Gyromania i think guilt is just the natural reaction to these sorts of things though, y'know? you're right, and i can concede that but it's another thing entirely to apply to my life. right now i'm in full-on guilt mode, asking myself why i didn't do more, or why i said the cruel things i did. as you said yourself though, dealing with an opioid addict is impossibly difficult - especially when that person is the woman who raised you and whose counsel you once sought. gah. life is such a mess December 4 06:08 PM
Gyromania it's easy to forget that it's just the drugs speaking. drugs addle our minds, make us say and do stupid things, but sometimes it wasn't as easy to rationalize it like that. anyway, as i was telling another sputniker, it especially helps to be able to communicate with people that can relate to my situation. i haven't found many who get it. so thanks again for reaching out. i plan to go for some counseling soon November 29 05:52 AM
Gyromania i've been messaging a lot of people back who gave me support, but i've been most looking forward to messaging you. you had said you went through a dilaudid addiction. what you said took me by surprise because it really was difficult dealing with my mother. her and i both suffered through hell while she was on dilaudid. she became irrational, paranoid, hateful -- mostly very emotional though. i learned to tune her out and let her cry herself to sleep. needless to say i ****ing hate myself now November 29 05:40 AM
Judio! There we go! I'll check your stuff soon. November 11 02:32 AM
Judio! Glad you liked my album, man! Thanks for the feedback too :). I'm gonna go ahead and assume that you linked me the wrong url for your bandcamp, though... November 11 02:29 AM
