[QUOTE=KingofDudes]I know I cant, I just use my guitar to help me compose stuff on powertab(yes I know I am ghetto)[/QUOTE]

I do this too and then I end up not being able to play my own songs :p

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]I tried to tell her, it just didn't work.
[/QUOTE]

pfff...Has any of you actually seen a good therapist who does what he's supposed to do (=be straight to the point)?!

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]Anyway, discuss how my parents went to the pub and left me in an unheated house.[/QUOTE]

unheated? Is it winter where you are?

home alone is cool!

[QUOTE=Stoic]
pfff...Has any of you actually seen a good therapist who does what he's supposed to do (=be straight to the point)?!
[/QUOTE]

123, I know someone that's been to a couple of therapists and they just cry and tell the therapist storys of their life :confused:

It's not winter... it's just freezing. It was boiling a few nights ago as well.

My therapist sucked but I didn't want to tell her that because I thought she might feel bad and talk about me with her intelligent therapist friends and laugh at me so I told her everything as all better.

/idiot.

therapist= the rapist
coincidence?
methinks not...

[url]http://blood-dance.net/goth/grant.html[/url]
^^^ That is a legit site that will lead you to know what goth is.
[url]http://www.myspace.com/lorddemondark[/url]
^^^ That is what goth has been manipulated by the media into.

[QUOTE=Stoic]I do this too and then I end up not being able to play my own songs :p![/QUOTE]
:lol: I know how that is.

[QUOTE=Slave To The Dark]therapist= the rapist
coincidence?
methinks not...[/QUOTE]
I got that from threes company.

[QUOTE=Moses][url]http://blood-dance.net/goth/grant.html[/url]
^^^ That is a legit site that will lead you to know what goth is.
[url]http://www.myspace.com/lorddemondark[/url]
^^^ That is what goth has been manipulated by the media into.[/QUOTE]

That about sums it up.

:lol: It's Lord Demon Dark. I wonder if he knows he's famous on MX?

Aye, I would be a goth. But don't tell anyone, they'll agrue at me.

[QUOTE=clearvision]I was about to type those very words (excpet for the bit about becoming a professional). I would love to be able to open up to someone and let them tell me who i really am. Instead of just going by my opinions on everything and letting little snippets of me out to people I meet.[/QUOTE]

exactly what I feel. To take it a bit further, there are some people that are "close" to me (alright just one person) but rarely talk about such matters because I'm afraid I'll be exposed without receiving something equal. Besides, you can never be sure whether the other person really cares or grasps the things you say or simply whether he can reach the thought/perception level you reach (hope it makes sense, some things can only be effectively expressed in my own language)

[QUOTE=Moses]Alot of goths don't even know they are gothic. Your statement about art kind of sparked the question. I just don't like how many people don't even know what it means because the media has manipulated the term so much. I'll definately go into what it is in a minute.[/QUOTE]

Yes, I've noticed this about the media. Looking forward to the info you'll bring me.

/beaten, I'm a slow typer or a slow english thinker :p

Lord demon Dark: I'm not Goth, I'm pegeean freak!

Let's all send this guy email bombers in the near future?

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]It's not winter... it's just freezing. It was boiling a few nights ago as well.

My therapist sucked but I didn't want to tell her that because I thought she might feel bad and talk about me with her intelligent therapist friends and laugh at me so I told her everything as all better.

/idiot.[/QUOTE]

Are you really that wary of yourself to worry about the therapist discussing you? Even though you are now talking to people you don't know and can't see how they react?

And don't therapists have clauses in their contracts that stop them from sharing any information outside their sessions?

all the goth girls I know at school are ugly... sorry for being superficial, but there it is, not perticularly nice personality wise either, they all adore me though, can't think why...

/josh can back me up on this if he comes back on (sack-man)

Yes. I am that bad. I used to try and wipe my mind of all thoughts because I believed people could hear them but I've mostly stopped that now. I don't like to talk about stuff on msn because I'm afraid other people will read it. I am wholly irrational.

[QUOTE=clearvision]
And don't therapists have clauses in their contracts that stop them from sharing any information outside their sessions?[/QUOTE]

Indeed. Besides therapist see a LOT of people with even worse (or sillier :p) problems than yours. Why would she talk about you with the other therapists (which btw are not more intelligent than you). Besides, she has a life, why think about you all the time :p

[QUOTE=me]I am wholly irrational.[/QUOTE]

...

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]Yes. I am that bad. I used to try and wipe my mind of all thoughts because I believed people could hear them but I've mostly stopped that now. I don't like to talk about stuff on msn because I'm afraid other people will read it. I am wholly irrational.[/QUOTE]

dont worry I get this too sometimes. I sense that every action of mine (and of people in general) is stored as a form of energy. Other times I get the feeling that my every single move is being captured or that my world is an illusion...

/doh!

I really used to be like that when I went through depression. When I got out of it I started becoming only rational and thought with logic about everything. Other things like art and love couldn't be explained with extreme logic and forced me turned to religion and other mystic things.

Also to Steerpike: I can tell that you probably haven't broke through the barrier to euphoric happiness because of your nature. Have you had any luck with the ladies yet? Maybe love and a spiritual connection could help you.

[QUOTE=WillyWonka]Everything in this room is edible, even me, but that's called cannibalism and is frowned upon in many societies![/QUOTE]
/random quote before I leave to play football manager...night

<3 Willy Wonka.

I'm hoping I don't have as bad a year at school as I did last year when I go back. It'll be a whole new start, I'd better make the most of it.

