shrooms helped me more w that when I was younger and impressionable but now I feel Above it and extremely aware that its just a drug , but I do luv my once every 2 years trip on either acid or shrooms usually acid

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I did acid a couple of times this summer. It was really neat, but also just a drug. Not the soul bending, mind erasing experience that so many people make it out to be.

@million I was diagnosed and treated for MDD and GAD (started as GAD when I was young, evolved into increasingly severe MDD) and i relate to all of that up til the point that you said you have no mania. But I cant really recall if mania was particularly evident before medication or if it was explicitly a product of when I was severely overprescribed a medication I was incompatible with. So I dunno. It's all a blur.

"I did acid a couple of times this summer. It was pretty neat, but also just a drug. Not the soul bending, mind erasing experience that so many people make it out to be."

It was that soul bending, enlightening epiphany catalyst when I was a teenager and my little brain wasnt fully developed. It is not any more lol.

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My best friend is a year sober after finding out he was bipolar over two years ago. I highly suggest you see a doctor if you think you have BPD. In his worst state, he was attempting suicide by trying to drink himself to death. He’s in such a better place now that he knows what it is, and is taking healthy measures to combat it.

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"Shrooms helped me a lot. It's been like 8 years since the last dose. Probably should do that."



Storm is trying to get us all on drugs.

Yes to Garth

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Yeah, I don't think I get anything like manic spells. Depression, for me, has always been like fighting this beast for scraps of my own energy. I wish you and any other mentally ill people in the thread all the balance in the world though.

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Not to me? It's the truth man.

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That's great to hear Garth. Really.

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I finally achieved

Balance

Balance

Balance

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Rebirth



Rebirth



Rebirth

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"It was that soul bending, enlightening epiphany catalyst when I was a teenager and my little brain wasnt fully developed. It is not any more lol."



Haha I mean, it was still really cool. Saw a lot of things and felt very emotionally open and sensitive. I might've fucked it up for myself waiting 'til 25 to finally try it. Haha I spent 14 - 22 straight edge as fuck.

Mania isnt generally a prolific side effect of MDD as far as I know so I'm kind of leaning towards the manic episodes only beginning when I went on meds. So it might be MDD. I sympathize with your descriptions.

I'm good tho, after a couple failed scripts I found meds that worked for me, used them as a tool to help me develop better habits and practices to keep my mental in check, and have been off meds for almost a year now and have been fine. Actually great.

I still take beta blockers every day tho but its cuz I have a central tremor and I work with my hands so it's kind if debilitating lol

we all have the same relationship w psychedelics it seems. still way too powerful to ever be a party drug like many ppl use it as, if I did it more often than in extremely very spaced out instances I feel like I would become the Kony 2012 guy

Yeah doing acid a once or twice a year is enough for me at this point in my life

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"I'm good tho, after a couple failed scripts I found meds that worked for me, used them as a tool to help me develop better habits and practices to keep my mental in check, and have been off meds for almost a year now and have been fine."



Fuck yes.

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You think you re smarter than lsd eh?

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How smart is lsd?

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Lol The interesting thing about LSD is how much of a roller coaster it is. You have one bad thought that you have to crawl your way out of, you see faces in the trees at night, wonder what a sex change would be like, pissing is like the craziest obstacle in the world, sex is dangerous, you close your eyes for a couple minutes and imagine an infinity of colors like you never imagined, open your eyes and see that there's just a red star filter over everything. It alone is enough sensory overload with just a friend or by yourself, I can't imagine tripping at a rave or some shit. Haha Definitely just seems dangerous.