wait wtf I thought you were awesome at life

do you know when you're leaving dude? when you first started posting here again you sounded a lot better.

[QUOTE=Nostalgia;17631237]what's wrong duder[/QUOTE]

bunch of ****. excessive alcoholism is starting to kinda tear my parents apart, i saw my whore ex girlfriend last night and that just brings a whole set of problems and feelings that ive been trying to get rid of for months, im having to deal with the repercussions of my complete **** up of the last 3 years of my life, etc etc etc.

i am awesome at life but im not COMPLETELY devoid of emotions

yeah i was alot better but the longer i stay here waiting the more i lose control of everything. i ship out sometime in the spring.

[QUOTE=Nepenthe;17631249]bunch of ****. excessive alcoholism is starting to kinda tear my parents apart, i saw my whore ex girlfriend last night and that just brings a whole set of problems and feelings that ive been trying to get rid of for months, im having to deal with the repercussions of my complete **** up of the last 3 years of my life, etc etc etc.[/QUOTE]

stop dwelling on the past. youre too smart for that.

i figure most of my problems in life will go away as soon as i start a rock band and get my eyebrow pierced

i've always been pretty good at convincing myself of things like this

[QUOTE=AA-12;17631250]stop dwelling on the past. youre too smart for that.[/QUOTE]

naw its not that im dwelling on the mistakes its that im still having to deal with them. i would have already been in the air force months ago if i didnt have to go through this waivers bullshit. i dont have a license right now, or a car, or insurance. i pissed my shot at college away by unenrolling. etc

[QUOTE=Nepenthe;17631254]naw its not that im dwelling on the mistakes its that im still having to deal with them. i would have already been in the air force months ago if i didnt have to go through this waivers bullpoop. i dont have a license right now, or a car, or insurance. i pissed my shot at college away by unenrolling. etc[/QUOTE]

i just pissed everything away i had too, and im more positive than ever. you just have to move on and deal with whats happening.

[QUOTE=AA-12;17631250]stop dwelling on the past. youre too smart for that.[/QUOTE]

can one be too smart to dwell on the past ?

i mean, i'm a pretty enlightened cat and well you know

yeah dude im not the type to get depressed im a pretty indifferently optimistic guy but im just dissatisfied currently. once i ship out things will be fine, ill have some sort of purpose and ill have things to do. im very self destructive, and the longer i sit around aimlessly waiting the closer and closer i get to winding up back in jail or worse.

[QUOTE]i pissed my shot at college away by unenrolling. etc[/QUOTE]

thought the air force is what you wanted though?

[QUOTE=Nepenthe;17631261]yeah dude im not the type to get depressed im a pretty indifferently optimistic guy but im just dissatisfied currently. once i ship out things will be fine, ill have some sort of purpose and ill have things to do. im very self destructive, and the longer i sit around aimlessly waiting the closer and closer i get to winding up back in jail [B]or worse[/B].[/QUOTE]
Getting kidknapped is not a realistic possibility

[QUOTE=Nostalgia;17631262]thought the air force is what you wanted though?[/QUOTE]

yeah it is. now, at least. i just hate that i have the tendency to **** things up.

[QUOTE]Getting kidknapped is not a realistic possibility[/QUOTE]

i was honestly referring to dying, which is a very realistic possibility for myself

I'd rather be dead than in jail.

Getting kidknapped by an utter maniac has always been my idea of the worst case scenario.

Trying to get a job with the state sucks when you have no degree.

trying to get a job sucks

About to take my dogs to the groomer, then, fat bag when I get home.

Sup brus.

still tryna get to sleep, about to cigarette

[QUOTE=RetiredAt21;17631282]About to take my dogs to the groomer, then, fat bag when I get home.

Sup brus.[/QUOTE]

strangely enough, thats exactly what i have to do today

taking dogs to a groomer is black metal

Just woke up not feeling the whole working thing

this is my last week where I have to get up @ 6 in the morning, but I'm giving up a saturday

work seems to bother you on a regular basis

[QUOTE=Jaundice;17631289]taking dogs to a groomer is black metal[/QUOTE]

It's definitely one of my least grim activities.

checking my myspace, brushing my teeth and going for walks are among the least grim things i do

i need sleep

everything i do is grim

Smoking a bowl after doing a bag feels oh so satisfying. Lovin' them drips, too.

youre a dirty man, justin

I'm so filthy. :naughty:

:3 oh you

time for me to head out. my girl is pissed at me so it should be a fun day. later brujas

later bro

where is the sleep i search for

yeah kinda wish i didnt wake up at 1am