Last night I had a long drive home down a quiet stretch of road. It was nice; I put on Trail of Dead's [i]Source Tags and Codes[/i] and it was blissful.

Also I saw a raccoon in the middle of the road. I drove past him carefully because I didn't want him to get hurt.

[QUOTE=Dancin' Man]I need to clarify my post. I am perfectly content with what I have and my life. I have zero complaints. I would justlike to experience total solitude. I think it would be a nice relaxing and redireting wayto be. It would also probably helpme appreciate who and what I have.[/QUOTE]
No I realize that, but you would like to have those days away from people. I just thought it was funny because I'd kill to spend time [i]with[/i] people right now. So it just hit me in a wierd way.

Ah. Alright. I noticedthat at night, I prefer driving on backroads with no music playing. I like how peaceful it is, even at 65 mpH. I am so disinterested in people right now that I would pass up sex to go sit alone in to woods. I wish my bastard relatives hadn't been as[b][i][/b][/i]sholes when my grandmother died and stolen our lake house. It was so quiet and peaceful there and I'm old enough my parents may have let me go up alone. It is an awesome 2 acre lakefront lot in the adirondacks on one of the medium sized and cleaner lakes.

[QUOTE=Dancin' Man]Ah. Alright. I noticedthat at night, I prefer driving on backroads with no music playing. I like how peaceful it is, even at 65 mpH. I am so disinterested in people right now that I would pass up sex to go sit alone in to woods. I wish my bastard relatives hadn't been as[b][i][/b][/i]sholes when my grandmother died and stolen our lake house. It was so quiet and peaceful there and I'm old enough my parents may have let me go up alone. It is an awesome 2 acre lakefront lot in the adirondacks on one of the medium sized and cleaner lakes.[/QUOTE]

Sometimes I feel kind of like that, only instead of never wanting to be around anyone, I only want to be around strangers...like, I'll just walk through the city or ride the bus aimlessly. I actually sort of like that humbling feeling that you're just one person in a big city....I wish I could explain it.

I love water. I like to just float in a pool with my eyes shut, just..floating in my own world. I could do that for hours on end and not get sick of the state it puts me in.

[QUOTE=Illmatic]Sometimes I feel kind of like that, only instead of never wanting to be around anyone, I only want to be around strangers...like, I'll just walk through the city or ride the bus aimlessly. I actually sort of like that humbling feeling that you're just one person in a big city....I wish I could explain it.[/QUOTE]

That explains it fine. I love being around strangers: there's always the promise of meeting someone's eye, or seeing someone and realizing what their story is. Walking around airports is amazing. You can follow people around and figure out what they're doing, because all walks of life go to airports, not just one kind of person like the way neighborhoods are.

I follow. I thought think that is partof what I want, but I also want to try total solitude. My reasons for wanting to be a complete stranger seem different than yours though. I like being a complete stranger because I'm really outgoing and like to forcemyself to meet and charm new people. If even one person I know is around, it doesn't work but if I know nobody, the charm comes out and I like it. I like attracting people I'll never see again and I have no desire to see them again. For me the strager side of things ismore like a conquest.

Jake: that sounds like the crazy urge that swells in me to jump from a mountain peak after a long hike. I felt it particularly strong when I walked up Mt. Katahdin, Maine's highest peak. Looking down at all the tiny trees, I felt like the air and all that space below could hold me forever if I jumped. I swear to God, it was all I could do to stop myself.

This has been quite the nice talk but I have not been sleeping much lately because I've been going to bed so late and I wake up at the same time naturally. I'll go sit outside and eat something then go to bed. Night my e-nonymous friends.

[QUOTE=Cain]That explains it fine. I love being around strangers: there's always the promise of meeting someone's eye, or seeing someone and realizing what their story is. Walking around airports is amazing. You can follow people around and figure out what they're doing, because all walks of life go to airports, not just one kind of person like the way neighborhoods are.[/QUOTE]

I can get that...I love being in a big city because of all the different people who go off to do their own thing...it's a very interesting thing.

EDIT: Night Petey.

I get a similar feeling in the company of strangers. Only for me it isn't the humbling aspect. I go out into public and think of the stories every person, every object, and every place has to tell. And I feel like one of the people life has chosen to tell those stories.

Granted, they're all fiction, but... :p

[QUOTE=Cain]Jake: that sounds like the crazy urge that swells in me to jump from a mountain peak after a long hike. I felt it particularly strong when I walked up Mt. Katahdin, Maine's highest peak. Looking down at all the tiny trees, I felt like the air and all that space below could hold me forever if I jumped. I swear to God, it was all I could do to stop myself.[/QUOTE]

I felt the same thing once after me and my dad made a hike up this steep mountain in Montana. We just sat down on the peak and ate ham sandwiches. It was quite the bonding experience. :)

Ugh :angry:

Ive broke 2 high e's today...well my friend broke one, right before I had lessons, and I just snapped it again. I wish the music store by me would sell individual strings, and not just as a pack. I have like 5 packs of unused strings, all I ever break is the high e. Might as well replace them all I guess

/rant

Anyway

Has anyone seen Mr and Mrs Smith? Is it good? Might see it monday or tuesday..

