[QUOTE=Stoic]Is it THAT bad? I'm terribly sorry man. You need to take action sometime though :([/QUOTE]

No need to be sorry, it's entirely my own fault. :p


NP: Radiohead - Lucky

[QUOTE=Superpeer]No need to be sorry, [B]it's entirely my own fault[/B]. :p
[/QUOTE]

But this is even worse, isnt it? When I fail (at anything) and know it's [I]my[/I] fault I feel like wanting to kill myself :(

[QUOTE=Stoic]But this is even worse, isnt it? When I fail (at anything) and know it's [I]my[/I] fault I feel like wanting to kill myself :([/QUOTE]

If you said that at my school they'd make you go to counseling.

[QUOTE=Superpeer]No need to be sorry, it's entirely my own fault. :p

NP: Radiohead - Lucky[/QUOTE]
Quoted for irony of song choice/post topic.

/nerd :-\

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]If you said that at my school they'd make you go to counseling.[/QUOTE]

>_>
<_<

uhh...I have my own private counsellor anyways...
[SIZE="1"]/psychology student++[/SIZE]

[QUOTE=Stoic]>_>
<_<

uhh...I have my own private counsellor anyways...
[SIZE="1"]/psychology student++[/SIZE][/QUOTE]

Well... you're a lunatic if you go to counseling...

/retards in my school++

I got to counseling too :(

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]If you said that at my school they'd make you go to counseling.[/QUOTE]

Mine is undoubtedly like that as well...

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]Well... you're a lunatic if you go to counseling...

/retards in my school++

I got to counseling too :([/QUOTE]

what for? I bet it's not that bad :-p

[QUOTE=Stoic]But this is even worse, isnt it? When I fail (at anything) and know it's [I]my[/I] fault I feel like wanting to kill myself :([/QUOTE]

Eh, neither of us really want to work, so we live with it, but the shall I say more ambitious part of me gets mad, but then I just numb it with drugs or alcohol. But yeah, you're right, I need to work better, I'm getting pretty tired of my (his :mad: )behaviour.

/schizophrenic

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]If you said that at my school they'd make you go to counseling.[/QUOTE]
ppl are crazy here in america.

That reminds me. This coming saturday, I have an appointment to see a therapist. This man specializes in an unusual form of treatment that changes a depressed teen's way of thinking, and should help me to the point where I would no longer need medication. I would be glad to stop taking medication, but I'm nervous about telling a strange person how I feel. :(

[QUOTE=SilentScream7]Apoligize for what? we needed a little more comedy, nothin' wrong with that, If you're being serious about this whole poetic/sensitive thing, why the change?

But honestly, if you're thinking of this stuff just off the top of your head then you need to be writing.[/QUOTE]
I understand, thank you. I was simply attempting to bring joy to the forum through humor, I'm sure the fellow posters could relate to that. :p

Thank you greatly, I am thinking of this myself, and right now I'm seriously considering writing something like this. :)

[QUOTE=Stoic]what for? I bet it's not that bad :-p[/QUOTE]

"personal issues"

[QUOTE=I Am Vikingcore]"personal issues"[/QUOTE]

This metal is clearly a bad influence on you.

[QUOTE=Superpeer]Eh, neither of us really want to work, so we live with it, but the shall I say more ambitious part of me gets mad, but then I just numb it with drugs or alcohol. But yeah, you're right, I need to work better, I'm getting pretty tired of my (his :mad: )behaviour.

/schizophrenic[/QUOTE]

oh no, not again :upset:

[QUOTE=ShadowsFallen]That reminds me. This coming saturday, I have an appointment to see a therapist. This man specializes in an unusual form of treatment that changes a depressed teen's way of thinking, and should help me to the point where I would no longer need medication. I would be glad to stop taking medication, but I'm nervous about telling a strange person how I feel.[/QUOTE]

f[I]u[/I]cking wonderful! I've been studying about depression and some certain false ways of thinking/stereotypes -if only I could translate them in english!- :D

Relax man and take advantage of the fact that you can openly talk about yourself to someone. Besides, it's vital to stop the medication I think.

[QUOTE=TheDMV]
This metal is clearly a bad influence on you.[/QUOTE]

Yup, that's it.

[QUOTE=Stoic]Yup, that's it.[/QUOTE]

I was being sarcastic.

