Brabiz: Depression | Sputnikmusic

Brabiz 02.21.16	I'm not great with genres. Sorry.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	Nicki Minaj - Pink Friday: Roman Reloaded
Brabiz 02.21.16	Haha thanks
Asdfp277 02.21.16	flower face rules
Artuma 02.21.16	"I'm not great with genres" yep i can see that
Asdfp277 02.21.16	who cares it's music
Brabiz 02.21.16	Care to describe in detail what i should change? Other than 13 and 4, i don't see what would be wrong
Asdfp277 02.21.16	wait and u created 14? it's ur album? :0 !!
BlushfulHippocrene 02.21.16	Adore 1, 7, 8 and 9, going to listen to 14. Cool list.
Artuma 02.21.16	"Care to describe in detail what i should change?" well for 1 i'd say it's indie folk (come on what kind of a genre is 'acoustic')
Artuma 02.21.16	there are also some other minor changes i'd do with this but it's not really important
worthlessscab 02.21.16	anything that's not electronic
Avagantamos 02.21.16	I listen to autechre - garbage when I feel like garbage
bach 02.21.16	my 5s
Asdfp277 02.21.16	if i'm feeling like complete shit tho, i listen to bjork's homogenic, and let it cleanse my soul, it's like an exorcism
Asdfp277 02.21.16	homogenic has become my philosophy of life, and my all-time favorite album ever, it's just so spiritual and honest also dude i can't find ur stuff on bandcamp, did u delete it? D:
BlushfulHippocrene 02.21.16	You mean Brabiz? https://goodbyetosleep.bandcamp.com/
Asdfp277 02.21.16	thank u ! >:]
BlushfulHippocrene 02.21.16	It's not too bad, nothing to be embarrassed about. Also, The Smiths for when I feel like garbage, but I can imagine it pissing people off.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	i find some troubles here and there with his record, but yeah it's nothing to be embarrassed about, especially if ur just learning! (also, if it's too personal an album, just delete this comment, u are not obligated to read criticism about it if u don't want to) katatonia's also cool!
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	Whenever I feel like shit I just jam the most pissed off and energetic/groovy thing I can think of.
Mister Twister 02.21.16	tbh I basically listen to nothing but Diary and the Maggot Brain t/t
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	Your album's not bad! Nice! And depression sucks...big time...get help if you're not seeing any pro help. Don't make the same mistake I'm making.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	My Dying Bride and Captain We're Sinking does the trick. The Future Is Cancelled is the quintessential depression album.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	Jiggly: yo, u say you're making that mistake... are u trying to seek help right now?
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@CalculatingInfinity has a point though, if you're feeling down don't just listen to some depressing shit, jam some energetic shit too. RHCP would probably be good for that.
EvoHavok 02.21.16	I usually listen to both kinds.
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	Energetic shit makes me feel worse. Sad music when depressed is cathartic, especially some dsbm
ScuroFantasma 02.21.16	It can be cathartic though Also flower face rules [2] Edi:t choccy beat me
Asdfp277 02.21.16	I thought it was demonstrated that listening to sad stuff while you're sad actually lifts your spirits, so idk but if you tend to dwell to much in ur sadness, then you might have a problem tho, and that problem needs medical attention, not just changing your music library
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	The more I think about it, The Pale Emperor actually has a good balance between cathartic and just straight up depressing- that would be a good one to listen to if you're feeling down. The last few years whenever I've felt low I've listened to Station To Station, that title track just lifts me right up.
BandNewbac 02.21.16	"when i'm depressed" you mean when youre sad and apathetic right?
