Alex, you know lots of stuff. You remind me of this guy named Wattaney that threatened to slam my head into a table until I passed out if I didn't tell him the meaning of a symbol I always drew on my hand. He had pictures of dead people on his wall.

[QUOTE]It's essentially what I have. Instead of being grounded at the center of the emotional spectrum, your mind is anchored further toward depression.

I've been near-suicidal in my life, but I've never been better than okay. I've never been euphorically happy in my life.[/QUOTE]In that case, the guy that told me that is a moron. I'm essentially the happiest person I know, and when I am unhappy I keep it to myself and make a point of not expressing it artisticly.

Oh yeah, I know I have major self-esteem problems and little or no confidence but it's not logical enough for knowing about it to help at all.

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]Oh yeah, I know I have major self-esteem problems and little or no confidence [I]but it's not logical enough for knowing about it to help at all[/I].[/QUOTE]

I didn't understand what you meant by that : \

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]In that case, the guy that told me that is a moron. I'm essentially the happiest person I know, and when I am unhappy I keep it to myself and make a point of not expressing it artisticly.[/QUOTE]
I usually express my emotions through music. I can do it at the piano and just churn out things forever. The only problem with that is that you revist the event that inspired the song everytime you hear/play it.

jeez, almost everyone in here seems to be suffering or have suffered from psychological issues

[size=1]this is good for me![/size]

[QUOTE=clearvision]I didn't understand what you meant by that : \[/QUOTE]


I know exactly that all my problems come from low self esteem, no confidence and being paranoid abou the way others see me but knowing what's wrong with me doesn't cure it.

[QUOTE=Moses]I usually express my emotions through music. I can do it at the piano and just churn out things forever. The only problem with that is that you revist the event that inspired the song everytime you hear/play it.[/QUOTE]

if you can capture that particular feeling and bring it to the listener then you've grasped the true meaning of art.


Expressing my emotions...I keep a diary every now and then and fantasize a lot by like I said making up scenarios in my mind.

If only people in real life were more like people in this thread. Most of us can empathize(sp?) in some way. Most people in real life would just say to get over it.

"Aaron why are you so quiet around people? Just snap out of it"

They make it sound easy :(

[QUOTE=Kingofdudes]If only people in real life were more like people in this thread. Most of us can empathize(sp?) in some way. Most people in real life would just say to get over it.

"Aaron why are you so quiet around people? Just snap out of it"

They make it sound easy :([/QUOTE]

My grandma (hehe) had once told me to always keep in mind that the other people feel the same way I do.

I find weird how I told you guys that but I didn't even tell my "therepist." For God's sake she still had her European accent.

[QUOTE]I usually express my emotions through music. I can do it at the piano and just churn out things forever. The only problem with that is that you revist the event that inspired the song everytime you hear/play it.[/QUOTE]I just figured out a few weeks ago that I can't play guitar with a da[B][I][/B][/I]mn.
[QUOTE]
jeez, almost everyone in here seems to be suffering or have suffered from psychological issues[/QUOTE]The funny thing is, my phsychotic The Wall/ClockWork Orange/South Park inspired dream is what started this.

[QUOTE=Stoic]if you can capture that particular feeling and bring it to the listener then you've grasped the true meaning of art.[/QUOTE]
Are you gothic by any chance? I mean the real gothic, not the black clothes thing.

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]I find weird how I told you guys that but I didn't even tell my "therepist." For God's sake she still had her European accent.[/QUOTE]

why the hell go to a therapist then? I'd love to have an insightful (is there such a word?) discussion with a professional!
[SIZE=1]this is why I gonna be a professional, I'm having this for free![/SIZE]

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]I just figured out a few weeks ago that I can't play guitar with a da[B][I][/B][/I]mn.[/QUOTE]

I know I cant, I just use my guitar to help me compose stuff on powertab(yes I know I am ghetto)

bloody hell this thread went over today

/cricket and the Awesome England batting performance took up my day, so what the pissing great hell has everyone else been up to today?

dialup is bent...:upset:

[QUOTE=Moses]Are you gothic by any chance? I mean the real gothic, not the black clothes thing.[/QUOTE]

not at all, I dont even know what the real gothic is. Why would I give such an impression anyways?

