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| Jas' self-deprecatingly modest 1/3rd of 2016
I don't usually talk about myself at all cause I'm usually pretty shy about it, but I feel like venting. So this year's been pretty shit for me so far. It hasn't been bottom of the barrel shit by any stretch of the imagination, but it has been getting me pretty down and has been causing me a lot of emotional stress that I've struggled to deal with and as a result, new music just has not been something I've been entertaining. My girl broke up with me on new years, we hadn't been together for that long but we had been good friends for a while and I'd wanted to get with her for ages and it was finally convenient to be able to do that. But she was incredibly controlling of the relationship (and a pathological liar) and wanted everything done a certain way and just ever since she's been a real fucking snake and it's been fucking with my head. Since I'm in my final year of high school, all of that emotional bullshit on top of studying and completing work that I have absolutely no interest in it's just completely sapped my self-esteem and motivation and I've just been unhappy for a long time. Most of my friends have left school and so I've been having to make the effort to break into new social circles, which I'm not amazing at, I tend to be quite shy and the fact that I've just been drained of motivation and self-esteem just has not helped me there at all. But, despite all that, I've been trying to get things going for myself and I think I might be able to just get a general direction for myself for the rest of the year. I've finally found something that I might want to do after I leave school (I'm thinking of doing a psychology major at uni) and I've been going to the gym and lost some weight, gotten stronger etc, which has helped my confidence a lot and hopefully will boost it even more as the year goes on. I may also have to perform as a solo musician this year, which is exciting and scary at the same time. Anyway, I've listened to fuck all, so here's a list of fuckall | | 26 |  | Kanye West
The Life of Pablo
ok so I completely forgot about the character limit :p so I edited the description down but I'll elaborate on a few things here. I put up with her shit because at the time, I was just so happy being with her that it didn't bother me all that much, and when it did start bothering me, she picked up on that I wanted more commitment then she was prepared to give and broke it off (I had at this point started losing trust in her, since she randomly went cold on me and wouldn't text me or answer her phone for days on end and I was fully aware that she was a notorious bullshitter). I've been struggling to sleep and sometimes get really angry for no reason cause I feel like such an idiot for not having more control over the situation and it hurts; she meant a lot to me and it's been hard to move on but i've slowly been seeing how little she cares and it just adds to the hurt. I also have absolutely no interest in school and haven't for a couple of years now, like I mentioned. | | 25 |  | Gackt
Last Moon
My subjects frustrate me to no end, it's not that I'm not good at any of them as I've succeeded with excellence in all of them on several occasions, but my lack of interest or motivation to work on these subjects means my results are below what I know I'm capable of and what everyone expects, which further impacts on my self-esteem. Since it's my last year of high school, I also want to live it up a little before I have to move on and since my social circle has drastically shrunk, as well as because of lack of communication from those I'm still in contact with, that just has not happened, making me feel even worse. I'm in general just a bit of a cynical bastard at the moment and I just want to feel more fulfilled in my life. I have very few hobbies, music effectively being it and I have no outlets to indulge it which makes me feel even more useless. | | 24 |  | Gidge
Lulin
Like I said, this is something that I have been actively working on, I have a post-school goal, I'm working out blah blah blah and I'm just hoping I start to feel better. Things could be much worse, and I'm grateful that I'm not feeling suicidal or have anything more serious going on other than just low self-esteem and sense of self-worth; standard teenage bullshit really but right now it just feels like it's so bad even though I know it shouldn't even be that big a deal. | | 23 |  | Explosions in the Sky
The Wilderness
Like holy shit, some of you guys on here have it pretty fucking hard and props to you for soldiering on through and I hope things get better for anyone who's having a rough time of it rn, in big ways or small ways. Any of you guys that have feelings of just giving in and offing yourself: don't fucking do it, all right? Once you do that, there's literally zero percent chance of things getting better, cause you're fucking dead. If you muscle on through, you can actively make things better which is awesome. I know this is like bullshit coming from someone who isn't suicidal and doesn't have it particularly hard, but trust me. There's so much shit still to do, you don't have time to die yet. There's so much potential for good stuff to happen, you've just got to hope for the best sometimes I guess. I don't know anything and I don't speak from experience, those are just my thoughts. | | 22 |  | Deftones
