Tyler.: official talk about your feelings thread

Tyler. 12.15.16	go
TVC15 12.15.16	why can't I just fucking die
CaimanJesus 12.15.16	asians have a longer life expectancy
50iL 12.15.16	I feel like taking a shit brb
Tyler. 12.15.16	why do you want to die
JeetJeet 12.15.16	My grandmother keeps calling Kendrick Lamar mumble rap and I'm sick of it might just give her the hands tbh.
Tyler. 12.15.16	i dont recommend incest jeet jeet
stranger 12.15.16	i'm gassy
Trebor. 12.15.16	My rent next month is 450, I have 600 dollars and no job
Tyler. 12.15.16	what happened to your other job
Dewinged 12.15.16	Nothing wrong cause you put Fire! on 1
TVC15 12.15.16	"asians have a longer life expectancy" I mean you're not wrong in some respects to that
Tyler. 12.15.16	sorry to inform you but list is not ranked
RogueNine 12.15.16	Good, I was getting worried.
RLWFormula 12.15.16	Out of toilet paper so I have to use tissues. Car's broke too
calmrose 12.15.16	currently on the job hunt, which has been incredibly frustrating (i.e. full time with decent pay) and just recently finished my grad school applications and have entered the waiting game and have been feeling pretty stressed/overwhelmed about the possibility of not getting in
voltairesangryglove 12.15.16	do you work at all? take a waiter gig or something. sitting on your ass waiting for the call will get you nowhere man.
Tyler. 12.15.16	school is pretty stressful for me too. especially cause im behind now
stranger 12.15.16	drop out and get high all the time instead
mindleviticus 12.15.16	my shoes are covered in horse shit :[
SandwichBubble 12.15.16	feeling good, but tired. Marathoned MTV's Daria this morning after not watching it for like 15 years or so.
Tyler. 12.15.16	Is daria worth getting into? People tell me irl that I remind them of her or something
stranger 12.15.16	they're just calling you a pussy
JeetJeet 12.15.16	You know what's really worth getting into? The show You're The Worst. Finished s3 yesterday and yea its fuckin fire.
Conmaniac 12.15.16	im scared school is very stressful, I might fail physics, I have an exam tomorrow, an 8 page paper due friday, a portfolio due sunday, another exam monday and my last exam tuesday
SandwichBubble 12.15.16	@stranger damn @Tyler. 5 seasons, all pretty decent. I'd say check out an episode to see if you'd like it. If your friends say you're like Daria I bet you'd like it. (my friends used to say the same :\|) @Conmaniac get off sput ya nut
Deathconscious 12.15.16	well, it all started when my dad said i had a small dick...
MarsKid 12.15.16	Nobody talks to me. Sad times.
ConcubinaryCode 12.15.16	I feel like I'm going to die alone and unloved and it scares me.
alienobserver 12.15.16	i want to die so bad rn
Tyler. 12.15.16	Foreal
Sinternet 12.15.16	the thing about daria is that once you get a certain way through it you realise that she's the asshole not everyone else
alienobserver 12.15.16	i need oxy
Sinternet 12.15.16	also i've sent out over 80 job applications over the last month and heard back from three
MarsKid 12.15.16	Best of luck my man, hope one of em works out.
RogueNine 12.15.16	That's pretty much how I expect my next job search to go, Sint.
Tyler. 12.15.16	the thing about daria is that once you get a certain way through it you realise that she's the asshole not everyone else i dont see the issue
TVC15 12.15.16	Finals tomorrow and Friday and then next Monday and Tuesday smh
MarsKid 12.15.16	I already did my finals and thankfully they were easy, you got this my man. Go in with as much confidence as possible.
ZippaThaRippa 12.15.16	I got the okay for Overtime next week so I'm gonna earn some serious holiday bucks. Exciting. Feeling good.
