|I Broke My Glasses|
I broke my glasses today
I dropped them and one of the lenses popped out. I took my medicine the previous
night, and I took it this morning. You're supposed to wait like 24 hours or whatever
before taking another dose, so when I put them on, my vision was all screwy, I
couldn't focus on anything without getting a headache. So I didn't even notice when
I put them back on. I ended up taking them off anyways so I didn't notice.
The Satellite Years
A friend pointed it out to me at the next class and made fun of me for being so
empty headed. I got an idea of where they were and decided to wait till the end of
the day to look for the lens. At dismissal I went back to the class I thought they
were in, but there were some students rehearsing for the drama club. I couldn't walk
in. I got all sweaty and nervous, I kept pacing, trying to decide if I should go in or
not. I mean, I probably should have. Could have found the lens and just gotten it
|3||Empire! Empire! (I Was a Lonely Estate)|
What It Takes To Move Forward
I hate self diagnosing myself with crap. I'm not one of those people who romanticize
depression or anxiety or any disorder at all. It's really getting to be a problem
though. I can't communicate with people I don't know in real life. It's probably
because I'm a teenager but I'm the worst around people. Like a waitress the other
day told me to enjoy my food and I said "You too." I was trying to flirt with a girl last
week and I articulately started the conversation with "So what class are you in?"
|4||Pierce the Veil|
Yeah Mom was mad. I was mad. My family isn't covered for eye insurance this year
so I doubt I'll be getting them replaced. School's going to be a pain in the ass now. I
really hate myself for this. The same kind of situation has happened to me over and
over. I forget something or need to go get something, and I fucking freeze up and
can't do it.
|5||I Hate Myself|
This year's going to be a piece of shit if I can't get them replaced. I got really sad
about it too, like about little things. most of my nicknames now aren't going to make
any sense. But then I'm going to have trouble in school. I can't really watch movies
or enjoy most types of media without squinting or being really close to the source.
and yeah 1st world problems but I felt like I was on a roll until now. I had severe
cystic acne and that like officially cleared up a month ago. I got my vision fixed.
Getting braces soon to fix my teeth (which aren't that bad honestly but why not)
And I've had them for a while, there was some sentimental value attached to them.
I'll probably end up emailing my teacher or check on Monday but I doubt I'll find
|6||The Story So Far|
Under Soil And Dirt
It's not like I needed this anyways. I'm moving soon and I don't know what's going
to happen. My parents are most likely divorcing and I don't know if we're going to be
in the same house or if mom's going to stay at the old one or if she might even be
Worship and Tribute
She keeps asking me how I feel about it but I don't know how I feel about it. When
they fight, it's nasty for a bit. I just cover my little brothers' ears and I talk kinda
loudly or turn up the TV. and then they're nasty to each other for a few days but it
gets better. It doesn't mean they're happy. But I just want my parents. I don't want
them to divorce, I want my grandma back, I want my stupid fucking glasses.
Sorry for rambling. anyways rec me some stuff like this since it was just
spookyghostfriend making fun of futures and reccing me goregrind on my other list
|9||The Smith Street Band|
Throw Me In The River
Blood From Stone
|11||Foxes In Fiction|
Darkness, Oh Hell