BallsToTheWall: Are You Content With Your Life?

theacademy 01.03.13	id be fucking PISSED prob spend my last day in fap city
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	As I continue to reflect I can honestly say that I have no regrets about how my life turned out and who I became as a person. I can look in the mirror with pride and dignity at who I've become and what I have done in this lifetime and so I would not fear tomorrow's departure..I've done pretty much everything I've wanted to do or achieve. I've been a good person to animals, people and the earth. I've been a good son, a good brother and a good boyfriend and even though I've made mistakes and I've wasted my parent's money on college among other things I have no regrets. I don't think about what I could have done or should have done. Experiencing the good and the bad times have defined who I am. As for death I am a pretty romantic person. As someone with a spiritual afinity to the sea, a deep fascination with the Titanic and pondering my friend's mysterious passing in the Bermuda triangle I would wake up one morning. Send a note to the few people I'm close too and proceed to take a boat out to the North Atlantic ocean where my boat would begin to slowly sink in the afternoon in silence. I'd drink some iced tea then I'd lie back and stare at the sky and smell the ocean for a bit, feel the wind and just begin to drift off into a deep sleep as my boat becomes submerged.
Eclecticist 01.03.13	List to get high before replying to
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	It's up to you to change that. For about 21 years I felt like a worthless piece of shit. Then I started making things better for myself.
RetroSpective 01.03.13	Not really
Sanders 01.03.13	I will be once I finish medical school
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	death is the only great adventure I have left
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	If the Titanic bit fails I would prefer to go in the Bermuda triangle and see what it's like. See if there's a portal to another dimension, if I'm chilling with Pleadians or whatnot.
Curse. 01.03.13	I'd rape everything
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path... One that we all must take
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	nah when you die it will be just like it was before you were born. you dont exist and thats that.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	That's too gay for me to want to believe.
DamnVanne 01.03.13	If death is taking me, then I don't give a fuck about contentment. It's over my friend, and I'm gonna spill all my guts on the Pope's dress
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	hey if you wanna make something up to get through the day theres a bunch of religions and new age cults that will oblige
Curse. 01.03.13	"That's too gay for me to want to believe." there is nothing more metal than death being the end of everything.
sideburndude 01.03.13	I have not done enough
CK 01.03.13	I don't feel I have achieved all that I am meant to (not just yet, anyway), but I definitely am happy with everything at the moment.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	That's true but I'm really no better than Neige when it comes to a sappy climatic demise.
Tyrael 01.03.13	I regret everything
Relinquished 01.03.13	I can say I'm happy with what I accomplished with my time so no real regrets are felt. I have wonderful siblings and family, the best wife I can ask for, a good amount of trustful friends, a comfortable lifestyle, amazing body that I worked hard for for less than half of my current life, talented in many aspects in music and skilled different styles of martial arts, survived a couple death encounters... pretty much excelled in becoming much more of a man than my father and grandfather were. as to my last hoorah, I'd either want to go out like the men from Sparta did or drift endlessly into the cold seemingly endless space until I'm stardust thrown towards the everlasting nothing
bakkermaarten007 01.03.13	I still think there's potential, but I'm in deep. So no, I don't fear death at all. But I'm not gonna search for it. Although possible ways of meeting the grim cross my mind every day.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	it really doesnt matter what you achieve though because when you die its not like anything you do in life is going to come with you. i say just have fun and live in the moment. life isnt about achieving its about enjoying.
Curse. 01.03.13	I want an Anglo-Saxon funeral
bakkermaarten007 01.03.13	"life isnt about achieving its about enjoying." It's about finding your place in people's hearts.
Relinquished 01.03.13	"it really doesnt matter what you achieve though because when you die its not like anything you do in life is going to come with you." sounds like you haven't done much
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	I want my body to not be raped by dolphins as I descend into the shadowy depths. If it's possible to become a Deep One and/or reside in R'lyeh I just might be ok with that.
Curse. 01.03.13	Life is about how much damage you can cause before death. I've done pretty damn well
Relinquished 01.03.13	tell me about it. I got metal plates here and there, burns and scars.
Crysis 01.03.13	There have been times when I've been content with my life but now is not really one of them. I work a job I hate, I can't save any money because of loans and other bills, and I wake up most mornings swearing and cursing that I have to spend the next 13 hours doing something that is unbelievably unpleasant.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	wolfe unless you become a billionaire or some famous person nobody will know who you are after your grandkids die. your whole life would have been like it never existed. so yea be proud and achieve whatever you want to, but life isnt about "doing" its about enjoying the small amount of time you're on this planet. if you enjoy achieving as much as you can though then great.
