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|Life Is Really Good: One Year Later|
Because I'm a cheesy bastard, I thought making a one-time to my last list might be a bit fun and possibly uplifting to some, as well as bringing a few smiles to my own face as I recall the events of this past year and their relations to their musical accompaniments.
I want to preface this by saying this man was an absolutely phenomenal musician, and he truly left his mark on the music world. All of his albums are absolutely brilliant, and belie the normally bright and happy-sounding music by being so remarkably cynical. Elliott became my favorite musician over the course of the year as I delved further and further into his discography, and it actually didn't appeal to me as I am now, but how I used to be when I when I was going through a depression. I was cynical and bitter, but I never showed it.
Afterimage of Autumn
Also through this year, I discovered a massive love of Black Metal, and this album is by far one of my favorite releases in the genre. I honestly don't even really know what made me cling to the genre so much, as in the past, I had never hated it or anything like that, but there weren't many bands that had appealed to me. This album was far from the one that changed my opinion on the genre as I'd already gotten very heavy into BM, but this is one of the best in the genre, in my opinion.
This year, the band I was working with at the time of my previous list had disbanded, and not entirely amicably. We were all moving in different directions, and I felt like I was lagging behind. I struggled a lot this year with finding acceptance with where I am in life compared to my peers. This kind of self-deprecating thought process is honestly most likely what brought me to love BM and rekindled my passion for Death Metal.
However, after my previous band had disbanded, my girlfriend had been getting me very much into Indie Rock and Folk bands, so I started writing material influenced by The National, Gregory Alan Isakov, Elliott Smith, Modest Mouse, and Cymbals Eat Guitars under a solo project I had titled He's Dead, Jim! (I'm a Star Trek nerd) and had quite a bit of fun with it, as it was a huge departure from what I used to play.
All We Love We Leave Behind
Relating to Converge, my dog Bannon, despite being the best damn dog I've ever known, made a big mistake. On the last day that I was visiting my sister and brother-in-law, I kept getting a call from an unknown number, and I just don't ever answer numbers I don't know. But a few hours later, my father called me to tell me that my dog had killed six of our new neighbor's goats and almost bitten the man that owned them because of how excited he had gotten. The police gave us an ultimatum: Put him down or send him away. One of my cousins, who is severely obese to the point of being unable to take care of himself, wanted to take him, but I knew it just wouldn't work. Bannon would have run away and possibly hurt something else. Later, we found out that my cousin stays directly across from a very poorly secured sheep farm, so we can take a wild guess how that might have turned out. We had to put Bannon down, and it was one of the hardest drives I have ever had to endure. He still looked so happy just to be around the family, and I knew my dog wasn't dangerous at all, he had just gotten worked up and didn't want to stop. But he was only just over a year old, and he would only get stronger and harder to control if he were to go into a frenzy again. He passed with every person that loved him most around him, and he went peacefully, but it doesn't make me feel any less guilty.
The Funeral of Being
The anger I felt at myself for not being there to prevent it from happening made me a little bit of a hermit. I really didn't go out much, but I delved into writing Black Metal. I essentially became one of the one-man bands that are so frequent in the genre, but I can honestly see why they do it all themselves. When you isolate yourself like that, you don't want anyone around to have to share those feelings with.
As Spring came on, my anger was mostly gone when I realized there really wasn't anything I could have done. I started to listen to a listen to a lot of Hip-Hop, especially instrumental artists, Nujabes and Uyama Hiroto being my favorites. The sound was so much brighter and uplifting, even when it was meant to be dark. I even wrote a few instrumental Hip-Hop tracks, inspired highly by this record. I may end up doing something with them, but for now, they're just testaments to letting go of something I couldn't have controlled.
The Inalienable Dreamless
I began to go back and forth between my Black Metal, Hardcore, and Indie Rock projects, and I yet again renewed a love for a genre I hadn't paid much attention in quite a while, Grind. I ended up tossing away my strictly BM and Hardcore projects, as I knew I no longer wanted to just stay within one genres confines. As I got more into Grind, I mended fences with my old bandmates, and we created a new band, mixing BM, Grind, Hardcore, Sludge Metal, Post-Metal, and Death Metal. Writing heavy music has always come somewhat naturally to me, and it's always been incredibly fun to write, but I never really blended so many influences before.
Grape Blueprints Pour Spinach Olive Grape
As the year progressed, I got a job working in a grocery store, and I met some great new people. It all felt like a breath of fresh air, and it made me put a lot of different methods of writing to my music, to where I even began incorporating elements of Math Rock to my He's Dead, Jim! project. My guitar style became a lot more free-flowing and fun for that project, and I could actually find myself smiling as I wrote music again. I wasn't trying to sound like anything for once. I was just letting every idea I had out on the fretboard, and it was liberating.
|10||maudlin of the Well|
One of the most brilliant albums I finally decided to give a listen this year. It really demonstrated that I wasn't just being an idiot by throwing so much into my music, that eclectic influences can meld well as long as it's done tastefully. I'm not just writing music as a release anymore, I'm writing it because I love doing it.
|11||The Smashing Pumpkins|
One of the albums I listened to celebrate getting my job. It is a shitty job, and it makes you genuinely start hating people, but I like who I work with, and my boss loves me because I actually do my work really well and I take it pretty seriously. But this job is getting me on my way to moving out with my girlfriend next year, so I sure as Hell won't complain.