Asdfp277 02.21.16	probably. technically, "depressed" is the mental state ur describing newbac, while "clinically depressed" means that uve been diagnosed with an episode of major depression but yea
alabasterjones 02.21.16	"HEAL" by Strand of Oaks is my go-to when I'm depressed
BandNewbac 02.21.16	idk saying feeling depressed in this context seems kinda disingenuous but maybe i'm just an asshole
Asdfp277 02.21.16	well, given 14, i would not rule out some depression episode ://
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	Yeah this guy isn't just looking for attention, he's probably got some stuff he needs to get off his chest so let's not patronise and condescend by just dismissing it as disingenuous.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	ppl here @ the sputnik can be emotional sometimes too, don't discriminate anyway, listen to bjork. she'll straighten ur life right away, she'll ~HEAL YOU~
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	Joga will make everything better and that's a GUARANTEE
trve 02.21.16	listen to some dsbm anything by abandoned by light will cheer you up because its simply ridiculously bad + look at that hilarious band concept on their bandcamp page
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	ppl here @ the sputnik can be emotional sometimes too, don't discriminate [2] Pretty much the jam that always cheers me up, the fucking ENERGY!: https://youtu.be/mNUBtXGYDpE?t=1m55s
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4IZbCl6iR4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xfdGXA62ZM
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	@Tuna: Haha that second link.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	Yeah it still cracks me up haha, those lyrics really put things into perspective
Asdfp277 02.21.16	supercell - Today is a Beautiful Day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Ov-gDamXEE
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	This too hard, super posi ^
Asdfp277 02.21.16	and Trespassers William, can't believe it hasn't been mentioned yet lol
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NUBvFUpGPQ
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	"ppl here @ the sputnik can be emotional sometimes too, don't discriminate" There's an unusual amount of honesty I can bestow upon sputnik. it's strange that I can sometimes be more sincere and open to total strangers here than I can in person. I find sputnik quite reliable with topics like these for any user who makes this kind of post
Asdfp277 02.21.16	it's prolly because there's no social compromise. like, i don't know none of y'all, and if i want to, i can just stop coming to this site, so yea. also, since we're strangers, we can be honest and not biased, and it's a big community so there's a lot of conversation, it's great! >:]
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	it's strange that I can sometimes be more sincere and open to total strangers here than I can in person[2] We're all guilty of bottling things up in person, afraid to tell someone how we're feeling. Sputnik is full of some genuine people who give solid advice and for that I'm grateful.
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	'if i want to, i can just stop coming to this site' lol don't act like you're not addicted like the rest of us
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	@Choccy: I feel the exact opposite, I refuse to share anything like this on Sput. I put that down more to the anonymous nature than trusting this specific site.
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	@tuna but the thing I find weird is that doing this on reddit or something isn't the same in the slightest. We definitely have a uniquely awesome community that's also terrible but w/e @calc yeah, that's understandable. I've just found the longer i stayed on this site, the less about just music it became
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	We know each other as online personas, and when it comes to the real person we know nothing. It's a blank slate where you can craft another personality if you so wish. I'll just admit it, I could never give up this site
Asdfp277 02.21.16	choccy: well ok, then making an alt lol
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	Also lol don't act like you're not addicted like the rest of us [2] We're all doomed to this site until the day it dies haha.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@choccy We all have reputations on here, and we all have separate and unique tastes. It's a pretty great community overall.
onionbubs 02.21.16	the cure - pornography sunny day real estate - diary american football - american football mineral - full discog lol
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	"but the thing I find weird is that doing this on reddit or something" That because Reddit is for the most part full of fucking morons.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@Asdfp277 I'd feel bad about lying to people if I made an alt haha, that's how attached I am to this bloody site it's unhealthy.
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	"yeah, that's understandable. I've just found the longer i stayed on this site, the less about just music it became" That is true, gives people a haven for the most part. Have a FB chat with a few people on here and we're all close friends, Sput for better or worse has affected my life a lot.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	the reddit thing is prolly the maturity level of this site. NOW LISTEN, i know what ur thinking, "lmao SPUTNIK MATURE smae", but listen: if u leave the not-accepting-opinions, shitposting side of sputnik aside, the users here are v. mature. for example, in other sites like tumblr or whatever, if you post something personal the users will go out of their way to ruin ur life regardless of ur situation. here, the guys can be pretty fucking blunt, but they mean well when they give their blunt advice, and know when to stop and not go too far (of course there are exceptions, usually cuz they know they should stop but choose not to). also, the users here are a little bit older than outside, so they've been through more shit. so yea
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	When I first started here I saw it as just a place to review and rate music, funny how it's become more about the community.
Titan 02.21.16	'funny how it's become more about the community.' really????????????
Asdfp277 02.21.16	it's like a family -- we're stuck together, like it or not
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	It's like heaven's gate without the mass suicide!!
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	I'd compare it more to a foster home tbh
Titan 02.21.16	well if it accounts for anything, neither one of you are in my bottom 100 :D
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@Titan deep down you feel the same, don't deny it
bakkermaarten007 02.21.16	You listen to your own music?
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@CalculatingInfinity what happens when we get adopted?
Asdfp277 02.21.16	we get returned to the foster home for setting the cat on fire
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	That explains why KILL has been here so long
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	'are a little but older than outside' I thought the average sput age is like 17?
