wait...this sounds like your life to an extent! :D
j/k

Who knows what the heck you were thinking (or smoking :p) before sleeping!

D[size=2]a[/size]mn son! :amaze:

That is ****ing depressing, bad Death Metal is terrible, if it was Devouerment or something, it would be fine, but sh[color=white]i[/color]t like Cannibal Corpse agh....

So yeah, my mom and I agreed that if I did yardwork this morning, I could go out with my friends from 6-12 after work, and I was like "all right, sounds good" then I asked her if I could have money for Subway before work, and she tells me that we're going out for dinner when I get back home and that she doesn't want me ruining dinner. So I told her #1 this is for LUNCH, and #2, we agreed that I didn't have to go, so then she gave me sh[color=white]it[/color] about how my brother and sister are going back to College in a few weaks, and I yelled back, and now I'm grounded.

I remembered thinking, just before I went to sleep, "I'd love to be insane for one day just to see what it would be like."


Reminded me of The Wall, ClockWork Orange, and that South Park episode about faggy 'goth' kids.


Yeah, the bad Death Metal was the cherry on top that made everything unbearable. Cannibal Corpse were decent in Corpsegrinder days.

Matt: Your mom and your drunk brother suck. Subway rules.

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]So yeah, my mom and I agreed that if I did yardwork this morning, I could go out with my friends from 6-12 after work, and I was like "all right, sounds good" then I asked her if I could have money for Subway before work, and she tells me that we're going out for dinner when I get back home and that she doesn't want me ruining dinner. So I told her #1 this is for LUNCH, and #2, we agreed that I didn't have to go, so then she gave me **** about how my brother and sister are going back to College in a few weaks, and I yelled back, and now I'm grounded.[/QUOTE]

ppfff...You didnt tell her anything bad though, just that you didnt want to go, big deal. She just wanted all the family together for a last time (mellow). So, did you go for lunch or not?

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]I remembered thinking, just before I went to sleep, "I'd love to be insane for one day just to see what it would be like."
[/QUOTE]

Why would you want to be insane for one day? And what do you mean by insane? Mentally ill or just a free man with no responsibilities who can do WHATEVER he wants without consequences?

For some moronic reason, I think it would be great to be mentally insane for one day, because I'd love to know what it feels like. Menetal illness always interested me. I'm writing a book that takes place in a mental institution right now, but I won't share information on it.

Another great thing about being insane for a day is, if it sucks, which it most likely would, it's only one day.

**** **** **** **** **** **** ****! the battery wires on my guitar are ****ed up :mad: I wont be able to fix the **** thing for like a month!

Battery Wires? Active Pups?

[QUOTE=RCA]Clearvision, you listen to the songs yet?[/QUOTE]

I did, they were very cool; though i don't think i could do a whole album.

Battery wires? You got some kinda Fisher Price guitar?


Matt: YOu're mom is crazy. If I made Fruit Loops and my mom smashed them, no exagerration, no kidding, I would punch her. No one messes with my fruit loops. ANd you'r mom threatens you with knives? Christ. My cousin threatened me with a steak knife, and told me that if she were to stab me she would stab me in an upward motion because it's more effective, (she reads Vampire novels) but that's because i forgot to take my pills and I was bouncing around like a moron.

[QUOTE=Stoic]ppfff...You didnt tell her anything bad though, just that you didnt want to go, big deal. She just wanted all the family together for a last time (mellow). So, did you go for lunch or not?[/QUOTE]

It's not the last time though, we go out for dinner every weak, and the point was she lied to me. Also, I did not go for lunch, so I poured myself a bowl of fruitloops, and she smashed it :upset: she also threatened me with a knife on multiple occasions, before I grabbed her wrist and took the knife from her.

Aaron (kingofdudes) - Wasn't your first day of school today? How was it?

Agh... starting school today? aghhh....

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]For some moronic reason, I think it would be great to be mentally insane for one day, because I'd love to know what it feels like. Menetal illness always interested me. I'm writing a book that takes place in a mental institution right now, but I won't share information on it.

Another great thing about being insane for a day is, if it sucks, which it most likely would, it's only one day.[/QUOTE]

I have an interest about various forms of depression, suicidial tendencies and amnesia and now I think of it I'd like to find myself in such situation for one day to see what it's like. I mean I think about them (and not only), come up with scenarios and try to identify with them. Creative form of thinking, you somehow test your feeling and experience situations you'll probably never find yourself in.

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]It's not the last time though, we go out for dinner every weak, and the point was she lied to me. Also, I did not go for lunch, so I poured myself a bowl of fruitloops, and she smashed it she also threatened me with a knife on multiple occasions, before I grabbed her wrist and took the knife from her.[/QUOTE]

I'm terribly sorry man. Be patient, you'll be leaving someday and never go back :(

I've got 18 days till school, and that's part of the reason I'm getting consciously and unconscoiusly upset.


[QUOTE=stoic]you somehow test your feeling and experience situations you'll probably never find yourself in.[/QUOTE]Too much.

*remembers the time I was interrogated for murder, about a thousand times (wrongly accused convicted murder is another role i like to play).

*remembers the seven different alternate families I have*

*remembers that time I became friends with a clown fish and find out that my dad was jesus*

Yeah.