I've seen it tonight. Good movie but I didn'T watch the end I was too busy with my girlfriend :cool:

I just finished watching the entire Wild Boys: Season 1 DVD. It was really funny!

EDIT: Steerpike: congrats on 5K :cool:

Yes, go see Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Brewer. It's a very worthwhile movie.

In regards to the inner peace thing: I get that feeling just driving aimlessly. I mean, it's hard in the city, but as soon as you find a quiet expressway or country road away from the city, then it's good times.

And I'm sure I speak for most of you when I say that you find some form of peace and solitude in your writing, be it musical or just jotting stuff down on a piece of paper.

There is no peace to be found in loneliness. Solitude? Maybe. But not peace.

I think I would find peace just lying in the arms of my girlfriend.

To be honest, I think I've just realized that I love her. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, indeed.

I think there is some peace to be found in solitude. A different kind of peace, perhaps, but a certain kind of peace, which I think stems from the clarity of being alone.

[QUOTE=Cain]Absence makes the heart grow fonder, indeed.[/QUOTE]

If that's true then my heart is going to grow awfully d[size=2]amn fond of my gf[/size].

[QUOTE=Illmatic]I think there is some peace to be found in solitude. A different kind of peace, perhaps, but a certain kind of peace, which I think stems from the clarity of being alone.[/QUOTE]

Yeah, being alone is not the same as feeling lonely.

Right, right. If you're content with being alone, then that's a positive thing. But if you're lonely, I can't imagine one feeling all that content, right? Or am I just shooting blanks again?

I probably should retire to my chambers. I just had a worthwhile discussion that lasted longer than it probably should have, but that doesn't take away from the fact that I learned from it and appreciated it.

And that was a rambly sentence.

PS: thanks again to everyone who helped me out with the wedding questions.

[QUOTE=Cain]I think I would find peace just lying in the arms of my girlfriend.

To be honest, I think I've just realized that I love her. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, indeed.[/QUOTE]

I agree, on both parts.
My girlfriends been gone since last saturday, and wont be back in town til next saturday. Her being away has made me realize how much I need her :/

Well, being alone is much different from being lonely.

[QUOTE=Brewer]My girlfriends been gone since last saturday, and wont be back in town til next saturday. Her being away has made me realize how much I need her :/[/QUOTE]

Oh man, if this is true then I am going to die when my gf leaves in July.

Yeah, but it's a good missing. Like, she's not here, and the way it makes me feel is that there's nothing I could possibly do by myself or with any of my friends or family that would give me the kind of sexual thrill, inner peace, and utter contentment of lying with and being with my girlfriend. It makes me ache with anticipation towards the next time we see each other. It's a bittersweet longing.

[QUOTE=Illmatic]Well, being alone is much different from being lonely.



Oh man, if this is true then I am going to die when my gf leaves in July.[/QUOTE]

How longs she gonna be gone?

Like Cain said, its kind of a good missing. Its brought us closer I think, and once she gets back in town, things will be better than before. So it sucks while shes gone, but in the end its worth it.

Heh heh, you guys are so tugging-at-the-heartstring-y.

Just kidding, of course. I mean it in a good way, because I'm genuinely happy for all of you. Besides, I'm sure I'd be the same way if I was in a similar situation

:)

EDIT: I hate it when you post some lines, and the smiley carries over to the next line. It looks aesthetically unpleasing, just sitting there by itself to the left margin :(

[QUOTE=Cain]Yeah, but it's a good missing. Like, she's not here, and the way it makes me feel is that there's nothing I could possibly do by myself or with any of my friends or family that would give me the kind of sexual thrill, inner peace, and utter contentment of lying with and being with my girlfriend. It makes me ache with anticipation towards the next time we see each other. It's a bittersweet longing.[/QUOTE]

Actually, that's kind of what it was like before she came here (we didn't see each other between May 7th and May 29th)...but that was 22 days; after she leaves here in the end of the month I may not see her until we go back to uni in early September or so.

[QUOTE=Dr. Jake Destructo]It was on MSN. Maybe that's why. MSN is far superior anyways. :cool:[/QUOTE]
indeed much better, AIM seems too irritating to use regularly, anyway, does anyone really need two messanger services?

on my third of four straight days of work, going in at 2ish today til 8 then tomorrow morning then free 'til next friday - huzzah!

NP- ozzy- don't blame me

[QUOTE=Lord Abortion]indeed much better, AIM seems too irritating to use regularly, anyway, does anyone really need two messanger services?
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yes, i do need two messenger services, and it blows because i prefer MSN so much to AIM. Reason i need two is because every single american i am friends with back in the states uses AIM, but conversley every single european friend i have made since being in germany uses MSN.

Silly americans, while we do somethings right, when it comes to instant messaging, they have it all wrong, AIM < MSN.

[QUOTE=X12ouncesofhateX]yes, i do need two messenger services, and it blows because i prefer MSN so much to AIM. Reason i need two is because every single american i am friends with back in the states uses AIM, but conversley every single european friend i have made since being in germany uses MSN.

Silly americans, while we do somethings right, when it comes to instant messaging, they have it all wrong, AIM < MSN.[/QUOTE]
ah I see, this explains the 0 amount of random americans I have added to my MSN during user profile glances

It's 5 AM.

I love you all.

NP: Pink Floyd- Time