Crysis 01.03.13	I know I'm not alone but god damn there has to be more to life than this. Sorry if this isn't supposed to be a serious thread but it's been really getting to me lately.
bakkermaarten007 01.03.13	"There have been times when I've been content with my life but now is not really one of them. I work a job I hate, I can't save any money because of loans and other bills, and I wake up most mornings swearing and cursing that I have to spend the next 13 hours doing something that is unbelievably unpleasant." You have no idea how much respect I feel for you right now. Carry on and keep searching for your ideals.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Who actually wants their existence immortalized?
Zeneren 01.03.13	that would be frightening
Crysis 01.03.13	@bakker - Thanks man, I appreciate it.
Curse. 01.03.13	This song is for Crysis http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EDKwCvD56kw
Curse. 01.03.13	"Who actually wants their existence immortalized?" people who shoot kids in school
Crysis 01.03.13	whoa what is this 2001
Relinquished 01.03.13	no this is patrick
Tyrael 01.03.13	Damn it Kyle, I never knew you hated your job that much I'm sorry man, wish I could do something about it :/
Crysis 01.03.13	And yeah I'd say that nearly everyone who wants their existence immortalized want to achieve it by doing something that should neither exist nor be immortalized.
Apollo 01.03.13	I'll be damned if this isnt the most interesting list I've seen in a long time. I'm uncertain where I stand on this.
someguest 01.03.13	No. I still have to nail your sister.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	It is a serious thread and it suck Crysis but it's only temporary. Things will brighten up if they aren't already. Even small things make a difference. I've lived a humble life, and I've worked humble jobs over the years that keeps my head on right. I'm content and happy with getting by financially as being just one of the basic workers of society, as my family generations before me, as those in the 20's, 30's 40's and beyond did.
MO 01.03.13	good stuff balls, wolfe and anyone else kicking life's ass I am, and will continue to kick life's ass until I'm old, withered and showing my grandkids Meshuggah
Eclecticist 01.03.13	I'm 19 and I'm satisfied but hey, give it a few years right?
Crysis 01.03.13	The jobs I've enjoyed the most were the most humble and trivial.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	And yeah I'd say that nearly everyone who wants their existence immortalized want to achieve it by doing something that should neither exist nor be immortalized. And those who achieve it in a noble manner always wind up getting killed. Go figure.
MO 01.03.13	I can also safely say that metal is one of the best thing that's happened in my life, its kept me going so strong
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	what if this life is supposed to be heaven? what if this is the best it gets? stop looking towards the next stage that has yet to proven to exist and start enjoying what little happiness you may have now. society manages to stress us out and pulls us out of our place in nature. it fills us up with commercials, machines, gadgets, and material things. all of which can be great in moderation but obviously get easily abused. people just dont know how to be happy anymore on their own. so you have a shitty job, your gf left you, and whatever the fuck else is making you unhappy but you're fuckin alive aintcha? you realize how many things over millions of years had to go down perfectly in order for you to exist the way you are now at all? i say achieve in the material world enough to be able to live comfortably, but achieving spiritually and just enjoying life is the most important to me. otherwise whats the fuckin point? too many people miss the boat.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	damn
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Stop being such a fucking jerkoff YankeeDoodle.
Relinquished 01.03.13	fuckin amen MO
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Im kidding of course. I do appreciate your perspective. This aint no dictatorship.
Tyrael 01.03.13	Balls, do you have like goals/things you're striving for in your life? Or do you just like, live in the moment? What makes you happy?
Crysis 01.03.13	"Or do you just like, live in the moment? What makes you happy?" You answered your own question
Sanders 01.03.13	Even though I'm not a doctor yet, I've worked in hospitals, and seen people dying. 95% of them die scared and alone, which in turn has made me fear death to an extent, and I'm 24. I just hope that the longer I live and the more I manage to help people/live a decent life, the less I mind the idea of either moving on to something else, or just ceasing to exist (depending on your views).
PurpleDino 01.03.13	I'm content with my life but not with dying.
J0ckstrapsFTW 01.03.13	I'd tell death to suck my balls I got shit I still want to accomplish
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Exactly. I used to let college, all my cousins successes and all my grandfather's expectations get to my head. It fucking stressed me out. When I was able to let all that go and do what I do I was able to mellow considerably. I have no grand ambitions to build a monolithic castle under the mountains with a Lovecraftian Labrintyth inside of it or a spaceship, although that would be awesome.
someguest 01.03.13	Honestly, I just want to chill on the beach of some third world country with some woman. Success is relative.
