Album Rating: 4.5

I feel ashamed garas, and I think I'm speaking on behalf of the whole community. I will check Andavald as soon as I can.

Album Rating: 4.5

Yep, feeling this so far in the plum region.



This is a perfect example of black metal not needing to sound like it was recorded in a wind tunnel just for the aesthetic. There's a ton of cool shit happening in the guitars and drums.

Album Rating: 4.5 | Sound Off

On the topic of sleep disturbances does anyone here wake up from a nightmare or episode of sleep paralysis with a fuzzy feeling of pressure in their head and ears ringing loudly or is that a sign that my brain is too big

Album Rating: 4.5

Do you fall asleep with your headphones on? This could be the cause of the buzzing.

The pressure and ringing is definitely recognizable for me
When I have an episode of sleep paralysis it always feels like my head is violently shaking and there's a ridiculously loud buzzing sound

Damn, this one is even more nightmareish than Dreaming.

not on spotify =[

Album Rating: 3.0

it’s not ‘officially’ out yet so yea

Album Rating: 4.5 | Sound Off

Explained in prev pg

Album Rating: 4.0

yet you can buy and download the whole thing on bandcamp hmm

Album Rating: 3.0

I’m conflicted, rating this lower than a 3 feels disingenuous. this isn’t average by any means but I don’t think it’s that good either after three listens.

really cool album art though

Album Rating: 4.0

looks like she has a bootyhole on her forehead but yea

Album Rating: 4.5 | Sound Off

@Thalassic



The first year or so was hell, I thought my mind was disintegrating or something. These days it's still there but it doesn't really impact me and I can easily go a few weeks without noticing it.



I actually wrote a little rhyme about it last month though. The first 2 verses;



10 years tomorrow / the day that changed my fate / praying for fear and sorrow / aiming to break away from the state of feeling hollow /

and make my great escape from the / the place where demons follow / to desecrate my brain

And all I could see was mono / the variegation drained / baneful disease that swallowed me / I became an aimless shade of a / fiend that wallowed / nearly embraced the grave / but I'm still here so follow / as I relay the tale...



So I was kickin back with some of my greatest of mates when... a fatal mistake was made as we blazed up some laced hemp ...

that we obtained in a moment of haste when this bloke in a trenchcoat approached at the station;

If we hadn't been late for the train may have evaded this snake waiting to prey on my brainstem;

But we're only in grade 10, so experimentation was our aim; and we became the most mental of patients...(for the day)

I awake in the strangest of places on the following day, ever so lost and afraid,

then I remember the basis of the pain as my brain sends me a message to say it's taken an endless vacation...(great)

Well the medical name for this brainwreck is depersonalisation and the way I'd explain it

is a lack of sensation as your character fades within the blackest of places, and a wraith masquerades with your face /

Album Rating: 4.5 | Sound Off

Actually kinda regret buying this because I've just hid my spooky vinyls behind my most 'mainstream' records e.g. asap rocky and deftones and shit following a disapproving comment from a lass upon seeing my vinyl display.. I can't imagine this one going over real well either

I need to spin this

Album Rating: 4.0

Thanks eph, very nice rhyme.

@EphemeralEternity

Coincidental that laced grass kickstarted this misery for both you and me
Another reminder that people should avoid that laced shit altogether lol

I should've know really. That day we were with a few guys hanging out and one just got out of jail. One of them got that shit from another guy who just got out. Could be that someone told me that it was laced, but I was shitfaced so I could barely make sense of anything and I just didn't care at the time.

I was a moron really. And a bit of a piece of shit. In a way it was karma and I deserved whatever was coming to me. In a strange way, the depersonalisation trauma kinda "helped" me become a bit better on the outside. No drugs, I barely touch alcohol, working out completely natural, not getting into useless fights anymore...etc...
In another way, those days I felt like I was the bollocks and feeling down was quite alien to me. Nowadays, even though I'm physically healthier, I'm feeling down on life a lot of the time and whenever a noticeable episode of derealization kicks in, it barely feels like I'm existing at all

Can't have it both ways, I guess

Album Rating: 4.5 | Sound Off

Well at least it sounds like there's some upshots to it, otherwise who knows where you and I may have ended up. The stuff we smoked just made everyone hallucinate and go crazy for a few hours, I think it had PCP in it. Anyway you live and you learn, and I've definitely improved a lot, hopefully you have more good days than bad days now



This was the middle part to the rhyme that gets more positive:





Vacant, forsaken



The alienation



I was in pain and impatient



My brain was encased in a vapor of grey-



Yet I tried to take charge of my fate by masking the pain / and fighting so hard to escape behind bars of my brain/

But life was getting harder to face in my darkest of days / I hungered for the fastest of ways to depart from the game (right the fuckin mistake)

Contemplated carving my veins in a bath of my shame // Or rather jump in front of a train? park a car in a lake?

But when I can't have been much farther from sane... that's when the darkness finally started to fade... and the catharsis it made...

Quelled tears well up in my eyes...coz it had been years since I'd felt something inside... I think I might've held both hands held up to the sky...

felt like I'd been to hell and back and yet I fucking survived...//

but such is life... and life is such...a bitch ... she sucks at times... but glad I stuck... with it

Been steering clear of all the self-destructive shit / I smelled the Gardenias... and fell in love with it /

Album Rating: 4.0

The bells on Ephialtes are so sick, really digging this

Album Rating: 4.5

https://www.facebook.com/Akhlys-1512419082356682/

Never had a review with so many FB likes ;)

It was cool that the lads/label posted the review.



Thanks for sharing your thoughts EphemeralEternity.