Hawks
10.29.24 | Damn bro please don't say that. :[ |
Futures
10.29.24 | brother man hang in there. here for whatever you need. life sucks, trust me i know. it gets better, it always does. it's tough man but you can do it. there's so much more music to jam! this bums me out. you're a good dude who makes some excellent music and this place appreciates you. everyone is here for you man. love u. |
EphemeralEternity
10.29.24 | Besides the usual advice to reach out to any close friends and speak to a professional
All I'll say is I have been in your position and I'm glad I hung on (even though life is still a bitch at times)
It's tough to see any light at the end of the tunnel when your head is shrouded in fog but trust that things can get better and upward spirals can happen as well and often by surprise - you change a few things with your circumstances and suddenly everything is infinitely better than before
If it is a chemical depression as mine was too then obviously meds are usually needed to help drag you out of the mire and get you on your feet...and unfortunately there's no simple solution and you usually need to throw shit at a wall to see what sticks, but something will eventually
Go easy on yourself and do whatever helps you get through the days - music has been a lifeline for a lot of people myself included
And hit me for a chat if you want |
nightbringer
10.29.24 | Sorry to hear you're struggling so intensely. While there's that part of you that you acknowledge in this post - the part that's flirting with death, I'm sensing other parts of you that still have a voice. You chose to reach out and share here, which seems really positive to me. Maybe you can try and name and acknowledge these other parts? I think those same sparks that led to this post could also lead you to other sources of support. |
Spec
10.29.24 | Nah if I have to stick around so do you. |
bellovddd
10.29.24 | we only got one shot at life might as well make it last as long as possible. all the best and do you're best. |
heyadam
10.29.24 | Sorry it’s heavy < 3 when it gets like that at night, do your best to just drink some water and go to bed. Fixating on it will make it worse, and going to sleep can do a lot more good than it sounds (speaking from experience).
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Purpl3Spartan
10.29.24 | Hang in there man :[
I pray things get better for you as you are so talented and have so much going for you! |
unclereich
10.29.24 | smoke weed |
Hendoi
10.29.24 | life sucks, hope you have some better days ahead of you. take care. |
Icebloom
10.29.24 | Echoing everything nightbringer said. Sad to hear you struggle, stay safe. |
zakalwe
10.29.24 | From this point on things will potentially get worse but they will also undoubtedly get better.
All the help, assistance and support means absolutely nothing if you have no hope.
There is always hope even if for fleeting moments it’s seems there is none.
Hope does initially comes from within, it’s always there it’s just temporarily lost.
I hope you that you find hope and I know for a fact that you will you just need to hold on. |
artiswar
10.29.24 | I've been in the same situation for at least 4 months now. It's been really bad. Meds, music, and friends help |
Jurtz
10.29.24 | This too shall pass
Been there
Hold on brother |
Slex
10.29.24 | I am really sorry that you are feeling like this, all I can say for sure is that you are not alone in that feeling. If you ever need to talk, hit my shoutbox, seriously |
Krpa
10.29.24 | You're not alone friend, I myself feel like I've done nothing but sideline any potential good chance in my life. Well, almost any, still have friends and family to bring some positivity when needed. But it weighs heavy on your chest, undeniably. No matter, you owe it to yourself to wade through all the shit thrown your way, but never ever call it a day. We need to keep it up no matter what. |
NorwichScene
10.29.24 | Get help for your thoughts. I know you think it’s bad, but thousands of people have it a lot worse believe me. No one is going to make fun of you, work hard but also try relax when the opportunity arises and take each a day at a time as things will get better! |
Jurtz
10.29.24 | Telling someone who is struggling how other people have it a lot worse does not help and usually ends up pushing someone further down. You obviously mean well, just something to think about. |
arthropod
10.29.24 | Suicide is a double-edged sword: what's bad might end, but no more good will happen. It's your life and your decision, but keep that in mind.
Some things will propably remain in your head forever, but it's possible to still find joy in life. |
Jurtz
10.29.24 | Suicide is a double-edged sword: what's bad might end, but no more good will happen. It's your life and your decision, but keep that in mind. [2] |
IsisScript80
10.29.24 | "A lot of bad things have happened to me the last few years, and it’s getting very hard because I cannot get rid of the thoughts."
Obviously, I do not in any way know the specifics of the situation you're in... only from this, it appears that the spell is *relatively* recent (as in "the last few years", opposed to over the course of an entire lifetime), and that you "cannot get rid of the thoughts".
On the first point, I would say that it is possible to have a bad, infortunate run that can last several years... you could even feel "cursed". This though, tends to pass via the natural ebb and flows of life.
In terms of "getting rid of the thoughts", there are therapies and meds available, as well as sharing the load (here, for example) with people, either digitally or in real-life. Again, I don't know your social or financial setup for access to either beyond this forum, but if you have some, this too could be worked on in a genuine way (I talk from first, and secondary experience here).
"Make fun of me if you want."
I suppose a mixed blessing here, with the forum on its virtual knees and having (as far as I'm aware) no current way of accepting new members, is that everyone here, more-or-less, aren't going to significantly troll you because at this stage, an exit is permanent. Even so, if they did, FUCK them. They'd be S-tier cunts.