Tyrael 01.03.13	'When I was able to let all that go and do what I do I was able to mellow considerably.' Dude, how?
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	ur the man balls i just dont like how religions have made people treat this life as some waiting room. the only reason they do something good might be just to get a better seat in heaven. they spend their whole life looking to a future that never comes that they forget whats right in front of them the whole time. i think thats the biggest tragedy in human existence.
Relinquished 01.03.13	being strong with your own spirituality is important yankee I agree but everyone's circumstances are different, it's not as easy as you try to make it seem. if their ability to see through the bullshit is strong then they'll live better or worse depending on how they take the perceptions. unfortunately in many places self-fulfilment and happiness isn't enough to live comfortably.
Crysis 01.03.13	He probably took a step back and realized that what success and happiness meant to him was vastly different from what he was being told it was.
Crysis 01.03.13	"if their ability to see through the bullshit is strong then they'll live better or worse depending on how they take the perceptions." There is a lot of truth to this.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	"living in the moment would drive me psychotic" ha when have you never NOT lived in the moment? its just all about shifting your focus and realizing your thoughts are just words on a screen. the shift comes from realizing that you are the ever present screen. boom mediation 101.
savagecabbage 01.03.13	I'd like to learn some type of martial art before I die. Also being scuba certified has always been a dream. Other than that I'm pretty cool with the whole life death thing. As long as there are good jams in whatever comes next I'll be fine.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	A lot of my calmness and contentness came when I was 21. I was alone in a small, obscure town, I worked on a farm, did martial arts and spent a lot of time at the beach. And all that was enough for me. I wasn't making much, only had my jiujitsu group as friends, no girlfriend and grew produce in most of my free time but man was I happy then. That's all I ever needed. I still apply that to my life now.
Crysis 01.03.13	That sounds more or less like bliss
Tyrael 01.03.13	You dont know how jealous of you I am Balls
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Reading, in particular those last few Hemingway books and those movies Midnight In Paris and People On Sunday have completely engulfed me in that way of thinking. It helps living in a peaceful little area.
Crysis 01.03.13	Have you read Walden? I think you'd appreciate what is said in there.
Relinquished 01.03.13	yankee you're trying to pass off your opinions to others as the eye-opening truth and it's not gonna work out for you
savagecabbage 01.03.13	@Balls - I'd trade my current living situation (college) for studying martial arts, working on a farm and being by the ocean. Damn that sounds awesome. One day... until then, cheers.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	living in the moment doesnt mean you never think about the past or present. thats impossible and thats the biggest misconception about it. no its just a shift in perception. from ego to awareness. the simplest way towards self realization is from the great sage Ramana Maharshi. ask yourself "who am i?" and see what happens. its a question that is impossible to answer. all that can come up is a presently arising thought. maybe your name. you'll come to see that what you really are is ultimate conscious awareness that no thought can touch. once you realize this you will be free. /spiritualmumbojumbo
someguest 01.03.13	I like to blend my Christianity and Taoism.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Melbourne Florida is fucking cheap to live, has great scenery people and restaurants, some of the best beach in Florida, super laid back and unpretentious atmosphere, coffee shops everywhere, fun plces to go to with out all the crappy South Florida or Orlando bullshit, nice waves to surf, places to bike, it;s as good as it gets. I reccomend you guys come over here.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	basically it shows you how you're not your mind, but you are awareness of it. the shit that connects you to everyone and everything. if you believe you to be your mind (as in thoughts/emotions) you will be miserable. the zen dudes are on to something.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	free from your mind. free to use your mind as the tool it was meant to be used as and not to be a slave to it.
someguest 01.03.13	Battlefield Of The Mind.
ConsiderPhlebas 01.03.13	Pretty happy with who I am and where my life's going. Pulled a first class degree out of my ass this year and great things beckon - finding out I was dying now would be shit beyond belief. Not sure that I fear it as such, I've thought about it a lot over the years and it's not the most comfortable subject ever, but generally I take a fuck you attitude towards it, although I'm more easy on the idea now, more settled maybe. My only fear - and it's more like abject terror - when it comes to death is the chance of it being something like dementia, where in the end I'm not myself. I would rather suffer physical pain and go into darkness with my last thoughts being about good friends and good times. If I had to choose how I would die, and the options were limitless, I guess I'd like to go helping someone out, squeeze a last morsel of meaning out of life. If it had to be illness or the like, then as long as I had at least one friend with me I would be all good. I'd tell them I was glad we hit the earth at the same time and ask them to raise a glass for me once in awhile.