Asdfp277 02.21.16	mx is the owner who just forgot we exist, the mods are the adults... rulers... people? the ones who burn us w/ cigarettes when we make too much noise
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	I am. I'm seeing my gender therapist and all, but I stopped taking anti-depressives and anxiety meds about a year ago. Sometimes I'm more stable and sometimes I'm a mess. Those meds really fuck up your nervous system.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@Choccy pretty sure it is
Asdfp277 02.21.16	jiggly: they do? i've been taking paroxetine for like 8 months now, my life is awesome so i'm happy but idk what i'll do when i stop taking them :s have u consulted ur therapist about those episodes? u gotta be careful
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	Yeah, I have. My depressive/anxiety episodes are more often than not triggered by the negative reactions from my family. Mother thinks I'm just a prostitute. lol (The classic trans latina/afroamerican woman stereotype) And I'm often threatened to be thrown out just because of my wardrobe transition... I've had a couple of whole wardrobes thrown out into the trash behind my back in the past two years. Heh. But, oh well. All I can do is wait. I still don't have the money for a new car, so I'm just studying and working my way out of here.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	oh please do. keep on keeping on, nothing is ever too late, so just keep going and you'll be fine. i'm sure people will be there for you, just keep being the best version of yourself that you can be. your situation sounds shitty, it's a struggle when your identity clashes with the people around you i bet, but with love things can heal. stay positive please :[
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	Thanks! Yeah, that's all I can do. Keep moving forward and helping other trans/queer friends in the process. Many people are living this situation in Puerto Rico. So, the least I can do is lend a helping hand.
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	@jiggly how long til you move out? Once you're free of your mother, who seems to oppress you, it may be much easier to come to terms with who you are
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	It's stories like Jiggy's that makes me think how happy I'll be when this generation hits the 30-40's and our children will not be shamed for who they are.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	@jiggly being around people who are constantly having a go at you for who you are wont do you any favours.
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	I'm applying for this college dorm that I might be able to afford. If not, me and a friend are gonna hit the road on his van and make it a mobile home. Kind of desperate, tbh. But, he's the closest person I have and a great source of love and support.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	y'all are right but u know her situation can be tricky. it's not as easy as going like "ohh i'm just gonna leave the house and not speak to my mother ever" like, obviously. the best she can do now is build up emotional and mental strength, that will carry her though difficult sutuations jiggly: i'm so happy ur participating in a community and helping others, that should help you to get better too! and please, whenever you can, just be forgiving of those around you. you know they can be difficult at times, but usually the people close to you also love you and are just fighting conflicting emotions. not everyone can is as mature and understanding as you are
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	Go for it if you think it's the right thing to do. You'd be better off with a supportive friend than your parents.
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	Yeah, I really hope next gen kids get the full opportunity of just...being themselves, y'know? I was constantly told I couldn't wear dresses or have long hair as a kid/teen because "god made me a boy". That fucks one up, m8. So many trans kids killing themselves nowadays because of people like this putting them down. Having your dad raise his fist at you and yell at you "your a fucking man and just deal with it" while almost leaving you stranded in the middle of the road while you're just drowning in tears. Pretty fucked up.
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	Thanks, sputs. You're a bunch of sweethearts.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	I least I'm making every effort possible to easy all of my friends and my closest family members to the idea of trans* people. So far I've gotten some good responses from my family and most friends, some need a little more processing before at least coming to terms with the fact that it's a reality, so yeah, we're making progress >:] You prolly won't even realize when people suddenly are not gonna be surprised by transwomen and you're gonna look back and think "wow, that's actually a radical change" lol
Rik VII 02.21.16	02.21.16 Depression 02.20.16 Pee Wee's Big Holiday 02.19.16 Disturbing Non-Metal Music 02.18.16 I'm a Satanist 02.17.16 Blasphemous / Satanic Album Art I have a feeling that one of those doesn't quite fit in.
Asdfp277 02.21.16	they are all fitting imo, spend some time around here and you'll see lol
JigglyPDiddy 02.21.16	@Asdfp277 Haha can't wait for that to happen and @RikCucaracha You'd be surprised to find out how much Black Metal Peewee actually listens to. Dude worships Mayhem.
basikchanL 02.21.16	heres something to cheer you up https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TfQ2wZxgB1E :)
SmileNerd 02.21.16	American Football - American Football LP and American Football - American Football EP
Brabiz 02.21.16	Yeah, but pee wee also worships Death-era Mayhem. So he's even more trve than you'd expect
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	Fuck American football, that twinkly shit don't work
Brabiz 02.21.16	I'm not a fan either. I love the genre, but American Football never did anything for me
Calc 02.21.16	the guitarist from hail the sun is making an album about anxiety. that's all i got.
Sinternet 02.21.16	Carissa's Wierd - Songs About Leaving The Antlers - Hospice Tbh whenever my depression or anxiety hits me hard, i tend to find it comforting to think i'm not the only one suffering. It's probably not the best way to feel better, as i basically just ignore my issues and say someone else has it worse, but that's the way i was raised unfortunately - not to have feelings at all because it's 'not very masculine' and to look at all the nice things i have that other people don't. These albums just help me to forget about stuff in general.