Hope it works out for you. |
JohnnyoftheWell
10.29.24 | you've always been a gem from what i've seen of you here, and it's rough hearing you've been feeling this way. can definitely relate to thinking life has run out of bones to throw you, and i guess all i can say is that every chance i gave it to surprise me again turned out to be a blessing. take time out/sleep/eat well/travel somewhere peaceful if you're able and give yourself a chance to hit all the reset buttons you need - sending all my positive thoughts |
Wildcardbitchesss
10.29.24 | I get it man. I’m not gonna sit here and act like life is a walk in the park. Just think of the people in your life that care about you, and how devastated they’d be if you went through with it.
But I empathize, not gonna lie, when my dogs are gone and my mom has passed I’m probably gonna check out. I just gotta outlive her, I can’t put her through that.
Sending love man, you’re not alone in feeling this way. |
artificialbox
10.29.24 | You're a good person efp. Stick around a while longer please |
efp123
10.29.24 | thanks for the thoughtful replies |
evilford
10.29.24 | Sorry you're going thru this efp...I can relate. Life really sucks sometimes. But I bet there are people in your life who would be devastated if you ended it all.
But like wildcard said im not gonna pretend that life is a walk in the park. He'll it's hard for me and I have a lot of things to be grateful for. You ever need to chat or anything hmu, I'd much rather listen to the shit you're going thru than hear that you.....you know |
botb
10.29.24 | What Johnny and Jurtz said, thought this was going to be a ITYSL meme list, sad to see it’s not. Stay strong. Things do get better if you give them a chance to. |
DocSportello
10.29.24 | My housemate will often just leave pistols and rifles and shit on counters and tabletops and I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t considered blowing my brains out one random night after a midnight snack. Especially these days I’m afraid that the allure of death is more normal and universal than we’d like to admit. There’s a certain thrill to standing on the edge of a cliff and just imagining, what if. But that would be the end of imagination. I’d never get to pet another cat. I’d never get to hear another sick new album. I’d never be able to be moved again, by anything or anyone. To say nothing of the inconceivable grief that would forever haunt the hearts and minds of friends and family.
Which is why I’ll never, never do that.
Being human is hard, I know it. But please consider sticking with it. I hardly know you but I see you, and neither this old site nor the world you inhabit would be the same without you. |
evilford
10.29.24 | Hard |
Egarran
10.29.24 | What are some of the bad things that happened?
Doubt not that we need you, you make sputnik better. Your rating list alone is A+. |
zakalwe
10.29.24 | ‘My housemate will often just leave pistols and rifles and shit on counters and tabletops’
Loaded? Christ Almighty.
I’d blow me own brains out just to teach the fucker a lesson. |
FowlKrietzsche
10.29.24 | I don't usually add anything to these since I struggle with finding anything to say but there have been many times where I thought my life was over, I'd made a decision I couldn't undo, and all I could think about was whether I could move past that moment, then life happened and that moment faded into obscurity and I was happy to still be around. Its hard to give your life perspective when you're in the struggle, but I promise you life is wide and wonderous and there is more for you here |
anode
10.29.24 | yeah bro i feel ya, i dont know if you got the anger inside that i do but these lyrics have really helped me "in spite of the world, my fight will never end". if the world keeps throwing bs at you, more reason to stay alive. fuck em |
Clefairy
10.29.24 | You’re not alone man. Try to find joy in anything you can, watch a movie you’ve never seen, go to a concert, take a day off from work/school and visit a town you’ve never visited before, try new food, find the smallest thing that feels new and fresh to you. You matter, please talk to a professional. |
chemicalmarriage
10.29.24 | Have you ever heard about how Alex Grey was suicidal, took some acid, and realized he had a divine talent and love of painting and a new found spark of life that led him on a journey that no one could have ever expected. Just throwing it out there, and no, I'm not telling you to do acid. I hope you're doing better |
EphemeralEternity
10.30.24 | I feel like takin acid when you're in a suicidal state is like Russian roulette with 5 in the chamber, but I guess a slim chance of having a life affirming epiphany |
gabba
10.30.24 | Contemplating suicide for real is tunnel-vision controlled by serious fuckup in the balance between chemical systems in the brain. It’s a crisis that doesn’t boil down to “nothing matters anymore”, but is driven by anguish and distress. Life becomes utterly painful with the idea of death offering the only solution. It’s like a magnet, a black hole one can’t seem to escape from. But this will inevitable change if you manage to hang on for a while, and moments will come when you’ll feel happy about not having let it go. Those moments are worth living for. You see already the amount of responses you trigger from others, because we get your pain, either have been there before, or are concerned about feeling the same way in the future. You’re not alone, you shape your environment, and we’re here to talk to you, to others, to ourselves. Your list may help some of us when dark times come, thanks for that. |
Get Low
11.04.24 | Hope you come out feeling better. The psyche ward I went to when I was at my low point fed me Lorna Doones until I was cured. |
Futures
11.04.24 | we love you man. |
Dedes
11.04.24 | I believe in u buddy, I hope some answers can be found in that time away. Find what slivers of joy you can and cling onto them hard, even if it's something that seems goofy as fuck or insignificant. |
IsisScript80
11.04.24 | Hope you get the support you need to get through this, efp. |