Relinquished 01.03.13	honestly whatever philosophy works for you and makes sense to you is fine as long as YOU PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	"you realize that makes zero sense right?" Id love to know why you think that
MO 01.03.13	Phleb dropping greatness nothing new here
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH Amen
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	rosa why you getting so defensive. if you're happy then thats great heres a twinkie with your name on it =)
someguest 01.03.13	"Phleb dropping greatness nothing new here" An insecure man afraid to enter the conversation.
wacknizzle 01.03.13	Of course I'm not ready to die, I still haven't finished writing a metal album and I want to fuck more, lots more.
Sanders 01.03.13	Phleb, you summed it up brilliantly. I feel the same, I think my fear's more the same as yours, rather than a blind fear of death. You can't have family and friends around you as you die if your mind's gone
MO 01.03.13	I'm killin' life someguest nothin more too say
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	explain what doesnt make sense rosa because its only basic psychology and ancient wisdom that has helped people for thousands of years.
Boyaawitcheese 01.03.13	Balls, if you don't mind my asking, what martial arts discipline are you involved in? I know that having been in martial arts since I was 7 has greatly shaped who I am today.
Observer 01.03.13	if i were given nonexistence, why wait through another day
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	speaking of martial arts theres a reason they teach meditation. getting your body right is great but getting your mind right is greater.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Very good Plehbas. Jiujitsu Boya.
ConsiderPhlebas 01.03.13	'You can't have family and friends around you as you die if your mind's gone' Yeah, bang on, man. And your loved ones have to live with a shell, half-mourning you for god knows how long. Better to have the pain and be medicated I reckon. Even if you've only a fragment of consciousness left, at least it's something.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	However, until I find as great of a teacher/mentor/person as my first jiujitsu coach I will cease to do it. No other classes/dojos have I gone to compete with the team chemistry/zen as that first particular class which lasted more than a year before he went back to Brazil. Martial arts have become peverted because of MMA and every low frequency douchebag trying to be a toughguy.
Relinquished 01.03.13	"if i were given nonexistence, why wait through another day" strongest thought and feeling many people have had, and I know I felt this before when realising everything is pointless and the rest is projections, ego, and species arrogance. but there is more to life than selfishness, and that's why we are where we are now.
Boyaawitcheese 01.03.13	I completely agree with that. Most people don't know that martial arts are about shaping the mind as much as it is the body. I am an assistant instructor at my club and I have seen way too many people show up to class or tournaments with the intention of hurting the opponent and honestly it disgusts me.
Relinquished 01.03.13	"Martial arts have become peverted because of MMA and every low frequency douchebag trying to be a toughguy." seriously man, the arts and standards have dropped hard, where's the integrity in things?
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	No Rosa. When I say mind I mean thoughts, emotions, feelings. Basically anything you can "see". Most people are so wrapped up in those that it hurts them. If you meditate or just learn about spiritual practices/philosophies you will come to know that those things are only small parts of you. They are like waves of clouds and you are the sky. The sky never changes, only the clouds. So what you really are is consciousness. Consciousness that science still isnt sure where it comes from. Consciousness that has allowed people in near death experiences to know whats going on down the hall in a hospital (if there is an after life, it has something to do with what Im sayin). Consciousness (sky) that is aware of all thoughts (clouds). THATS who you really are and THAT is untouchable. Your mind is an important tool of consciousness, but it is not the master. Thats pretty much the basics of zen, and once you really see that you realize nothing can touch you, not even physical pain.
Polyethylene 01.03.13	Right now, no. I've travelled a lot already but am yet to study, graduate, job, house, wife, kids... I want to do all of that.
evilford 01.03.13	I don't understand how anyone can say they have no regrets for things in life. I mean I guess it happens maybe, but idk I sure as hell have some regrets. I don't want to die, but death doesn't scare me.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	Sounds cheesy dont it but its a good metaphor.
someguest 01.03.13	Rosa, you're such an angry young man.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	No subject is terrible if the story is true, if the prose is clean and honest, and if it affirms courage and grace under pressure.
someguest 01.03.13	It just always feels like there's this bitter and enraged undertone to all your posts.
