duuuuude man

it was so hot

it got real personal

like damn dude

i was hungry

that Pinback song was pretty good actually

What the hell im listening to some vtech radio station and some goth girl is telling me how much I want to listen to bauhaus

[QUOTE=Anxious;16117990]I've toyed with that idea; its really appealing to me. However, I'm going to have to take out loans soon and my dad always guilt trips me when I mention this to him because he says he can't retire if I can't pay them back (which is true). I know I'm intelligent enough to do something worthwhile and get payed a lot, but my attention wanes and my goal isn't really to get rich. Just to own a house and have enough money to live.[/QUOTE]

see everyone in my family, for the most part, didn't have much money growing up so they all percieve going to college, getting a high paying job and big house as the ultimate goal. honestly though, that **** won't make me happy. im happiest when going on adventures with my friends, hiking, spontaneous, living fully in the moment type things. i don't want a structured plan, i don't want to work my way up a career ladder only to get to where everyone wants me to be and then realize the pointlessness of it all. as long as i am unabashedly attempting to do what i really, truly want to do (regardless of how unrealistic or unusual or whatever it appears to others) i will be happy and living the way i think all people should be living.

You're going to end up in a cubicle. Ask anyone who works in a cubicle and they'll tell you that they didn't plan it that way. Ask them what they thought a decade ago and they'd probably give a response such as yours if they haven't already forgotten.

I'm not exempt from this either.

well im not going to pre-doom myself. if you forsee that happening to yourself then it will happen to you. i honestly don't see that happening to me though, i won't allow it. people who don't, at least to some extent, realize their dreams, don't do so because they deep down don't believe they can or allow dissuading from others to creep over and take control.

i want this: [url]http://www.boingboing.net/2006/12/14/cook-cubic-hardboile.html[/url]

Of course, I've decided on that a while ago. I'm just kinda overwhelmed at the moment. meh

i am a bit with school work then i realize school isn't the be-all/end-all and i relax and go eat chocolate and go to the park and go on the merry go round.

I want to be Thoreau when I grow up.

i want to be kierkegaard's knight of faith minus the god aspect

I was a stupid idiot my first semester of college and now I'm paying for it. Trouble with the law, drugs, hospitals, school, my dad.



I've probably said I wanted to be all of this stuff at some point in the last few years. I'm done with that sort of thing now.

[QUOTE=Anxious;16118699]I was a stupid idiot my first semester of college and now I'm paying for it.

I've probably said I wanted to be all of this stuff at some point in the last few years. I'm done with that sort of thing now.[/QUOTE]

what do you mean, how so

i'm getting alright grades doing electrical engineering and like if i graduate with this, theres a lot i can do and i'll never be short of money so im pretty content with my life right now

Ninja edit.

oh okay

right now i want to do decently in school and pay back my loans (shouldn't be too too much as i am at a relatively inexpensive state school). my boyfriend and i are brainstorming ideas on how to start our own business of some sort. he pretty much has the same perspective as me.

It doesn't matter because the world is going to explode when I'm barely into college.

So I've decided to live in the fast lane.

You wont be in college by 2012?

man oen of my friends from high school visited us in vienna for the first time in years, like hes been in the air force academy in colorado for three years and i havent seen him since then. and he comes and we get to talking and he keeps bringing up these ****in bogus *** conspiracy theories like some turrents in Russia that have existed for thousands of years, like some Star Child bullshit involving like a mutant skeleton being found hugging another normal skeleton somewhere, and like the 2012 apocalypse like all this **** and im like god damn what happened to you, man

[QUOTE=Anxious;16118770]You wont be in college by 2012?[/QUOTE]

I get out of high school 2011.

I said [I]barely[/I].

Man, I really need to get myself a steady job. Split up with my girlfriend a month ago (I was living at her place 150 miles away from my mum's house) & I'm a bit messed up financially at the moment. I still don't know what I want to do career wise, all I know is I'm saving up for one of these within the next few years:

[url]http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y7/Skienzy/cerbera.jpg[/url]

I'm not sure what kind of career I want to have when I'm older. My dad has all these connections with moviemaking people and I'm really interested in cinematography and making movies, so I should probably get an internship while I'm still in high school.

Today I feel like downloading an album, I'm thinking either Brian Eno-Taking Tiger Mountain or something by Boredoms. Which one?

[QUOTE]Man, I really need to get myself a steady job. Split up with my girlfriend a month ago (I was living at her place 150 miles away from my mum's house) & I'm a bit messed up financially at the moment. I still don't know what I want to do career wise, all I know is I'm saving up for one of these within the next few years:

[url]http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y7/Skienzy/cerbera.jpg[/url][/QUOTE]

Looks like you have your priorities in order.

bleh cars

[QUOTE=Anxious;16118795]Looks like you have your priorities in order.[/QUOTE]

Damn right. I'd rather get that car in like 2-3 years or so rather than when I'm married or some sh[I]i[/I]t & the wife's nagging for money to go shopping all the time or something.

dont marry a stupid bitch

yea really

[QUOTE=samariah;16118821]dont marry a stupid bitch[/QUOTE]

I'll try not to. Might be dead before I end up marrying, you never know.

My ex was mad controlling like that, always telling me not to waste my money on sh[I]i[/I]t & things like that, got me pissed as hell. In the end I was like "Quit telling me what to do with my money you controlling bitch!"

It wasn't good. We're still friends though.

i plan on trying to get this job for the summer that consists of being a river guide for kids. you get to live in a tent and be outside all the time and you get paid for it. its that or back to making hoagies. ehh no.

hoagies are good yo

ehh subway sucks, at least from my insiders perspective