calmrose 12.15.16	"also i've sent out over 80 job applications over the last month and heard back from three" same boat Sin, I have a phone interview tomorrow and hoping it goes well, though I'm not the greatest on the phone
guitarded_chuck 12.15.16	applied for a job i feel i have a decent chance at getting but there would be a decent chance id have to move to a new province
Shadowmire 12.15.16	fuck
Sinternet 12.15.16	yeah good luck to you, i have an interview next week for one, like i just need something so i can save up for further education
Trebor. 12.15.16	"also i've sent out over 80 job applications over the last month and heard back from three" shit's fucking brutal right now man. Had an interview today. If I don't get this job I'm fucked
brainmelter 12.15.16	life is good because I've been listening to a lot of Duster. At work, when I'm high, when I'm with friends, when I'm hanging with bae. all the time
tellah 12.15.16	I know that feel TVC ive been trying not to wank as much but with four final exams in a row i've been fapping through the pain
FearThyEvil 12.15.16	got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes a few days ago so I feel like shit
FullOfSounds 12.15.16	really sorry to hear that dude
MarsKid 12.15.16	Glad you're feeling well my man
Typhoon24 12.15.16	i feel like i can't have fun unless im under the influence of something..weed, alcohol, uppers, downers. thankfully i have enough self control from becoming physically dependent on any of them, but psychologically i feel lost. i have a lot to be grateful for (wife, healthy kid, job, apt, etc) and i can go through life without being depressed...but yet I'm usually not having a good time unless im under the influence of something. (cant watch sports sober, cant watch a movie sober, cant go hiking sober, hell even sex is boring sober) the worst thing in my life that I regret was convincing myself I had to take a low dose of mdma to play with my kid (makes me more loving and giddy). dads shouldn't have to get high to be a dad.
YakNips 12.15.16	i feel alright
Tyler. 12.15.16	throughout this thread i have listened and responded to every comment, but yet no one has said tyler, why are YOU sad?
MarsKid 12.15.16	tyler, why are YOU sad?
Tyler. 12.15.16	its too late im too far gone
Typhoon24 12.15.16	@MikeHunt thats the thing. i can go months without using anything. ill just be dull. it's like once I tasted it, the rest of my states of emotions are dulled. im like empty/neutral 95% of the time. I can't really experience feelings like joy or bliss, contentment or serenity. the best i can feel is lust but that's about it. and i dont think that's a good emotion. funnily enough I can feel the negative emotions JUST FINE lol.
deathschool 12.15.16	I fucked up
Tyler. 12.15.16	did you really
MarsKid 12.15.16	"its too late im too far gone" No worries I'm right here for ya "I fucked up" Well we've all been there my man, what happened
Snake. 12.15.16	last final tomorrow thank fucking god
dbizzles 12.15.16	Damn, you guys are all fucked. Just kidding. Things are going pretty good for me right now though. No big changes in life, doing okay financially and with my family and all that. I've had writer's block lately, but that happens from time to time. The coin will flip. You'll all be alright.
MarsKid 12.15.16	Best of luck dude, you got this. @Snake
50iL 12.15.16	@Snake How'd the rest of em go?
MarsKid 12.15.16	Let's go jam some slam
heck 12.15.16	maybe it's just seasonal depression on top of my usual depression, but I've been feeling really empty lately. I just started a new job (that I already hate) but I feel like I'm no closer to any of my goals and I'm just turning into a soulless drone. on top of that I've developed feelings for a friend, but they already have feelings for somebody else so I'm just keeping it to myself and it's tough. and now I'm coming up on the fifth anniversary of a serious suicide attempt and I feel like I'm just reliving it over again, like all the feelings that made me do that are just flooding back. I don't really have the passion or desire for anything anymore, not even music which has been the one constant that's kept me afloat over the past few years. idk why I'm even posting here. I guess I just saw this and felt like I needed to say it somewhere where people who know me won't see it lmao
Typhoon24 12.15.16	get it all out playa
MarsKid 12.15.16	"i cant slam right now sorry" fucking rip the man is dead What's wrong dude
MarsKid 12.15.16	"idk why I'm even posting here. I guess I just saw this and felt like I needed to say it somewhere where people who know me won't see it lmao" Yo Sput is like brothers and sisters in a big family: we all bicker and fight with each other and have our differences like all siblings do. But by the end of the day we (sometimes) come together and like each other (somewhat). Never attempted suicide and I'm really sorry that you're having those feelings my man. I've been at points where I've contemplated it so I've been around that sort of point. All I can say is that life is a mixed bag, it comes out real shitty sometimes but it always works its way out. There's always gonna be a time where those feelings come back and it's really just hell, honestly. But you can power through. You may not feel it, but you've got the strength to beat it.
MarsKid 12.15.16	"life aint shit dont want it" Well my man we're hear for ya if you ever need something.
ArsMoriendi 12.15.16	I feel better today than I have in 3 months.
MarsKid 12.15.16	"I feel better today than I have in 3 months." Well dude that's good. Hope things keep going up for you.
Royl123 12.15.16	^Same
deathschool 12.15.16	Like you ever think you're over something from goddamn years ago, and then you just reopen the wound for no discernible reason and it just compounds with everything else that you've been fucking up lately, and you wish that you could feel the way you did before when you felt empty because it would actually be a relief compared to this fresh hell that your mind decided to stir up? Yeah. That's where I am at the moment.