ZilbelPing 01.03.13	Well my life hasn't started yet so if I were to drop dead right now, it would suck. That being said, I've never been sad to be alive because I appreciate everything I have and anticipate everything that is to come. This is kinda dumb coming from a 17 year old but whatever, I haven't started life yet but I plan to grab it by the balls once I leave home this July As for my preferred method of dying. Fuck I don't know. drowning seems horrible and so does dying from a disease you have no control of. I want to go quick, like a gunshot to the head but not so messy. Best list in a long time. Made me think deeply about my short time here. Good for you, balls, for finding your zen and being happy. Hope I get to that state sooner than later.
someguest 01.03.13	The best way to die is in your sleep, or saying goodbye to a spouse with which you've spent much of your life.
Trebor. 01.03.13	Of course not, I'm only 20, what could I have possibly accomplished by now
ZilbelPing 01.03.13	"The best way to die is in your sleep, or saying goodbye to a spouse with which you've spent much of your life." This is very true, and how I want to go now that I think about it a bit more. Sounds like bliss
Observer 01.03.13	"I haven't started life yet" I find the general consensus here that life begins post-20 as interesting, especially since childhood and adolescence can easily shape and lay the path for 75% of whats to follow, just as a guess.
Sanders 01.03.13	Or, if I'm ignoring my fear of dying, in the immortal words of Frankie Boyle: "People who think there's no good way to die have obviously never heard the phrase 'Drug-fuelled-sex-heart-attack'."
dammets 01.03.13	not really a fair question to those who are still young
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	Yea stop thinking life begins once you graduate. Because then you'll say life begins when you get married. Then when you have kids. Then...... life is over lol.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	You guys cant really use youth as an excuse. Unless you're 13.
Polyethylene 01.03.13	Of course you still experience shit when you're younger but surely your pre-graduation years feel like something of a prelude?
Observer 01.03.13	by this logic justin beiber hasnt even started
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	A prelude to what? Having a job, getting married, and having kids maybe. You'll also have a lot of things when you're younger you'll never have again as an adult. So no not a prelude at all and if you think that way you're never going to be happy, because like I said you'll think of everything as a "prelude" aka always looking to the future for happiness.
Blackbelt54 01.03.13	i am content with my life even though i haven't accomplished a bunch since i'm young. as far as death, i'm not particularly afraid of it like some people are but i am sometimes scared about how i dont know what happens after
ZilbelPing 01.03.13	Well I want to experience life outside of the town I've spent my entire life in so yeah. And of course I've had awesome moments in the past 17 years that I'll never forget but I know there's more than this. I guess most think that life starts after you leave home because that's when you're truly on your own. Whatever happens is entirely up to you.
Polyethylene 01.03.13	I suppose I'm at the age (eighteen) where I don't feel like a child anymore, but I also don't quite feel like an adult. I have too much responsibility for the former and not enough for the latter. Hopefully that'll change soon. I know that life is simply a number of different stages, I suppose I'm just keen to get to the next one right now y'know
Relinquished 01.03.13	"You guys cant really use youth as an excuse." exactly, there's so much we can do with all the time we have. just don't stay home so much.
oltnabrick 01.03.13	yes. ok
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	No Poly. Enjoy life right fuckin now. We all used to say the same shit as you. We believed that when we got to highschool life would begin. Then when it was when we got our licenses. Then when we got to college. Then when we turned 21. Then when we graduated, etc. After you get a job, get married, and have kids there arent many more life milestones like that. Dont look to the future so much because once you graduate you you're going to miss alot of things about being a teenager. Some things get better and some get worse. Thats life.
Deathconscious 01.03.13	"That's too gay for me to want to believe." sucks that you arent brave enough to face reality.
Relinquished 01.03.13	sucks that you're too gay and took that seriously
Trebor. 01.03.13	I'm making films which is what I want to do so I guess I'm content. I'd like to make ones people actually see some day though
ZilbelPing 01.03.13	I'll watch your films, treb.
Trebor. 01.03.13	I filmed my friend playing League of Legends and said retarded stuff and it has 36 views in two days oh boy I'm living the high life
Deathconscious 01.03.13	"sucks that you're too gay and took that seriously" whats the right amount of gay?
ZilbelPing 01.03.13	Sounds like stuff I watch on YouTube when I run out of things to watch.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	sucks that you're too gay and took that seriously" whats the right amount of gay? Liberace sucking off George Michael sucking off Jeferee Star sucking off Alexander the Great's army gay.
sspedding 01.03.13	i wouldnt be bothered.