Gore
So yeah if people that have it way worse can stay strong, then I sure as fuck can. Oh yeah, I said something about performing as a solo artist. Yeah so all of my musical friends are gone so I'm out of a band and have to perform on my own. I'm a multi-instrumentalist, with guitar and vocals being my core strengths (by a country mile since I'm self taught at everything else) and I have like a pretty indie-folk thingy written, but I haven't done lyrics yet cause I'm super self-conscious about writing my own lyrics and I don't feel inspired by anything right at the moment. Anyway, self-indulgence over. Stay strong and all that good shit, find something you love and people you love (and love you) and stuff will go from shitty to titty hopefully. Also go to the gym, it feels like shit for the first while when you're weak af and can't do shit yet, but you've just gotta keep at it cause you'll hopefully be more satisfied with yourself in the long run and you'll feel a little more confident. | | 21 |  | Guided by Voices
Please Be Honest
I... did not plan for this to have a motivational ending, but it does now so I'm just gonna roll with it and I hate being a self-indulgent debbie downer anyway, so hope anyone that feels like a useless cunt like me feels a little bit better, for whatever reason (hopefully not because of me being such a dickhead they feel better about themselves) after reading whatever of this they read :) | | 20 |  | Kashiwa Daisuke
Program Music II
The stuff on this list is ranked, 24 - 26 I did not like. | | 19 |  | The Pillows
Stroll and Roll | | 18 |  | LSD and the Search for God
Heaven Is a Place
Does anyone else get really demotivational vibes from a lot of shoegaze stuff? I don't mean all of it obviously, but quite a large portion of it just makes me feel like shit, despite how much I enjoy shoegaze, which is unfortunate. | | 17 |  | King Green
The Moon Has Fallen
Give AnimalsAsSummit's music a little jam and help him out a bit. | | 16 |  | Steven Wilson
4 1/2 | | 15 |  | Lycus
Chasms | | 14 |  | daughter
Not to Disappear | | 13 |  | Ningen-Isu
Kaidan: Soshite Shi to Eros | | 12 |  | Galileo Galilei
Sea and the Darkness | | 11 |  | The Jezabels
Synthia | | 10 |  | Pop. 1280
Paradise | | 9 |  | The Black Queen
Fever Daydream | | 8 |  | Shaded Explorer
Empatia | | 7 |  | The Mortal
Immortal | | 6 |  | lights
Midnight Machines | | 5 |  | Chelsea Wolfe
Hypnos / Flame | | 4 |  | Lost Salt Blood Purges
Only the Youngest Grave
and OvDeath's stuff too | | 3 |  | School of Seven Bells
SVIIB | | 2 |  | Sarah Neufeld
The Ridge | | 1 |  | David Bowie
Blackstar
yeah, yeah I know | |
Jasdevi087
04.30.16 | I'm gonna need to take recs also, cause there's no charts and shit yet | CalculatingInfinity
04.30.16 | As I've said in our chat things are looking up by the sounds of it, keep to your aspirations and the gym. More you slack at school the worse you'll feel since you feel like you have no future. | SitarHero
04.30.16 | Yeah man, like all things in life, this too will pass. Focus on yourself and what you like doing. Music, working out, whatever. Work on yourself and in no time you'll be over it. | TheSwagguBear
04.30.16 | Keep on keepin' on man. This will fade in no time if you keep on living your life. What Calculating said about school - I cannot repeat that enough.
Advice on lyric writing: don't wait to write 'em. Start writing them often, inspired or not. Inspiration is a good thing but 95% of songwriters who perform solo/in a band or sell their songs don't wait on the muse. They don't have the time to. Plus, you'll take forever to improve if you wait for inspiration to strike. Start writing, make terrible mistakes, and repeat until you're good. Then write some more. | Archelirion
04.30.16 | Great selection of albums you have checked. The fact that you [i]have[/i] a goal for after school is a very good thing, as it's much, much better than looking forward and thinking 'well, fuck'. Keep plugging away dude :] | SitruK6
04.30.16 | i started writing something and i ended up having the same exact comment as Archelirion so.... i guess i'm just joining in on what he said lol
| SitruK6
04.30.16 | i just wanted to add, due to the fact that things come and go (regardless of if it's your choice or not) you should never put all of your energy on one thing (like girls you meet), like this if something fails you still have something else to look forward to. | AnimalsAsSummit
04.30.16 | Thanks for the inclusion and I hope all improves for you, Jas. Just don't forget you're still young and this is just an uncomfortable bump in the road; you will get through it | Lord(e)Po)))ts
04.30.16 | 10 rules
3 was just ok tbh that band got progressively more and more basic tbh BUT Open your Eyes is an amazing track | TheWrenKing
04.30.16 | 18 was demotivational because it was such a goddamn let down | chemicalmarriage
04.30.16 | You got this Jas | Jasdevi087
04.30.16 | "3 was just ok tbh that band got progressively more and more basic tbh BUT Open your Eyes is an amazing track"
I haven't heard their older stuff, but I'll make the effort to in that case
"18 was demotivational because it was such a goddamn let down"
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