Conmaniac 12.15.16	typhoon your story scares the shit out of me because that's totally gonna be me in like 10 years fuck
MarsKid 12.15.16	Oh I get to those points way too fucking often @death. My problem is that whenever I have time to myself (and I get too much time), I get to thinking about things way too much. All it leads to is going back into the past and mulling over mistakes and shit emotions that make present-day me feel like shit. It's a tough spot to be in my man. All I can say is that the decisions we make help shape us up to be who we are, and even the worst experiences can be twisted to produce some sort of positive outcome. Hope you feel better my man.
50iL 12.15.16	That's awful man, everyone fucks up big time at least once though. Be compassionate with yourself and forgiving. If you need help we're always here and you can seek it outside too.
MarsKid 12.15.16	People are you always care more than you know.
deathschool 12.15.16	I'm gonna get professional help soon. Maybe that's not the thing to talk about on here, but I've hit a low that I kind of thought I wouldn't have to fuck with anymore, and I don't have the sort of time to waste figuring it out myself like I used to try to do.
50iL 12.15.16	That's good man, it'll help you quite a bit
MarsKid 12.15.16	Sometimes it's good to try out stuff like therapy. It works really well for some people and really gets them through shit. Hope you're able to take that step, if you want to.
Typhoon24 12.15.16	@Conmaniac I feel it's a genetic/raised in similar environments thing. i used music as an escape/outlet/boredom satisfier in my teens and young adult life (still play when i can) and funnily enough my closest friends all had that in common (in addition to the need for drugs to feel "fun")
Winesburgohio 12.15.16	This is going to sound dumb, but this time a week ago i was like 'i wish i could hire someone to kill me so it looked like an accident' and now one magical date (that will never go anywhere) and heaps of Mark Kozelek later I feel o.k. and appreciative of the love that i've had, even though it's lost, and I'm grateful to be alive to keep trying and being better and not fucking up so constantly and ease up on the booze and that whole shit. Anyway full support but something the littlest most impermanent things can be really special and come from nowhere so hope isn't lost
brainmelter 12.15.16	'Can't slam right now sorry' D:
Conmaniac 12.15.16	@Typhoon well fuck dude im 20 rn and in college and all I look forward to are the weekends when I can get really fucked up. I feel like I need a change in mindset but there's no way I'm going substance free in college it's just not gonna happen lol
MarsKid 12.15.16	"Anyway full support but something the littlest most impermanent things can be really special and come from nowhere so hope isn't lost" Glad you're feeling well my man. "there's no way I'm going substance free in college it's just not gonna happen lol" I'm pre much the only guy on my dorm that doesn't drink/do other shit and I've been outcast because of it.
theBoneyKing 12.15.16	@Marskid: I don't drink/do other shit but I don't have a problem being around other people drinking/smoking etc. I just don't like to go to parties so it's not really an issue anyways.
Typhoon24 12.15.16	@con yeah...I really wish I could say something helpful but honestly all drugs do is make your world small and subtly convince you they're necessary in life. when people tell me I need a new hobby I'm like "yo weed and some etiz knocks whatever you're suggesting out the park tho." it was fun when I was younger because i had less responsibilies and could get wild but now that I've seen a lot of what's on the horizon I'm comfortable with my weekly dosing. rest of the time it's like autopilot life.
dbizzles 12.15.16	Yo, Hellscythe, plenty of year-end lists around here to give you something to take your .Ind off of things and to get back into music. And fuck it, tell your friend how you feel. You'll never know if they're holding back the same shit. And sach, let the slam enfold you. Things always get better.
MarsKid 12.15.16	I have no problem with drinking or anything either. If people want to do that it's fine by me. But around my dorm it's like nobody wants anything to do with you unless you get fucked up every night. I've tried being open and accommodating but the people here have made it clear they just want nothing to do with me.
50iL 12.15.16	Dunno man, parties just give me migraines
MarsKid 12.15.16	Tried going to parties and it doesn't help. It's just a bunch of people I don't know getting completely fucking drunk together in a very closed space. It doesn't help that I'm not the biggest fan of big crowds where you're shoulder to shoulder constantly with other people.
MarsKid 12.15.16	But nobody will do anything with me unless I go out to a party. It's like there's nothing else to do here.
50iL 12.15.16	That fucking sucks
50iL 12.15.16	It's still better to not get drunk and torture yourself than torturing yourself and drinking tho
theBoneyKing 12.15.16	MarsKid remember that you don't need to please anybody else. If you want to spend the nights in just do that. But I am also sure there are other people out there like you. Join some clubs, occupy yourself. This is all advice I could myself do well to heed as well.
dbizzles 12.15.16	Yo, Mars. College was alienating to me as well. You'll find friends elsewhere naturally. Do what I didn't and focus on school now and friendship later. Some of my best friends I met after college anyway. Take an acting class next semester; it will fulfill a general credit and you will a have a relatively unorthodox approach to learning than the rest of the typical (but necessary) classes you are required to take. Plus, that's a hotbed for making friends without normal social pressures.