[QUOTE=TheDMV]I was being sarcastic.[/QUOTE]

I know, me too :p

[QUOTE=Stoic]I know, me too :p[/QUOTE]

BURNED! :p

I'm quite happy I found an actual copy of Black Earth by Arch Enemy. Now all I need is an actual copy of Burning Bridges and I'll have all of their studio albums on CD. Woot.

[QUOTE=Stoic]f[I]u[/I]cking wonderful! I've been studying about depression and some certain false ways of thinking/stereotypes -if only I could translate them in english!- :D

Relax man and take advantage of the fact that you can openly talk about yourself to someone. Besides, it's vital to stop the medication I think.[/QUOTE]
I think so too. This girl who I am quite taken with has been forcing me to tell her what's on my mind whenever I don't feel well. I should really thank her, because every time I do, I feel much better. I think if she was around more often I wouldn't even need to see a specialist. But I suppose to appease the doctors and my parents, I should go and comply with whatever they have me do. I would like to stop taking medication.

For when change the way we think by an outside force, we chge the flow within us. The life that pulses in my veins runs dark with unwanted love. Shunned by others, I have sought to dispel this demon, but none dare show themselves but the face of the forgotten one. He waits; he burns; he believes...this could be it.

[QUOTE=ShadowsFallen]I think so too. This girl who I am quite taken with has been forcing me to tell her what's on my mind whenever I don't feel well. I should really thank her, because every time I do, I feel much better. I think if she was around more often I wouldn't even need to see a specialist. But I suppose to appease the doctors and my parents, I should go and comply with whatever they have me do. I would like to stop taking medication.

For when change the way we think by an outside force, we chge the flow within us. The life that pulses in my veins runs dark with unwanted love. Shunned by others, I have sought to dispel this demon, but none dare show themselves but the face of the forgotten one. He waits; he burns; he believes...this could be it.[/QUOTE]
I've suffered from depression over the past 6 months due to many family alcoholism issues, I had toruble getting up for school, suffered from sleep deprivation and stuggled finding a purpose in life.

I got a Christian therapist and even though I wasn't chirstian she really did help me find some things in my life that I didn't even get in touch with. To this day I am still depressed, I have improved over the last couple months but I still have tons of things to figure out in my life

I feel my depression as a wall, it blocks me from functioning normal and being a normal okay person, I liked being by myself more then hanging out with friends, I can choose to drink and smoke but I just don't.

Writing does help a large amount.

I've noticed the same thing. when my parents first approached me about how much I had been changing recently, I thought they were full of fhit. But then once I started to get help I saw how much I really had changed. With the medication, I suddenly became much more social, easier to be around, and happier all the time. It's like I became my old self again when I didn't even know I was different. I'm can still be pretty edgy at times, but I'm much better. Hopefully therapy will get me back the way I was.

But on a lighter note, goood evening mx. :) I feel pretty god after an hour of laying on the couch with a warm blanket, talking to the girl of my dreams. Now it's time for me to finish writing this history paper before she calls back, since I want to maximize my time with her. I think my poetic feeling has dies down for now, but I'm still feeling great!

[QUOTE=ShadowsFallen]I've noticed the same thing. when my parents first approached me about how much I had been changing recently, I thought they were full of fhit. But then once I started to get help I saw how much I really had changed. With the medication, I suddenly became much more social, easier to be around, and happier all the time. It's like I became my old self again when I didn't even know I was different. I'm can still be pretty edgy at times, but I'm much better. Hopefully therapy will get me back the way I was.

But on a lighter note, goood evening mx. :) I feel pretty god after an hour of laying on the couch with a warm blanket, talking to the girl of my dreams. Now it's time for me to finish writing this history paper before she calls back, since I want to maximize my time with her. I think my poetic feeling has dies down for now, but I'm still feeling great![/QUOTE]
I've been talking to my GF for about 10 hours on MSN now... I feel great too.

NP-Dragonforce-Body Breakdown

[QUOTE=Lord Abortion]I've been talking to my GF for about 10 hours on MSN now... I feel great too.

NP-Dragonforce-Body Breakdown[/QUOTE]
10 hours!?! Dayum..That is such a long time.

Talking to mine again now, it feels great. :)

NP: Song of the Storm

/is single, and hates it..sorta

I just got back from my Brothers band practice and now im eating shniker doodels:)



Np- Catch 22 - San Fransisco Payphone

Im glad Im single right now. I had two girlfriends so far. One was almost a year and the other was four months. I had to buy everything for them because they thought that's how it works. I didn't feel the need to keep spending my money on them when they had jobs, so I dumped them. Im not regretting it at all.

