the super market. |
twlight
07.14.21 | And sleep. Sleep is key |
Lasssie
07.14.21 | Lost a good friend this year to suicide. Despite him being bipolar and having depressing episodes i still cant believe it happened and even after attending his funeral in may it still hasnt really hit me yet but some days i have moments when it overwhelms me also lol. What im trying to say is Yeah mental Health is impotant af. I feel like it is still kinda taboo for men to talk openly about it for some reason but luckily that is changing. Youre not alone in dealing With some kind of the blues, Neeka! |
Lucman
07.14.21 | I feel you neek. One of my best friends has been contemplating moving across the world too. Hope you feel better soon, buddy! |
twlight
07.14.21 | We're here, hit us up bro if you want to talk. |
cordwainerbird
07.14.21 | being medicated for my adhd was a gamechanger. good luck |
cordwainerbird
07.14.21 | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68ugkg9RePc |
hel9000
07.15.21 | hey neek hope you're doing okay man, hoping for the best with your medication. you're a good dude and were one of the first people who made me feel welcome here when i got back into the site. all the best buddy. |
neekafat
07.16.21 | Feeling guilty for not responding to you all individually but just know I read everything and love you all for taking the time to make me feel less shitty--it really helped |
someone
07.19.21 | :( |
Lasssie
07.19.21 | hope youre feeling better now, neek! |
neekafat
07.19.21 | A littleeeeee but I've still been so busy that I haven't had time to find a therapist smh I need to stop putting it off |
Divaman
07.19.21 | Yep. |
Lasssie
07.19.21 | yeah dude, putting it off for too long only makes you bottle stuff up so much it eventually will blow up in your face
talkin from xperience lol |
klap
07.25.21 | when did u move to LA bruv? and why didnt u let me know |
klap
07.25.21 | Besides, isn't LA full of arseholes? Guess it's not your fault if your mutual friends suck either. Keep yourself afloat and you'll wind up with folks worth sticking with
damn tuff stray |
neekafat
07.26.21 | I swear we talked about this at one point! I've been here since end of 2019 but I've only really gotten to have a social life until recently for obvious reasons
Our mutual friends are great it's just a weird group of people that's still trying to figure out how we all click together. That's the hard part. But she's doing better lately and so am I |
Egarran
07.26.21 | To make it easier, I recommend you arrange a big shroom trip session for everyone.
There'll be about an hour of telepathic communication where you can learn what everyone is really up to. |
neekafat
07.26.21 | Would not be opposed, never tried shrooms! |
madrigal30
07.26.21 | i feel exactly like this all the time and i don't have adhd but i do think i have BPD and so i relate heavily. it's causing friction btwn everyone i love lol |
Slex
07.26.21 | Love ya so much Neek but I hope u already know that bud |
