I've been getting a lot more open with the people in the forum and am hoping that I am giving valuable advice.

But as time goes by, I fear I am becoming a spamwhore. So guys, am I?

Nahhhhh.

Wow. Just...wow. I'm not dating for a long time now. Just...wow.

[QUOTE=Foxfire]Wow. Just...wow. I'm not dating for a long time now. Just...wow.[/QUOTE]


Story

Casual Stuff V.. Lets Jive..
 

Hmmm... nothing much to report on this end. I'm in a piss poor mood (BF issues).... and I'm bored.

I cleaned my room today. :) It took me seven months to get it clean in the first place.. now it only takes me a half hour to tidy it up and dust. :) (You must think I'm a slob, but when you live at work, and live in your car, and you are home more often than not.. just to sleep... things pile up.)


So, lets see..... What to talk about....

Oh.. I know.

Often times we don't know why we do things, or why we feel the way we do... Sometimes we have these feelings about something or other, and the feelings seem irrational. Like you shouldn't be feeling that way...

On Tuesday night, when my dad was in the hospital.. I was going through one of my psychotic episodes... and it wasn't so much because my father was in the hospital,(not that it helped) because a friend of my mom's had called and clued me in on my father's condition.. as her husband also has a bleeding ulcer.. (my parents like to tell me things and then not elaborate.. which leaves my incredibly pessimistic imagination to make up the rest).. anyway... I was feeling incredibly lonely and abandoned...

The next day I sat down to actually WRITE about it. Sometimes when we just think about things, we don't have linear thoughts (math: linear: straight line).. our minds are multitasking entities.. and we tend not to think things through. But when we force ourselves to think it through, by way of writing.. cause its awfully hard to go off onto different tangents when writing... we then can find the underlying causes of our behavior, thoughts, or feelings.

I found that I was incredibly pissed off at my father for waiting months and months before going to the doctor... and only going to the doctor because he absolutely had to. I was incredibly pissed off that my brother didn't come home from his GF house when I told him what was going on... that he stayed the night there... so I was left home alone.. and waiting and worrying about my dad. And I was incredibly pissed off at my BF for not calling me. (but he did call me later that night..)

So the moral of this story is.... the next time you are thinking, feeling or behaving in a way that you don't understand... think it through... write it out... and unless you are completely crazy like me... you'll figure it out :)

The end.

LR

Hey fox whats the story?

Where's a fox!?!?!

LR

over there!!

You foxy lady.

I'm sorry.


I meant foxfire, he posted on the last thread before you closed it, sounded like he had a story



on topic: I have tons of notebooks filled with writing that helps me cope with my day to day life, very therapeutic

Ah.

So.....

No one read my story?

:upset:

:'(

LR

[QUOTE=LightRaven]Ah.

So.....

No one read my story?

:upset:

:'(

LR[/QUOTE]


I did.


Hows your dad doing now?

Take it to Causal V

i got ditched and waited at the movies for 2 hours.....girls suck

OK, first i gotta apologise about my Train spaming, i see you deleted most of it.

I thought it was funny:rolleyes:

[QUOTE=bennyb]i got ditched and waited at the movies for 2 hours.....girls suck[/QUOTE]


Not all of them.

Hope your dad and you feel better LR. :)

[QUOTE=Bass+Fingers+Amp=Groove]OK, first i gotta apologise about my Train spaming, i see you deleted most of it.

I thought it was funny:rolleyes:[/QUOTE]


It was better than the pineapples every other post. :p

So yeah... im currently watchin pulp fiction , how fab is that? :cool:

yea thats true

[QUOTE=Kandyman]I did.


Hows your dad doing now?[/QUOTE]

<_< He's still the same bastard. He's got an appointment with a specialist on Monday.