Polyethylene 01.03.13	That's uh, pretty gay.
YankeeDudel 01.03.13	I have one question about the Heaven. Do aborted fetuses go there? If so they're gonna be angry.
Relinquished 01.03.13	"Liberace sucking off George Michael sucking off Jeferee Star sucking off Alexander the Great's army gay." not gay enough
Polyethylene 01.03.13	A light to decent gay/10
Wolfhorde 01.03.13	I'm just gonna go ahead and ignore everything that happened here and answer the question Wehrmacht style: I'd tell death to suck it and get himself another bitch before I need to get the gas.
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Wolfe and Wolf sighting...how droll.
Relinquished 01.03.13	well put wolfbro
Acanthus 01.03.13	No way would I want to die RIGHT now. Have a lot of things to accomplish, and still need to find a girlfriend for my girlfriend and I. In short I've got some fun shit to live for, who'd want to leave all that early?
Wolfhorde 01.03.13	thanks wolfebro
BallsToTheWall 01.03.13	Depends. I'd just prefer to slowly fade out of view. Make all social contact with my family in particular minimal.
Wolfhorde 01.03.13	"and still need to find a girlfriend for my girlfriend and I." Is it just me being groggy or does this sound strange.
Jash 01.03.13	"It's up to you to change that. For about 21 years I felt like a worthless piece of shit. Then I started making things better for myself." I know this was from way at the top of the thread but I can relate with this so hard. I was the same way until New Years Eve two years ago (Aids was there!!!) and I said "fuck it, im going to make all the things I want to happen in my life happen" and since then i've done so many of the things i've always wanted to accomplish in my life. I wouldn't change a thing in my life and I don't regret anything i've done because it's all led me to here and I couldn't ask for a better life right now. The only thing i'd be worried about leaving behind would be my girlfriend. As for how I was to go, i'd really just want to go peacefully in my sleep or something, and i'd make sure my loved ones put my ashes in a few various places that are important to me, and yes I want some of my ashes poured out of a aeroplane above the sea
Scoot 01.03.13	nope
KjSwantko 01.03.13	Nope me either. Life sucks then ya suck a chode and ya die.
Wolfhorde 01.03.13	Fuck yea Frazer, that's the spirit!
klap 01.03.13	Can't say I regret too many things in my life so far but I would be a little perturbed if I die right now. What I really want to accomplish in my life is acquiring a successful job where I can provide for a family and raise some kids-my parents have been involved in an incredibly acrimonious divorce for as long as I can remember and it'd be nice to raise a family where there isn't that kind of all-consuming hostility. Plus I want to make enough $$ where I can retire early and enjoy things.
Trebor. 01.03.13	Hey OJ Simpson, are you content with your wife? No So why don't you do something about it? OK
wabbit 01.03.13	I've got a really good job but I really didn't get it under my own merit and I think that will eventually drive me to quit it and do something else. Probably should have finished school but I was simply could not summon the force of will to do it. I'm sure I'll regret that later on but I was at a different place in my life and hindsight is 20-20 (my vision is 20-10 though so I dunno). I've got good friends a great family and I'm a person people generally seem to want to be around. Obv my taste in music is god-tier. Love, Ire & Song.
klap 01.03.13	Also everyone should finish college or regret it later
Wolfhorde 01.03.13	"Hey OJ Simpson, are you content with your wife? No So why don't you do something about it? OK" fucking lol
Trebor. 01.03.13	Thanks, I'll be here all my life
ShadowRemains 01.03.13	no
wabbit 01.03.13	Yeah people should get a degree. I just grew up with almost all my family/ family friends being teachers and principals and I spent all my school years listening to teachers say "Miles is so smart, he'd make such a good teacher" (cause I probably would). But then I got to university and realized that I had this tunnel vision and once that disappeared the idea of "academics" just made me sick. So I passed all my courses (barely) and quit. Also that thing where people say "if you take a year off, going back is one of the hardest things to do" is so fucking true.
wabbit 01.03.13	So yeah I guess I'm not super content with my life right now (it's super easy/ fun but not that rewarding) and dying would suck. But I know I'll end up okay because I want to.
klap 01.03.13	miles do you mean tunnel vision in regards to being a teacher or in regards to graduating in general
Wolfhorde 01.03.13	"Thanks, I'll be here all my life" You da man, Rob.
Turtlestlker 01.03.13	Am I ready to die? Fuck no Do I fear it? A little