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| Two Years
Well, this isn't something I often talk about, if ever really. But honestly, I feel like I've done a complete 180 since it happened, and I feel okay bringing it up. Two years ago today, I attempted suicide. I'll spare the details, but it did involve a lot of pills. I had been off and on depressed since 2010, but in 2015 I was in a really bad place mentally. I knew at the time that "it wasn't that bad", but as some of you may know, no matter how often you tell yourself that, it doesn't change how you feel, or your outlook on life. I had recently lost both of my grandparents, as well as my uncle, all to cancer. My aunt was just diagnosed with cancer and she was looking like she wasn't going to make it very long. All of that piled on, as well as my best friend also having similar problems to me. I took her to the hospital more than once the previous year for suicide attempts. I just felt so helpless, but looking at it now, I was selfish. My aunt beat cancer the first time. It did come back recently, just after I visited her in August. As of today, she went under the knife again, as a tumor had grown on her kidney. The word from the doctor is that he felt very confident that they were able to remove the tumor, and keep the cancer from spreading. I guess I'm just trying to say that I'm very fortunate to have survived, and to have seen how things can get better. I moved in recently with some great friends in Ohio, and my outlook has brightened even more. To anyone out there dealing with depression or anything like it, please don't give up. I don't post too much on this site, but if you're reading this, I hope that y'all are having a good start to the new year. List is digs | | 1 |  | Ulver
Perdition City | | 2 |  | Sound of Contact
Dimensionaut | | 3 |  | Haken
Affinity | | 4 |  | Thank You Scientist
Stranger Heads Prevail | | 5 |  | If These Trees Could Talk
The Bones of a Dying World | | 6 |  | The Hotelier
It Never Goes Out | | 7 |  | Anderson .Paak
Malibu | | 8 |  | Balance and Composure
Light We Made | | 9 |  | A Will Away
Bliss | | 10 |  | Trophy Eyes
Chemical Miracle | |
dmp3131
01.05.17 | Hope y'all are having a good day/evening! | Judio!
01.05.17 | Congrats on making it through all this man. Thanks for making this list too, needed some good vibes tonight and this helped :] | dmp3131
01.05.17 | Thanks dude, I'm glad that this list helped. Sending positive vibes your way, keep your head up! | Emim
01.05.17 | Good on you, dude. Keep your head up | dmp3131
01.05.17 | @Emim 10-4, same to you. And thank you!
@MikeHunt well said man, I can agree with that, especially since it's hard to be even somewhat rational feeling that way. And thank you, same goes to you dude. Shit can get hard sometimes and talking about it, whether it be with a professional, a family member, friend, or any other acquaintance can prove to be helpful | AsleepInTheBack
01.05.17 | good on you for soldiering on, cheers for the posi vibes, I've been up and down a lot lately so it helps
6 is fantastic | Flugmorph
01.05.17 | thanks for this list dawg | unclereich
01.05.17 | Depression is just so hard to articulate im so sorry it got you so low but congrats on the proverbial 180. A lot of families wish their kids would have done the same... | SitruK6
01.05.17 | Them positive vibes doe.
Also congrats dude! | bach
01.05.17 | happy for you man. hearing other people get through this really gives me hope | Rowan5215
01.05.17 | you must be really strong to have made this list, be proud of it homie, you're not alone | dmp3131
01.05.17 | I'm so glad to see that this list can give even the slightest glimmer of hope to anyone, because sometimes that's all that is needed. Just a sign of hope, whatever it may be. To stay determined to get to a better place, along with patience and time are crucial in my opinion. It's hard as hell, but worth it. Keep your heads high fellas, you got this.
Thanks for all the positive comments as well, it means a lot to get this type of response considering I've only opened up about this once or twice.
@Rowan that's one of the most important things to remember as well, no matter what, you aren't alone.
Thanks guys | ScuroFantasma
01.05.17 | Glad you're in a better place now dude | BenThatsMyJamin
01.05.17 | So great to read | GeorgeWBush
01.05.17 | Thanks for the list, my dude. Congraturatations on said 180. Shoutbox me if you want to talk [2] | dmp3131
01.05.17 | Thanks for the support guys! |
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