Conmaniac 12.15.16	@typhoon lol ya ive started noticing that I like taking activities that I love doing sober (like golfing or skiing or going to an amusement park) and asking myself "hmmm what if I did that high??" like it's a dangerous game. but it's fun for now so idk. when I got a taste of the 9-5 job life over the summer for my internship I was so fucking bored that all I wanted to do was get high after work. so yeah I feel like I'll figure shit out eventually but for now it's looking like I'll end up like ya which totally isn't a bad thing actually sounds p great. like life doesn't have to be fun all the time. @Mars yea thats just college man and as someone who has met most of my friends thru alcohol/weed it sucks for ppl that dont do that stuff. id rec joining a bunch of clubs and just putting yourself out there. but drinking at parties helps a lot because it loosens ya up a bit and you can socialize more
Snake. 12.15.16	basically all i need to pass this class is to get at least a 26% on the final idgaf anymore
MarsKid 12.15.16	I found some people that I vibed with pretty well, but they were always busy and never talked to me at all. They didn't really care all that much so I stopped trying to be with them. Ever since then I've been pretty much stuck in my room. Some nights it's fine, I have fun playing TF2 or something and enjoy that. Sometimes it's just fucking lonely and it honestly just hurts. Only friends I have here are this one dancer and this other girl whose favorite subject is herself and her problems.
theBoneyKing 12.15.16	"basically all i need to pass this class is to get at least a 26% on the final idgaf anymore" Cs get degrees, as they say
MarsKid 12.15.16	They've got theatre auditions opening up the week I get back from winter break though, I'm hoping I can nail a part in something and give me something else to focus on at least.
theBoneyKing 12.15.16	Mars it'll all work out, as I said I'm in a very similar situation, I've learned not to beat myself up over it.
Snake. 12.15.16	butttttttt i'm also afraid because if i actually do end up failing i'm gonna have to appeal to the dean why i should stay in school but if i fail this class they're gonna give me the cane
MarsKid 12.15.16	I know I can power through it, this is just the rough spot before the good times. Music has helped.
Typhoon24 12.15.16	@con word. just always be careful and dont get trapped into any habit. shit i felt like i lost many precious months to weed in my teens/early 20s because I felt it was harmless. tldr have responsible fun with the harder drugs now and the softer ones later lol.
dbizzles 12.15.16	Also, imgur helps. Dank memes are your friend.
theBoneyKing 12.15.16	Dank memes forever
50iL 12.15.16	What's the dankest meme to meme?
Rowan5215 12.15.16	whenever I have no work to do I feel like every single second is wasted and all the things I enjoy in free time - music, TV, books etc - I can't even enjoy anymore because I feel like I should fucking be doing something productive. and then when I actually have work to do or things to keep me occupied I get lazy and apathetic and don't fucking do any work also, I turn 20 tomorrow and that absolutely terrifies me, although at least I'll get out of the house for the first time in two weeks and see some friends. sup dudes
Typhoon24 12.15.16	is blackpeopletwitter a meme or a movement (lol)? cause it would be #1 for me
Conmaniac 12.15.16	only "hard" drugs ive done are lsd/shrooms. thinking of trying mdma and my friends want me to try dmt really bad but im a bit reluctant aha. but yeah good advice I'll try not to get in a habit. ive gone weeks without smoking before no problem aha
Trebor. 12.15.16	lsd and shrooms aren't hard drugs hard drugs are mostly cocaine heroin and meth yo stay away from dat shit
Typhoon24 12.15.16	ur set lol. i thought u had tried uppers and downers. dont rush shit and it's totally fine to not do mdma. just turns you into a love machine the first time with a shrunken dick (stimulants make your dick small temporarily if you binge)
Typhoon24 12.15.16	hard drugs for me include: speed (and its analogues), mdma (and its analogues) coke, benzos,psychs and painkillers. thats what i was referring to. crack heroin meth stay away. the rest i think you can try once without screwing yourself over (assuming you dont have a serious anxiety problem with benzos or are in chronic pain with painkillers)
Conmaniac 12.15.16	lsd is a fucking hard drug if ive ever tried one that shit lasts wayyyy too long. also it's such an intense high. and yeah im not too keen on uppers even mdma. if i do it im gonna get a test kit and take the vitamins before and after. dmt im very curious about because it only lasts 15 but if I "breakthrough" im scared what I'll turn out to be on the other side. heard some horror stories. my friend recently broke through though and he's basically the same
RogueNine 12.15.16	"Like you ever think you're over something from goddamn years ago, and then you just reopen the wound for no discernible reason and it just compounds with everything else that you've been fucking up lately" This is actually pretty close to how I've been as of late.