One album you just listen to when you want to relax and let yourself breathe. Mine and my girlfriend's anniversary was on the 15th, and we danced to Alison just as we did to Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley the year before. Never have I felt so happy as when I'm with that woman. She always knows exactly how to make me smile, she loves music just as much as I do, she's gorgeous, sweet, caring, kind, and above all, she's genuine. What you see with her is exactly what you get, and I love that. She's unpredictable in the best ways, especially with her sense of humor.
|13||Godspeed You! Black Emperor|
Slow Riot for New Zero Kanada
One of the albums that I always listen to on long drives. The ambience of this EP is phenomenal and it's amazing to get lost in as you drive down a highway for thirty minutes. I finally got to enjoy driving as I got more comfortable in my own skin again, and I found that calm, relaxing music is far more fun for me to drive to than most. I know that driving doesn't seem that important, but to me, it was a big step into getting out in the world again after isolating myself for a few months.
Leaves Turn Inside You
Another album I am floored by when I hear it. It's an album that if I ever hear one track come on from it, I have to go back and revisit the whole album. Since my anniversary was yesterday, I spent nearly the entire day with my girlfriend, and we showed each other quite a bit of music. I knew she would appreciate this album because of how much I like it, but I didn't expect for her to legitimately like it nearly as much as I do. I always told myself whe I was younger that when I met the right person, she would drastically change my taste in music, and Kindal has done exactly that for me. Just this year, I developed a love for Noise Rock, Indie Rock, Black Metal, Alternative, Folk, Math Rock, Post-Rock, Industrial, Hip-Hop, Drone, and others. Before this, I never would have ventured outside Metalcore and Hardcore and variations of Metal. I wasn't closed-minded, but I just didn't connect to them nearly as much as I do now.
And so I send all these good vibes to all of you on Sputnik! I know this list is a tiny tadpole cheesy and highly unnecessary, but it made the man behind this computer screen smile a bit as he yet again realized just how much can change in a year.
|woooow awesome list man. need to check 2 i guess|
major props for 15
|@Art 2 is a little more downtempo BM, but it's one of my favorites in the genre. The production on it is a little uneven, but I think it's actually really fitting.|
|2 of 15 aint bad|
|I actually prefer William Bonney to both Merchant Ships and Midwest Pen Pals, though I do love all three groups.|
|i love them all too, can't decide which is best|
|I just think William Bonney has a great combination of the other two, so it barely edges the others out for me.|
|dude incredible list. 2 looks awesome need to check it|
|Definitely check 2, man. By far one of my favorite MB albums. It's really mid-tempo and based around a lot of arpeggiated chord styled riffs, and it's all greatly written.|
|great list, that's pretty rough about your dog :/ it's nice that we always have music to help us through these things. also agreed that 2 is an awesome album|
|Music's helped me through a lot, and hopefully, my two lists have shown that. I'd never go as far as to say that music saved my life or any excessive melodramatic statement like that, because that was very much me deciding to step back from that metaphorical ledge. However, I can never discredit music for being there for me to listen to and be inspired by.|
|crazy how much stuff you've gone through man|
|I've had a lot of people fall in and out of my life, man, but the more it happens, the more you actually realize who is genuinely important. As cheesy and "Hot-Topic-Core" as it sounds, it is those people that will stay by your side through anything. I may only have a few of those, but they mean the world to me.|
|Thanks for doing this, made me re-read the first list again and that shit is still inspiring|
Music is the greatest thing humankind has ever done or will ever do
|I very much agree, man. I'm not very artistic, but I am very proud to be a musician. My goal in life is just to make one song, one EP, one full-length, SOMETHING that affects at least one person the way all these artists have affected me. I just want to make one musical statement that matters to someone.|
|I've been eagerly awaiting hearing your music since the day you first posted that list, dude! And I can't believe it's been a whole year... but I know that even if its not exactly my style of music, the love of music that you demonstrate in these lists means that there will be genuine passion behind it no matter what style you choose to play in. Which is why I'm looking forward so much to hearing it... am I making any sense at all?|
|i literally never read these wall of text lists but i did this time and glad i did|
|@Rowan You're making perfect sense, man. I have my own small recording station, it's just a bitch to get right. I need to buy an acoustic guitar and a decent mic for my He's Dead, Jim! project, but that's my only real setback on that. With my BM/Grind/Hardcore/DM/Sludge/Post-Metal project, it's actually getting the band together to record it all. I'm tempted to just start recording it by myself and maybe re-recording it if I can get the whole band together.|
@Lethean Thank you for reading it, man!
|Haha ok good, I felt like I was sort of tapering off there|
Either way let me know as soon as you have something to listen to, dude, and I'll be on it like a shot. And thanks again for making both of these lists and putting so much of yourself out there
|Will do, man. Thank you for reading them and taking some inspiration from them, man. It honestly means a lot to me to know that people can genuinely cling so closely to music and acknowledge its worth.|