[QUOTE=Stoic]why the hell go to a therapist then? I'd love to have an insightful (is there such a word?) discussion with a professional!
[SIZE=1]this is why I gonna be a professional, I'm having this for free![/SIZE][/QUOTE]

I tried to tell her, it just didn't work.

Anyway, discuss how my parents went to the pub and left me in an unheated house.

I use my guitar to play other people's Thrash Metal, and my pop-punk. I'm not nearly as tr00 as I wish.

[Quote]Anyway, discuss how my parents went to the pub and left me in an unheated house.[/quote]I love when my parents do that. Seriously.

[QUOTE=Stoic]not at all, I dont even know what the real gothic is. Why would I give such an impression anyways?[/QUOTE]
Alot of goths don't even know they are gothic. Your statement about art kind of sparked the question. I just don't like how many people don't even know what it means because the media has manipulated the term so much. I'll definately go into what it is in a minute.

[QUOTE=Stoic]why the hell go to a therapist then? I'd love to have an insightful (is there such a word?) discussion with a professional!
[SIZE=1]this is why I gonna be a professional, I'm having this for free![/SIZE][/QUOTE]

I was about to type those very words (excpet for the bit about becoming a professional). I would love to be able to open up to someone and let them tell me who i really am. Instead of just going by my opinions on everything and letting little snippets of me out to people I meet.

[QUOTE=KingofDudes]I know I cant, I just use my guitar to help me compose stuff on powertab(yes I know I am ghetto)[/QUOTE]

I do this too and then I end up not being able to play my own songs :p

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]I tried to tell her, it just didn't work.
[/QUOTE]

pfff...Has any of you actually seen a good therapist who does what he's supposed to do (=be straight to the point)?!

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]Anyway, discuss how my parents went to the pub and left me in an unheated house.[/QUOTE]

unheated? Is it winter where you are?

home alone is cool!

[QUOTE=Stoic]
pfff...Has any of you actually seen a good therapist who does what he's supposed to do (=be straight to the point)?!
[/QUOTE]

123, I know someone that's been to a couple of therapists and they just cry and tell the therapist storys of their life :confused:

It's not winter... it's just freezing. It was boiling a few nights ago as well.

My therapist sucked but I didn't want to tell her that because I thought she might feel bad and talk about me with her intelligent therapist friends and laugh at me so I told her everything as all better.

/idiot.

therapist= the rapist
coincidence?
methinks not...

[url]http://blood-dance.net/goth/grant.html[/url]
^^^ That is a legit site that will lead you to know what goth is.
[url]http://www.myspace.com/lorddemondark[/url]
^^^ That is what goth has been manipulated by the media into.

[QUOTE=Stoic]I do this too and then I end up not being able to play my own songs :p![/QUOTE]
:lol: I know how that is.

[QUOTE=Slave To The Dark]therapist= the rapist
coincidence?
methinks not...[/QUOTE]
I got that from threes company.

[QUOTE=Moses][url]http://blood-dance.net/goth/grant.html[/url]
^^^ That is a legit site that will lead you to know what goth is.
[url]http://www.myspace.com/lorddemondark[/url]
^^^ That is what goth has been manipulated by the media into.[/QUOTE]

That about sums it up.

:lol: It's Lord Demon Dark. I wonder if he knows he's famous on MX?

Aye, I would be a goth. But don't tell anyone, they'll agrue at me.

[QUOTE=clearvision]I was about to type those very words (excpet for the bit about becoming a professional). I would love to be able to open up to someone and let them tell me who i really am. Instead of just going by my opinions on everything and letting little snippets of me out to people I meet.[/QUOTE]

exactly what I feel. To take it a bit further, there are some people that are "close" to me (alright just one person) but rarely talk about such matters because I'm afraid I'll be exposed without receiving something equal. Besides, you can never be sure whether the other person really cares or grasps the things you say or simply whether he can reach the thought/perception level you reach (hope it makes sense, some things can only be effectively expressed in my own language)

[QUOTE=Moses]Alot of goths don't even know they are gothic. Your statement about art kind of sparked the question. I just don't like how many people don't even know what it means because the media has manipulated the term so much. I'll definately go into what it is in a minute.[/QUOTE]

Yes, I've noticed this about the media. Looking forward to the info you'll bring me.

/beaten, I'm a slow typer or a slow english thinker :p