Conmaniac 12.15.16	coke im down to try actually my roommates just tried it for the first time a couple days ago. ive snorted shit before too like Ritalin and Adderall lolll
dbizzles 12.15.16	Typhoon, black twitter dumps on imgur are my favorite thing. 10/10 would recommend.
Typhoon24 12.15.16	LSD is a sledgehammer but it's not habit forming and usually self-regulating. trebor prolly meant in terms of addiction
dbizzles 12.15.16	Yo, Row. That's just the balance of life. Accept your responsibilities and escape them entirely in your down time if you can.
Conmaniac 12.15.16	LSD is far from habit forming yeah. only tripped a couple times def couldn't do that on a regular basis
Rowan5215 12.15.16	I would love to be able to think that way but I constantly beat myself up for the smallest shit, and now that I actually have shit to beat myself up about (just ruined a very good friendship the other day) there's nothing I can physically or mentally enjoy atm do you guys ever just hate being yourselves
Tyler. 12.15.16	Yeah all the fuckin time
Conmaniac 12.15.16	shrooms were so nice tho plus didn't last as long. i loop wayyyy too hard on lsd though I end up just freaking myself out
Typhoon24 12.15.16	ya rowan it's sometimes why i use drugs
Conmaniac 12.15.16	i like myself tbh. im just stressed the fuck out
Typhoon24 12.15.16	yeah coke can mess you up as bad as meth... idk i just had a rather pleasant experience with my binges and never used since so thanks for the cautionary warning. maybe i got off lucky
Tyler. 12.15.16	Sometimes I think I'm like the worst person ever not even hyperbole
Conmaniac 12.15.16	im pretty nervous to try and I wouldnt buy it I would just do a line kinda drunk or something. one and maybe done it
Typhoon24 12.15.16	Sometimes I think I'm like the worst person ever not even hyperbole nah ray lewis is for that bs in ny visiting trump to go talk about black on black crime foh
MarsKid 12.15.16	Time to jam sad stuff
Rowan5215 12.15.16	typh and tyler I feel both of you rn, y'all are both great people based on our interactions here. guess we all just need to claw our way towards something like self-respect one day
theBoneyKing 12.15.16	"i like myself tbh. im just stressed the fuck out" This
Typhoon24 12.15.16	cheers
deathschool 12.15.16	Tyler, John, and/or company, you're goddamn awesome.
RogueNine 12.15.16	Hey we don't call you Rowbro for nothing. You're one of the bro-iest people around.
Tyler. 12.15.16	I just got myself in a bad situation and no matter what its not gonna end well idk I gotta rip the band aid off or whatever the saying is
Conmaniac 12.15.16	college is a bitch Boney but it's a fucking blast.
Conmaniac 12.15.16	tyler u wanna talk about it?
Tyler. 12.15.16	Thanks pals I'm feeling marginally better
Tyler. 12.15.16	No I'm just gonna do homework and ignore it for a little bit more
Rowan5215 12.15.16	lmao cheers rogue and tyler hope it gets better for you man. let's all jam leonard cohen and cry ourselves to sleep
dbizzles 12.15.16	'I met a man who lost his mind in some lost place I had to find, follow me the wise man said, but he walked behind.' -Cohen
Gestapo 12.15.16	New a day to remember is so good I can't syudy
Piglet 12.15.16	PSA TO ANYONE WHOSE SUFFERS FROM CHRONIC ANXIETY PSA TO ANYONE WHOSE SUFFERS FROM CHRONIC ANXIETY PSA TO ANYONE WHOSE SUFFERS FROM CHRONIC ANXIETY and depression Nootropics changed my life. In particular: Aniracetam, Phenibut, Ashwaganda, Tianeptine Sulfate, Theanine, Alpha-GPC, Polygala tenifolia, Sulbutiamine Work out a good stack, be responsible, cycle and interchange those anxiolytic drugs regularly, load up some gel caps and actually enjoy life. I was a wreck before and was in a really bad way for the past couple years but for months now I've been genuinely happy and content. Before where I would spend hour after agonizing hour restless, with the same pounding thoughts ringing my head through and through, not finding enjoyment with anything, not being able to eat properly because of that sick feeling inside, that well of dread and angst- it's all gone.