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]I've got 18 days till school, and that's part of the reason I'm getting consciously and unconscoiusly upset.[/QUOTE]

That's the part I hated most during summer when I had school. The countdown! It was like nightmare (like?!) :(

[QUOTE=Mister Blue Sky]Aaron (kingofdudes) - Wasn't your first day of school today? How was it?[/QUOTE]
It was pretty good. I have psychology, which is gonna be a breeze. Drivers ed isnt a problem since I drive already, and we wont be doing jack in that class. But Office work was boring, since there wasnt anything to do.


I would show you guys a pic to show you what I mean, but my brother killed the battery taking pictures of his tattoo.

[QUOTE=Stoic]I have an interest about various forms of depression, suicidial tendencies and amnesia and now I think of it I'd like to find myself in such situation for one day to see what it's like. I mean I think about them (and not only), come up with scenarios and try to identify with them. Creative form of thinking, you somehow test your feeling and experience situations you'll probably never find yourself in.[/QUOTE]

I would also like this to happen. I am confused by the state of mind that depression brings and how it affects people and it just amazes me that depression actually occurs and is classed as a disease. I've tried reading up on it and most people say it's all chemical related, while I can believe some of this I really think it is triggered by a bad state of mind and it can be fixed by psycology. 'Cause even when people are on pills they still feel down and stuff. I can't really see myself having depression so I'd really like to see what it is like.

I don't find suicidal tendencies interesting, however, I want to do research on people that lead crappy lives but [I]don't[/I] have suicidal tendencies.

[QUOTE=Kingofdudes]I would show you guys a pic to show you what I mean, but my brother killed the battery taking pictures of his tattoo.[/QUOTE]

:lol:

I thought your brother quit MX to play Halo 2 and smoke pot or something :confused:

Can anyone take people who say that they suffer from depression as a disease seriously? If they're openly admiting it and aware of their disease, they should be coping with it nicely, right?

No, we can just assume that they don't want to admit they're depressed because of emo troubles, and just blame it on chemicals.

ANd, for the second part, there's always the possibilty that they're not coping nicely, they just don't mind telling people.

[QUOTE=clearvision]I would also like this to happen. I am confused by the state of mind that depression brings and how it affects people and it just amazes me that depression actually occurs and is classed as a disease. I've tried reading up on it and most people say it's all chemical related, while I can believe some of this I really think it is triggered by a bad state of mind and it can be fixed by psycology. 'Cause even when people are on pills they still feel down and stuff. I can't really see myself having depression so I'd really like to see what it is like.[/QUOTE]

I dont believe it's all chemical related either. I've never had a depression (in a clinical form) phase (only feeling down for several days and stuff) and I cant understand the feeling either. I suspect it's a big disappointment about everything. You know something happens and becomes the handle to go back and re evaluate your whole life. You realize your mistakes, start feeling guilty about the lost time, you feel there's no way out. Anyhow, I dont believe pills solve the problem. Providing a depressed person alternative ways of thinking and various methods of introspection might help. Help people to help themselves is the ideal way I think.

[QUOTE=RNR]Can anyone take people who say that they suffer from depression as a disease seriously? If they're openly admiting it and aware of their disease, they should be coping with it nicely, right?[/QUOTE]

TBH people only say this because it's what the doctor says is their problem.

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]

ANd, for the second part, there's always the possibilty that they're not coping nicely, they just don't mind telling people.[/QUOTE]

Maybe. I don't see it being that common that they're fully aware of their depression and are open about it, and still can't cope with it.

But what the hell do I know?I'm not suffering from depression.

Zoloft = crap.

When I get depressed, it's usually about how for fifteen years I sucked at life, so If I die at 75 years of age, only 60 of them would be good, and fifteen would be me sucking at life.

[QUOTE=RNR]Can anyone take people who say that they suffer from depression as a disease seriously? If they're openly admiting it and aware of their disease, they should be coping with it nicely, right?[/QUOTE]

Easier said than done, my friend.

I can live with the fact that I'm diagnosed with clinical depression. And I've come to terms with the fact that my entire life, I've never done better than break even emotionally speaking.

But that doesn't stop it. Depressive episodes can still be triggered. And it scares bejeezus out of me every time I notice the symptoms of one setting in. The next couple of weeks are a scramble to try and fight it off. And there's always that nagging question in the back of mind, "What if it doesn't work this time and I lapse anyway?"

Until you've gone through a depressive episode, you can't know what it's like. You're unable to feel. It's an emotional void. And no matter how many times you come out of it, all you know is that you don't want to go back. Ever.

Yep. In my second post I said that I couldn't really judge, not having had deppression myself.

[QUOTE=GaggingOrder]When I get depressed, it's usually about how for fifteen years I sucked at life, so If I die at 75 years of age, only 60 of them would be good, and fifteen would be me sucking at life.[/QUOTE]

I do it a lot sometimes. I'm very positive and open about suicide too but I really dont feel like wasting my time whinning for the time I wasted! :p
[size=1]I prefer wasting it on the internet[/size]

[QUOTE=RNR]Maybe. I don't see it being that common that they're fully aware of their depression and are open about it, and still can't cope with it.[/QUOTE]

I'm sure depressed people are 100% aware of their state. Maybe everything seems so pointless that they just dont want to cope with it.

I intended to leave all the past behing before next school year, because I'll be going to an all new school, but I might fail in a few aspects, and have to leave all behind before the year after that, where I'll be at [I]another[/I] school.

That's more or less the story behind my two screen names, EvenStillRix and GaggingOrder.