i had access to drugs way before i had access to women (unfortunately) and even more unfortunately, ive found those drugs fill that emptiness a hell of a lot more than a lady does. which was not ideal as i assumed drugs were way more self destructive than meaningless sex.
Check out Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. It's a short read that has got me through tough times. Put on some atmospheric black metal or post-rock and have yourself a lovely little existential time.