Typhoon24 12.15.16	how many of those would give severe withdrawals if you cease daily use abruptly? genuinely want to know
Trundle 12.15.16	so i went up to my brother in-law the other day and i said, "Y" He said "Why what?" I said "Y equals mx plus b, haha I'm a math teacher, what's your name?" Shawn's got my calculator bass bass b-bb-bass.
Trundle 12.15.16	last night i shit so much my asshole bled no chris, you wiped so much your asshole bled Woah
wwf 12.15.16	I just broke up with my girlfriend and I don't know if I can be a good person
YakNips 12.15.16	for 99% of people sobriety is the only true path to happiness, anyone that says otherwise does not have your best interest at heart. also self-hatred is a gross moral crime. please pick yourselves up love y'all
bach 12.15.16	Cant believe people are actually being nice itt. Keep your head above the water guys and gals.
Astral Abortis 12.15.16	eyah alcohol sucks
Piglet 12.15.16	"how many of those would give severe withdrawals if you cease daily use abruptly? genuinely want to know" Phenibut and supposedly Tianeptine are the only ones documented to be addictive and to have any sort of withdrawals. But I took Phenibut twice daily for months and then stopped and didn't have a problem. Honestly it's good to just cycle Tianeptine, Phenibut and maybe Aniracetam if you are after the more euphoric, stimulated feeling which you can build a tolerance for, but I only use these to combat the anxiety and that only seems to potentiate over time. So long as you're responsible they are all perfectly fine in my experience.
MrSelfHater 12.15.16	I broke up with my girlfriend just yesterday. I fucking loved her and still do, I loved us together. Never in my life have I felt as happy as I did with her. But I'm 20; she's older and has a kid. From the beginning I felt her having a child is a great detriment to our potential future and I can't go through life being nagged by that thought. Especially since she was basically my first girlfriend, barring a few short, sexless flings. Hardest thing I've ever done. It rained tears on both our faces for two hours, as we stayed together. When I hugged her and she begged me to stay, I almost did.
Piglet 12.15.16	Mate you can have as iron of a will as you like but I doubt you won't relapse and see her again. Especially nowadays where you're perpetually connected to each other through a screen. It's hard to switch off interactions completely with someone you love.
MrSelfHater 12.15.16	I almost went through with it once before, then pussied out. This can't go on. I know I'll come to hate the kid as the only thing it the way of the relationship I want. I feel it was my responsibility to end it. Still mauling over it with her on facebook.
Davil667 12.15.16	Someone said dating a girl with a kid is like continuing the saved game of someone else... But seriously, something about your explanation just doesn’t make sense to me. No offence man, but if you can’t accept her child I highly doubt you truly love her as her kid is an integral part of her. She isn’t the right girl for you if you can’t accept the situation as a whole, it’s as simple as that. As you already figured out yourself it’s the best for all of you if you moved on, in this constellation no one will be happy in the long run.
MO 12.15.16	nothings wrong taking the world head on and it's fucking awesome
MarsKid 12.15.16	Feeling good now because Exotic Animal Petting Zoo is confirmed still alive and playing shows
neekafat 12.15.16	That just seems kinda cold to me but I can't judge, because I'd never know how I'd act in that place. Life is great, but I always start feeling a little down during the winter
calmrose 12.15.16	"Feeling good now because Exotic Animal Petting Zoo is confirmed still alive and playing shows" !!!!!
blacklightjer 12.15.16	craving a wet sloppy BJ
zakalwe 12.15.16	Physically I'm getting absolutely crippling headaches. Having a CT scan, if it's dire news I'll make a list and post albums by fuck your emotional bullshit cos it'll illustrate the feels.
dbizzles 12.15.16	Hey, MrSelfHater, you did nothing wrong. It's hard to be in a relationship with someone that already has a kid, especially at 20. Ultimately you need to set yourself up to be in an ideal relationship for you, but you've got to be willing to compromise to some degree unless you're cool with being single for a long time. I've been with my girl for 3 years now; she has a son and is divorced and all that and I very slowly got used to the situation, but I'm 28 so I'm in a bit different spot in my life than you. You'd do best to try to limit contact and I'm not sure what you've told her about your reasons for leaving, but be very careful with what you have to say in regards to the kid. You don't want to make her feel like she's hopeless concerning a relationship just because of her situation. Anyway, sorry you're having a hard time.
MrSelfHater 12.15.16	Thanks dbizzles. I explained my feelings to her honestly and in detail, then took everything she said back. I know it's far from perfect, it's not feel-good movie stuff. One part of me regrets ending it and the other just feels like shit. I won't know what to really think about any of this until I gain some perspective. I haven't used my account in quite a while, what a day to see this thread.