Lucas, I just read your story, and it didn't take me long to think/find an answer:

[quote=Steerpike]Unfortunately, there's never an easy solution to problems like this.[/quote]

I know how that goes, though, and there's never a peaceful way to get around that.

[QUOTE=Jom]
I know how that goes, though, and there's never a peaceful way to get around that.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, you just have to find a way of coping with it.

NP-Leonard Cohen-I'm your man

I think we need lamest R&Mer of the month award.

NP: Nobuo Uematsu - Blue Fields

Back from a local show... here's my overview

First Band: decent Christian metal, though I found it humerous that a Christian band had a gay singer....
Second Band: Genericore with horrid vocals
Third Band (My friends' band): They were really good... I don't know their singer at all because he just ran on stage during their one show when they didn't have a singer and started doing vocals... he's intense
Fourth Band: It was better ten years ago when Deftones were doing it.
Fifth Band: Get a new singer damn it, good melodic death music, horrid vocals.

[QUOTE=GenuineImitation]Im glad Im single right now. I had two girlfriends so far. One was almost a year and the other was four months. [B]I had to buy everything for them because they thought that's how it works.[/B] I didn't feel the need to keep spending my money on them when they had jobs, so I dumped them. Im not regretting it at all.[/QUOTE]

I had to buy mine nothing. It was quite easy...:)

I should try to get a girlfriend again. I dunno how, and how I'm gonna fit it in time, but I'll try...

Aaaaaaahhhhhh, life is sweet. I just got off the phone, and now I'm ready to settle in for a night of hot tea, melodic death, and the Krupp industries. :)

I have to settle in for goddamn school tomorrow. :mad:

School, last midterm, pit for play, jazz band concert. Busy *** day.

[QUOTE=Shattered_Future]I had to buy mine nothing. It was quite easy...:)

I should try to get a girlfriend again. I dunno how, and how I'm gonna fit it in time, but I'll try...[/QUOTE]


GF's are good and bad.

The ones that think you should buy em **** are the kind you throw in the river. :p

The ones that are hot and have issues... wanting to "feel important" to someone... those are gold because they don't expect ****... yet they put out.

That's the way to roll.

Edit:
they do bitch about their issues and that gets old.

The positives outweigh the negatives though.

[QUOTE=ShadowsFallen]Aaaaaaahhhhhh, life is sweet. I just got off the phone, and now I'm ready to settle in for a night of hot tea, melodic death, and the Krupp industries. :)[/QUOTE]

I'm ready to go up to my room, find something to listen to/ play/ read/ and perhaps endure the screams, whines, and other assorted annoyment emerging from the mouths of family. :(

If the cashier at FYE had known anything about metal, he would have been horribly confused when I made my purchase: Vital Remains - Dechristianize and Manowar - Kings Of Metal.

I'm glad I have the perfect girl. She doesn't care if I ever buy her things, and all she ever wants is to talk to me. It's very nice. Of course, I buy her things anyway, just to go that extra mile. :p

Oh crap, I need to have something ready to go in two weeks! :eek:

[QUOTE=TheDMV]I'm ready to go up to my room, find something to listen to/ play/ read/ and perhaps endure the screams, whines, and other assorted annoyment emerging from the mouths of family. :([/QUOTE]
I'm sorry man, that sounds terrible. :( Things not going so well over there? Is it alcohol related?

[QUOTE=ShadowsFallen]I'm glad I have the perfect girl. She doesn't care if I ever buy her things, and all she ever wants is to talk to me. It's very nice. Of course, I buy her things anyway, just to go that extra mile. :p[/QUOTE]

Would that be Leah?

Kinda hard to buy **** for someone in another state. :p

[QUOTE=Kingofdudes]I think we need lamest R&Mer of the month award.

NP: Nobuo Uematsu - Blue Fields[/QUOTE]
But I want to win RMOTM before I win something like that :(

:p
[QUOTE=ShadowsFallen]I'm glad I have the perfect girl. She doesn't care if I ever buy her things, and all she ever wants is to talk to me. It's very nice. Of course, I buy her things anyway, just to go that extra mile. :p

Oh crap, I need to have something ready to go in two weeks! :eek:
[/QUOTE]
Mine probably wouldn't break up with me if I stopped getting her stuff...but I do it anyways so *shrug* heh.

I also need something in 2 weeks. And then I need to figure out how to get it to her on time :-\

I have finals in 3 days. I don't want to, mommy! :(