Apparently not as serious
as
I
was
Lead
TO
BELIEVE

and freak about... :upset:

LR

i guess im just a bass player

That sucks LR. My dad was just in the hospital and i felt the same way. it was just a hernia (so outpatient) but he waited 20 years (!) to finally get it fixed. now i just heard that there could have been a fatal complication for soem reason or another if he didnt go get it fixed.

yeah it sucks. dont put **** off cause it ends up biting you in the ***'

[QUOTE=Bass+Fingers+Amp=Groove]OK, first i gotta apologise about my Train spaming, i see you deleted most of it.

I thought it was funny:rolleyes:[/QUOTE]

I didn't. you must of pissed of Wintermute.. :lol:

LR

I love that movie. And every other Quentin Tarantino film for that matter.

[QUOTE=LightRaven]<_< He's still the same bastard. He's got an appointment with a specialist on Monday.

Apparently not as serious
as
I
was
Lead
TO
BELIEVE

and freak about... :upset:

LR[/QUOTE]


Thats a good thing though. How are you doing?

Aw, I'm sorry LR. I hope stuff works out with your dad and your boyfriend and everything. You're a great person, and you're wicked cool and nice, too.

Ever need to talk feel free to IM me on AIM.

No, I'm not hitting on you via internet (I figure I'll say I'm not before someone posts the :naughty: picture and makes a reference about me "hitting" on you...)

Notice these are never "Casual?"

-Gav

[QUOTE]So yeah... im currently watchin pulp fiction , how fab is that?

You should watch Reservoir Dogs.

Hey Mr. Brown. Easiest way to quote someone is to hit reply on their post

[QUOTE=Mr.Brown][QUOTE]So yeah... im currently watchin pulp fiction , how fab is that?

You should watch Reservoir Dogs.[/QUOTE]

Good movie...I <3 Tarantino Flicks.

Because of your user name, I take it you're a big RD fan, too?

-Gav

Resorvoir Dogs is great. So is Kill Bill and Kill Bill2.

[QUOTE=Kandyman]Thats a good thing though. How are you doing?[/QUOTE]

Heh....

If I let you guys know all the insane things that go through my head... you'd think I'm crazy.

Like.. the bad crazy.. not the good crazy.. :lol:

LR

Ohhh.

[QUOTE=LightRaven]Heh....

If I let you guys know all the insane things that go through my head... you'd think I'm crazy.

Like.. the bad crazy.. not the good crazy.. :lol:

LR[/QUOTE]


Hah, try me. I'm the most insane person on the planet.

Or at least one of the most manic depressive :upset:

[QUOTE=I0Play0Bass]Aw, I'm sorry LR. I hope stuff works out with your dad and your boyfriend and everything. You're a great person, and you're wicked cool and nice, too.

Ever need to talk feel free to IM me on AIM.

No, I'm not hitting on you via internet (I figure I'll say I'm not before someone posts the :naughty: picture and makes a reference about me "hitting" on you...)

Notice these are never "Casual?"

-Gav[/QUOTE]

Thanks sweetie.. it's cool.. no hit taken

How is this not casual? :confused:

LR

Speaking of dads ... mine told me today that he has a hernia.




:amaze:

[QUOTE=Kandyman]Hah, try me. I'm the most insane person on the planet.

Or at least one of the most manic depressive :upset:[/QUOTE]


Are you really Bi-polar?

*wants to have a friend as mental a they are*

LR

Thsi thread grew fast.

Nirve is correct about all his films being great... but uhh truth be told.... ive never seen kill bill 1 or two :upset:

Well LR, look at it this way: Your life couldn't be the hell hole my life was (and continues to be because of my awful parents...)

Read the threads if you forgot..."My Parents Took my Bass Away" and "The I0Play0Bass Adventure: The Final Outcome."

-Gav

[QUOTE=LightRaven]Thanks sweetie.. it's cool.. no hit taken

How is this not casual? :confused:

LR[/QUOTE]

I don't see it either.

In the past page we've jumped from foxes to movies, to hernias, to :naughty: :naughty: and other stuff