CalculatingInfinity 12.15.16	Christ this thread is just...depressing :[ I hope things turn up for the better for everyone, embrace the posi. "whenever I have no work to do I feel like every single second is wasted and all the things I enjoy in free time - music, TV, books etc - I can't even enjoy anymore because I feel like I should fucking be doing something productive." This so hard.
Maco097 12.15.16	What a gay thread.
CalculatingInfinity 12.15.16	Shut up Maco
Avagantamos 12.15.16	my friend got fired from work yesterday :(
blacklightjer 12.15.16	still craving that BJ
dbizzles 12.15.16	Probably going to be craving that for a while.
rufinthefury 12.15.16	i think im in love again. i do not like this. rec me tunes to hate this girl
MO 12.15.16	"What a gay thread" looool
neekafat 12.15.16	@Mike lol
Davil667 12.15.16	@MrSelfHater: I didn't mean to be harsh or something like that dude. I just wanted to say you obviously won't find your happieness in this constellation, neither will she. It's the right choice to move on even if it's hard to do so. You're still pretty young and you can look forward to many great experiences. Wish you all the best for sure.
voltairesangryglove 12.15.16	fuck off with that astrology bullshit
Tyler. 12.16.16	Did pretty well on my presentation today
Conmaniac 12.16.16	I haven't had a gf since I was 16
guitarded_chuck 12.16.16	prob for the best
Conmaniac 12.16.16	ye college is too stressful to worry about a relationship but every time I hook up with someone I end up trying anyways
guitarded_chuck 12.16.16	normal
Conmaniac 12.16.16	very normal ik just thought I'd share my feelings
Conmaniac 12.16.16	the percentage of hookups that lead to rejections is 100% though which confuses the hell out of me
guitarded_chuck 12.16.16	hm i wouldnt over think it, itll happen when it happens stop trying for awhile
FullOfSounds 12.16.16	Life is overall good, doing well in almost all of my classes.
MarsKid 12.16.16	Damn, sorry my man. @Con
Deathconscious 12.16.16	just some college girls looking for some dick, i wouldnt take it personally.
Snake. 12.16.16	update: i finished the exam today and i'm confident that i got at least a 30%
guitarded_chuck 12.16.16	r u me
MarsKid 12.16.16	What classes are you taking dude
Trundle 12.16.16	Now back at the party I was walking around Looking for my girl cause she can't be found Just a minute ago she was chillin by my side She prolly wants to play a game of seek and hide So I walked in this room and I forgot to knock When I opened up a door they forgot to lock She was laying on the bed with nothing but her socks Looking drunk with a mouth full of Courtney cocks I took a step back, couldn't believe my eyes She was under the cover like FBI When she told me that she loved me she was feeding me lies Like at Wendy's last week when she was feeding me fries My fries weren't dipped in ketchup, they was dipped in deceit Little did I know she was sneaking under the sheets So I walked out the door and said forget that ho Ate a hand of candy corn to pick me up from my low
Conmaniac 12.16.16	and of course the only girl that is really into me and obv wants a relationship is someone back at home. not gonna try long-distance tho lol no point
Snake. 12.16.16	sometimes you just have no choice when you're in college tbh
Tyler. 12.16.16	I'm in long distance rn and let me tell you
Conmaniac 12.16.16	id rather keep this rollercoater of highs n lows going than trying to make a long distance thing work
MarsKid 12.16.16	I'm in one too, but the distance isn't that big thankfully. It's not easy, but we work through it.
Conmaniac 12.16.16	7hr drive for me so not worth itttttt. also idk if im really into her or just like the fact that someone decently attractive is into me. we are probably gonna hook up over break tho so let's hope i dont catch feelings im a shitty person ik
Snake. 12.16.16	wouldn't a long distance just mean nudes every week
Conmaniac 12.16.16	it would mean actually trying while constantly being tempted/wondering if it is even worth it. so lots of phone calls/facetimes, not a lot of payoff. also lot's of money spent of trips back and forth.
DominionMM1 12.16.16	CAN I BOOOORROW A FEELIIIIINNNG
Conmaniac 12.16.16	HURTING HEARTSS NEED SOME HEAALLINNGGG
Typhoon24 12.16.16	what mike said^
Conmaniac 12.16.16	will try to avoid lol dont you worry
Tyler. 12.18.16	someone tell me i can do it
YakNips 12.18.16	u can do it but next time tell urself u can do it and u will feel much better
hal1ax 12.18.16	u would do it if u could do it but u cant do it so u shant do it
hal1ax 12.18.16	what's in it for me
hal1ax 12.18.16	that would make me sad doe
ArsMoriendi 12.18.16	This list is actually a good idea Instead of having 15 separate "I'm depressed" lists all users can just go here
Tyler. 12.18.16	no way my dude
Tyler. 12.18.16	with who
hal1ax 12.18.16	u haven't even seen new star wars yet u gayfer go watch it sachel u bich it will rekindle your will to live then afterward if u still are seeking admission into the void , maybe i will be a pal and drown u in my hot seed
dbizzles 12.18.16	Wtf Sach? Where do you live?
