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01.04.25 suddenly everything has changed 12.28.23 guess what bm is still making tunes
10.26.23 living in maine...10.13.22 dreamo
08.10.22 machine operator-core04.23.22 MY WAR
04.11.22 hey there sleepy smile11.29.21 mental health struggles
06.20.21 bm has another new band lol12.12.20 wadup y’all
10.04.18 autumn albums pls09.16.18 my band's final album
07.15.18 window:01.13.18 space rock
10.15.17 my band made a movie09.17.17 18!!
04.28.17 hyosis album04.13.17 yet another massive album
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suddenly everything has changed

hello friends of sputnik, it's been a minute. i know i pop in here every now and then, but i guess you can consider this a more formal visit. list is some recent digs and some musings.
1Zao
Where Blood and Fire Bring Rest


living on my own with a partner and working a job i actually really enjoy for the first time ever, those aspects of my life remain surreal despite them being my reality for most of 2024.
2Glassjaw
Kiss Kiss Bang Bang


can't play the drumz (lol) whenever i want to anymore, but being in a space like this has completely reshaped my relationship with music in a positive way that i did not expect. having to not make noise has meant mostly playing guitar unplugged, for instance. an odd consequence of that is that i've become way more precise and way less sloppy, so now i can actually play metal riffz and shit. considering i almost exclusively listened to noise rock and hardcore for like seven years, that's something i never even considered happening. but it's cool, i practice a lot of scales and shit now and i enjoy guitar more than i ever have.
3The Appleseed Cast
Low Level Owl, Volume I


drumming is kinda odd as well, because now i mostly play on a practice pad doing rudiments and shit, aka "boring" stuff. it might seem obvious, and i guess this is a long way of arriving at the point, but what's clearly ended up happening is that i've grown to appreciate playing music more because it's less accessible again.
4On Broken Wings
Some Of Us May Never See The World


in a much broader sense, music has very much taken a backseat in my life, as is typical when one grows into the independence of (western) adulthood. i was very much a scenester for a while, trying to go to local shows every night, starting as many bands as i could, etc., but i feel essentially absent from the "music world" now. part of it's personal, part of it's political (in the personal sense), but honestly i don't miss being intimately involved in music like that one bit. i'm not disowning that aspect of myself or my past, but more so saying my relationship with music has become a lot less dependent and much more nourishing in the way it was before i ever got "involved."
5Helvetia
Helvetia's Junk Shop


in case you don't know, being in a band is really fucking hard. i imagine being in an emo band is especially difficult across the board, since the music you make actively centers on the messier side of the emotional spectrum. i don't mean any of this in a genuinely negative way, it's just really funny to reflect on all the young men i interacted with in my day-to-day existence who were making music collaboratively and very much lacked interpersonal skills. i was very much one of these (i broke up one of my bands over them being late for rehearsal 'for the last time!' i regret it), and i hope i am less of one now. in case you ever wondered why emo (and hardcore in general) bands break up so fast, this is my theory.
6Guided by Voices
Same Place the Fly Got Smashed


by the end of my tenure of being in local bands, while also working in a music store, it felt like music had become everything i didn't want it to be in my life. as odd as it sounds, even though music is very very very much a social force (often above all else, but not always), i don't think i ever truly wanted to be involved in the social world of music the way most of my peers wanted to be. granted, idk what "they" wanted for themselves, but i guess what i really am referring to is something much stranger than that.
7Boards of Canada
Boc Maxima


until recorded music came to be, all music was by default a communal activity. obviously people played instruments by themselves, but that was the only reasonable alternative for quite some time. knowing this, i've always found it interesting how music has gradually become a very solitary activity, something that can be pursued almost entirely alone, especially with the internet. obviously that's a bit of an overstatement, but the reason i say all this is because that was my primary association with music for most of my life: solitude.
8Starflyer 59
Gold


i hate saying shit like this, but i've always been a quite introverted person. having said that, i don't have any difficulty talking to strangers or shit like that; i work in education so it's a skill i need to have lol. but because of this, music was always something i experienced essentially alone. granted, i tried to share what i was into with people on occasion, but you know how that goes when you're the only 9 year old kid in class who knows who the Bled are (thanks guitar hero 2). whether i was naturally like this or not, music has always been a comforting thing that i am happy to keep to myself.
9The Olivia Tremor Control
Black Foliage: Animation Music Volume 1


i don't like to use the word "hobby," because it feels a tad devaluing, but i have reached a very comfortable point now where music is enjoyable again without all the baggage of actually being in bands, playing shows to empty audiences, inevitable beef/drama, etc. i've become really into the idea of music being the thing i do besides my occupation (whatever that may be), because i want it to belong to me again.
10Snapcase
Progression Through Unlearning


it almost feels like peter panning to want to return to music this way, but maybe it's something everyone does and i'm just not aware of it. having music again as a thing that i pursue in a more solitary way has made every aspect of my life more enjoyable, and most importantly it's made me enjoy the thing i for years could not separate from interpersonal drama and other trivial shit. it's nice to feel like that kid with headphones again discovering Deathconsciousness for the first time, or something like that. i'm curious if anybody else has thoughts on how their relationship with music has changed over the years?
11The Pickman Bridge
Vol. 2: No Friends in the Foxhole


inevitably, i'm still making tunes. music occupying a more comfortable spot in my life has probably affected it, but idk. feel free to check it out, thanks for reading and have a wonderful night y'all! https://pickmanbridge.bandcamp.com/album/vol-2-no-friends-in-the-foxhole
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