BigLofty: 2018: transcendence, pain, giving up

BigLofty 12.07.18	not finished yet -- just boutta hit a cone (s/o 420chuck) to either motivate me to finish or to put my ass to sleep we'll know in about 2 hours will add genre tags and links at my own leisure if not anything else, check this while you're here (it's not on the list but that's just as an attempt to counteract my recent spamming of this jvnt): https://poshplasma.bandcamp.com/track/airwave
Marehelm 12.07.18	Nice
THVRTVVN 12.07.18	congrats homie, good to see you kickin errythang but that A I R, that O X Y G E N
bgillesp 12.07.18	Congrats [3]
rabidfish 12.07.18	witnessing your own body getting rid of the toxic shit you put into it like it's a damn sponge being squished is fascinating and terrifying at the same time. Cigs are really hard to quit. At least i try to roll my cigs.
BigLofty 12.07.18	yeah i'm on rollies. get them slim filters to try and stretch the baccy. sober life, while better than that life, seems an eternal struggle. emotions are increasingly difficult to reconcile when all those things you once rushed to for pleasure are removed, and their dizzying euphoria replaced with a rather confusing emptiness.
rabidfish 12.07.18	yea that's basically sobriety lol. but once you start doing shit you actually care about and you are able to make projects that involve more than just the immediate that feeling of emptiness starts to feel a bit more comfortable.
THVRTVVN 12.07.18	going through that whole thing now as well. would rate 1/10 yea
BeyondCosby 12.07.18	Good for you man. How does it feel?
BigLofty 12.10.18	hollow even without the expenses, i'm stuck flippin packs on the side for xxtra cash poverty is terminal gang
BigLofty 12.10.18	PIKACHU GOLD x PEACH PEARLS ETERNAL ggggimme yo damm $$$
BigLofty 12.10.18	LISTEN TO THESE TRACKS BITCH
Meridiu5 12.10.18	grats breh cigs arent that bad if its like 1 a day
BigLofty 12.10.18	on the real it's more like 15-20 a day but it's way better than where i was
hal1ax 12.10.18	money
BigLofty 12.10.18	freebase cocaine/crack just local slang
BigLofty 12.10.18	most people just buy coke and do lines, but for peeps like me and my homies, we buy that, whip it up with some bicarb and smoke it up streeeeetch that product
hal1ax 12.10.18	crack aint no joke. half-life is so short.. ultra fiend mode on that shit
hal1ax 12.10.18	meth is like 12-24 hour half-life lol
BigLofty 12.10.18	i mean, the guys i know that are still using are our runners and our enforcers it's a great way to g oneself up for a break in or a beating no mercy shit
BigLofty 12.10.18	hardly viable to do here though seeing as an 8ball costs $150 minimum
hal1ax 12.10.18	brutal
platnum 12.10.18	It's about time Fxking Crackheads
BigLofty 12.10.18	a lotta dealers out these parts cut their coke with skag too shit's fucked