Brabiz 02.21.16	Totally forgot about Hospice. It's a big one too. I try to do that as well, it does work sometimes. But personally i'm not too worried about masculinity haha, i can understand that mindset though. My father tried to make me into that, but it didn't really work.
Calc 02.21.16	sinternet and I think the same except the masculine part that has nothing to do with it. I never get depressed but honestly considering the realm of human experience if I ever did I'd remember that soooo many people have gone through worse
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	American Football are overrated, that much I know
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	"but that's the way i was raised unfortunately - not to have feelings at all because it's 'not very masculine' and to look at all the nice things i have that other people don't." I know it's hard since you've been raised on it but I think this mindset is toxic and needs to be changed, just my 2 cents.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	My parents were pretty laid back about it, I suppose I enjoy 'masculine' things but at the same time I'm not afraid to appreciate things such as music and art.
Calc 02.21.16	yeah "masculine things" are cool, music and art is also cool.
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	Music and art aren't masculine now? :o Metal and hip hop are complete sausage fests
chemicalmarriage 02.21.16	You're depressed due to a serious lack of real social interaction due to being a satanist that watches Pee Wee Herman.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	I'm just talking about the way they're traditionally viewed Choccy, I think defining things as masculine and feminine is daft
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	"Football= masculine" "Literature= feminine" who really cares what's what, if you enjoy something it doesn't matter
Sinternet 02.21.16	yeah i wish i didn't have this mindset but in terms of short-term effect it's all i know how to deal with situations really. unfortunately can't help being raised in an extremely traditionalist household.
Sinternet 02.21.16	and tbh i'm a pretty feminine guy i have no problems with expressing that, and yeah these things shouldn't really be labelled as masculine/feminine anymore
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	I know exactly what you mean, I was raised in a household where even though they were laid back they were slightly opinionated about certain things and that meant I didn't want to do things that could be considered 'feminine' or just different. Obviously I don't care about that now and neither do they, it was more when I was little.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	When I started listening to metal and just non pop in general (I was around 11 or 12 at this point) they had no problems with it.
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	@Sin: Short term that's fine but long term it'll just wreck your mind, just an endless circle of thinking you're a bitch since you're so privileged compared to a lot of people yet still have problems. Depression and anxiety should be treated with compassion, regardless of background. The only solution to that I think is talk and surround yourself with people who have heather mindsets and let it influenced your line of thinking. Changing your mindset is so fucking hard (my core self destructive mindset still hasn't changed after all these years) and I hope your anxiety and depression gets better throughout life.
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	Coming from a privelidged background can really fuck with people's heads in the long run and worst of all it gives them a warped and unrealistic view of society. You become out of touch with social struggles and what really matters. "Why are people homeless, they should just find a job!".
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	I just described the conservative party didn't I?
Brabiz 02.21.16	I have a rather healthy social life, and am in a committed relationship. I've also never encountered anyone that has anything against the movie Pee Wee's Big Adventure until now. I grew up on that movie, so did a lot of other people that i know. I genuinely don't understand the comments roasting me for liking that movie. Unless you're the same kind of person that would say "i don't like star wars, i have sex." Or any variation of that.
CalculatingInfinity 02.21.16	Pretty much, Cameron and the scumbags.
chemicalmarriage 02.21.16	Pee wee would want you to worship satan in happiness
Trebor. 02.21.16	Be careful how much you dwell in your own misery
Brabiz 02.21.16	I don't worship satan, but nice try.
chemicalmarriage 02.21.16	Grow up, get over yourself and have a blood orgy like a man. The type of man pee wee herman would let in his playhouse.
Brabiz 02.21.16	Haha blood orgy you say?
Trebor. 02.21.16	It's when you bang a bunch of chicks on the rag
chemicalmarriage 02.21.16	Hope springs eternal
Tunaboy45 02.21.16	bloody orgy, nice
ChoccyPhilly 02.21.16	'get over yourself and have a blood orgy like a man' Yeah fuck you.
pissbore 02.24.16	morphine - good morphine - good morphine - cure for pain morphine - b sides & otherwise oh yeah and another album that really helps when battling depression is the album good by the band morphine
demigod! 02.24.16	winter depression is hitting me hard this year
YakNips 02.24.16	smae don't be down bb
pissbore 02.24.16	Trust me yo, those albums I mentioned really do help
demigod! 02.24.16	jammin good
pissbore 02.24.16	Life changing experience hearing that one for the first time
demigod! 02.24.16	thanks pal, this really hits the spot