If you're going to do that then you might have to ignore your depression and fake it for a little while till it actually becomes reality. That's how I fought through it after I stood up to my step-father. I kind of tricked myself into it almost.

[QUOTE=Moses]
Also to Steerpike: I can tell that you probably haven't broke through the barrier to euphoric happiness because of your nature. Have you had any luck with the ladies yet? Maybe love and [B]a spiritual connection [/B] could help you.[/QUOTE]

emotional fulfilment. Too bad another human being is needed :upset:

What is euphoric happiness?

Thanks for the links moses, I'll make sure I'll read them both tomorrow (it's a bit late for big english texts now :p)

Thanks, I'll try that. :)

[QUOTE=Moses]Also to Steerpike: I can tell that you probably haven't broke through the barrier to euphoric happiness because of your nature. Have you had any luck with the ladies yet? Maybe love and a spiritual connection could help you.[/QUOTE]

I'm that transparent, huh?

And no. I haven't really been able to get out as much as I'd like.

Don't read the myspace one that's all fake and to show how retarded our society has become. Euphoric happiness is basically full content and being happy with the state of your life just because you are alive.

Wow, it seems you say that everytime, Steerpike. I'm completely un-busy and can do whatever I feel like right now since Subway is closed for remodleing. Anyway it completely sucks though because my girlfriend is out of town for another 10 days (already been 5 weeks) and that's the only person I really want to spend time with right now. It's easy to see that you're a cynic though.

[QUOTE=Moses]Don't read the myspace one that's all fake and to show how retarded our society has become. Euphoric happiness is basically full content and being happy with the state of your life just because you are alive.[/QUOTE]

So far, I have yet to hit euphoria. That's true.

I've been striving to keep the depressive episodes away by standing firm in the belief that I am the master of my own destiny.

I think we we need a new thread name: Some Kinda R&M Therapy Session

Definately.

It would turn into a joke. Can you imagine the spam by even the first week?

My brother has started using the word "homie" and just told me this joke:

Why is a seagull called a seagull?
Because if it flew over land it would be called a baygull.

I paraphrase, it was worse in real life.

That joke was amazing.

[QUOTE=Steerpike]So far, I have yet to hit euphoria. That's true.

I've been striving to keep the depressive episodes away by standing firm in the belief that I am the master of my own destiny.[/QUOTE]

What I do when I feel down is fantasizing that an obscure, more confident and mature self of mine is coming to solace me. It's like if I have a discussion with my future self. It's soothing to know that there's still time to change things. We're still young arent we?

[QUOTE=KingofDudes]I think we we need a new thread name: Some Kinda R&M Therapy Session[/QUOTE]

haha, why not? It's much more easier to interact on the net.

to Jom:
:lol:

[QUOTE=Kingofdudes]I think we we need a new thread name: Some Kinda R&M Therapy Session[/QUOTE]

The only problem is that this thread is living up to the current title, heh.

Of course, Jelle is going to subconsciously add a ? to the end of Therapy.

[i]R&M Therapy? Session?! Oh boy!

Oh, wait. :([/i]

[QUOTE=Moses]Wow, it seems you say that everytime, Steerpike. I'm completely un-busy and can do whatever I feel like right now since Subway is closed for remodleing. Anyway it completely sucks though because my girlfriend is out of town for another 10 days (already been 5 weeks) and that's the only person I really want to spend time with right now. It's easy to see that you're a cynic though.[/QUOTE]

I prefer to think of myself as a sardonic existentialist, but okay.

Truth is, I don't have the money to pay for car insurance, so I can't get my license. And that means I'm a slave to everyone else's schedules. Which in turn means I'm grounded to home more often than not.

It also doesn't help that the places I like to go aren't great places to meet local women. Barnes & Noble, Spencer's Gifts, the movies, that sort of thing. My campus would yield better results.

Well I met my girlfriend at school because she was good friends with one of my good friends and first time we met she poked me and said "poke". We didn't start going out till we were at one of my other friends shows for his band and she needed a fake boyfriend because this one guy was hitting on her. We were flirting like crazy and and I invited her to come over and we were flirting and somehow we just started making out.

[QUOTE=Moses]Well I met my girlfriend at school because she was good friends with one of my good friends and first time we met she poked me and said "poke". We didn't start going out till we were at one of my other friends shows for his band and she needed a fake boyfriend because this one guy was hitting on her. We were flirting like crazy and and I invited her to come over and we were flirting and somehow we just started making out.[/QUOTE]

It's amazing how many people I know with stories like that.

Who met their girlfriends by poking?

/has never had a real boyfriend to speak of.

/is bitter.

:)

I am unlucky with girls everything will be grand and I would say something like


So have you always been that fat?

or I remember once they said like some bs like can we still be good friends I acted like the nob I am and said I never considered us good friends in the first place.

[QUOTE=evilmenhavenosongs]

/is bitter.

:)[/QUOTE]

hmm...not that much :p

poking is most of the times a sign that one person has feeling for another. Experience speaking (lots of TV series and movies :D)

I have "had" 3 girlfriends. Every single "relationship" has crashed and burned, and left me feeling like crap. I think i am content with being single at the moment.

[QUOTE=Rothmans]I am unlucky with girls everything will be grand and I would say something like


So have you always been that fat?

or I remember once they said like some bs like can we still be good friends I acted like the nob I am and said I never considered us good friends in the first place.[/QUOTE]

Meh atm I wish i didn't do the whole relationship thing.