Winesburgohio 12.18.16	sach dude throw me a line any time on whatever medium u desire if u ever wanna sympathetic ear ;)
Winesburgohio 12.18.16	i guess that goes for all of u but none of you know who i am but yeah open offer
Conmaniac 12.18.16	I've always wanted to visit Australia
Conmaniac 12.18.16	sounds like an adventure
Keyblade 12.18.16	fuckin giant roach infestation in my bathroom why me
Conmaniac 12.18.16	we have a mouse problem it happens. roaches are gross tho
Keyblade 12.18.16	oh and by giant roach infestation i dont mean a large infestation of roaches i mean an infestation of giant roaches. every time i open my bathroom theres at least one of these motherfuckers just grilling me fml
Satellite 12.18.16	fuck roaches. never saw one in my life in michigan but they're fucking everywhere in the desert. fortunately my cat loves nothing more than viciously disemboweling them.
Keyblade 12.18.16	each one i see takes the record for the biggest one i ever saw and ive lived in s/e asia so i've seen some big ones im just glad theyre confined to the bathroom. idk how id live with knowing they were somewhere in my room too
Satellite 12.18.16	the place i live now rarely gets them. but i once lived in a shitty basement studio apartment/possible former meth lab where there was no escaping them. get a cat to murder them for you. as an added bonus he/she can become your best friend.
Keyblade 12.18.16	bout 5 inches id say think i might have to make one of these stray cats around my house my pet
Greyvy 12.18.16	5 inches? better hope they don't find you will youre schleep or you're gonna lose your eyeballs
Satellite 12.18.16	do it. when my cat kills them i beam like a proud parent.
Satellite 12.18.16	i kind of like bugs/insects and try to be respectful of nature bla bla bla but i draw the line at roaches. they are an alien pestilence that needs to be eradicated.
Keyblade 12.18.16	same, they just disgust me. was at mcd's yesterday hungry af and was trying to read about how to get rid of these fuckers. legit lost my appetite thinking about them that much put some baiting gel around the place last night, woke up with 2 of these extraterrestrials dead and one in his death throes. hopefully they take the shit back to their colony. literally my worst nightmare come to life man
Satellite 12.18.16	i hate when you flick the lights on and they scurry away out of reach. or sometimes i'd leave a shirt or something on the ground and when i go to pick it up later there's one of the bastards hiding underneath it.
Keyblade 12.18.16	bro the other day i was about to take a shower. this little butterfly was fluttering around in my face a little too much for my liking. i got annoyed and picked up my washcloth to whip it with it. when i tried to straighten the cloth to whip it, a bitch ass roach fell out. damn near slipped because of the shock lmao
Tyler. 02.23.17	having a bad day my dudes
Rigma 02.23.17	what's wrong ty
SandwichBubble 02.23.17	https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gH476CxJxfg
Tyler. 02.23.17	now i feel worse : [
Koris 02.23.17	"the thing about daria is that once you get a certain way through it you realise that she's the asshole not everyone else" That's part of why the show is so good. You eventually realize that her time in high school is a genuine learning process for her, for the reason that she can't always close herself off to the rest of the world. The show got so deep and dramatic in the last few seasons, and it really challenged the viewers who initially just viewed it for cynical laughs... especially when it came to the finale "Boxing Daria," which still remains one of my favorite episodes of any show I've watched
SandwichBubble 02.23.17	Such a good finale :) @Tyler. sorry! hope you feel better
Conmaniac 02.23.17	haha @ re-reading my comments in this thread.
Trundle 02.23.17	feeling pretty choked atm, ipod classic is glitching out, won't be recognized in any docking station, it sounds like a minor fix, just have to factory reset. I have all my music backed up... but am so not looking forward to transferring everything back / remaking playlists... does anyone know if I take it to a repair store, would they be able to fix the problem and save my shit?
Hovse 02.23.17	Will you marry me tyler?
Tyler. 07.25.17	im sad so im gonna talk about it on a music discussion and review website
Papa Universe 07.25.17	Whatcha botherin' brotha?
Tyler. 07.25.17	almost everything about my life at the moment tbh
Papa Universe 07.25.17	In that...?