I know a lot of fatties who get turned on by getting teased about their weight and how fat they are. I know as well because when I was younger I was one of them. i weighed more then 300 pounds when i was 16. I was only 5'6. I had big, soft, flabby, jiggling arms that actually hung in big gobs. my father used to pinch them disgustedly and suggest exercises. I had a gut so soft and flabby that it would actually hang out under the shirts that I tried to wear. i stretched them out every day, but still you could see the big, soft, girly titties that jiggled on my chest every day. there was a girl in gym class who would tease me every day. we played badminton together once. "Blub, blub, blub. Look at your belly jiggle. You can see your boobs jiggle when you go for it. Just thought you should know." and just smile so evilly. She could see the shame I was in and she loved it. In a very real way, so did I. At home, alone, or really anywhere, my fat was an endless source of both shame and fascination to me. i was always touching it, slapping it, watching it jiggle and being both horrified and turned on. I used to get naked sometimes and do jumping jacks. I'd weigh myself whenever I could. I remember that at my local pediatrician's office, you were still considered a kid untill you were 17, and for me that meant getting weighed by a hot nurse in my underwear. My doctor was female, and horrified by me. She'd always findreasons to sort of pinch my titties and poke my gut during the exam, which I was forced to sit through in my underwear. Hot. I even got to the point where I would set up scenarios where I'd wear deliberately small, tight shirts out in public sometimes and listen to people's comments and stares and get off on the humiliation. i have since met a number of others on here who have done this. i can't help but think that this is often what really fat girls on here are up to. In public i believe it is the same. When you see someone really obese walking around in tight clothes, you have to imagine that they're acutely aware of the reactions they will get from others, especially little kids and teenagers- like the ones who teased them at times(like gym class!) when they were young and shame was a huge turn-on. Anyhow, you may have guessed that the girl from gym class ended up being the first girl I ever ***ed, and it was really kinky. After high school i got really tall and i lost almost all my weight. It's up and down with me, but I ended up doing a lot of hitchhiking and LSD and living in the mountains around the age of 22 and after this I was in pretty decent shape, at least for me (who will always be a little bit bigger then the average!). But these sorts of things are still at times what I get into. I'm kind of a strange guy, my IQ is 157, and for me psyche and sexuality are both wells that run deep. Admittedly I am a bit of a prima donna. I have a very pretty face and hair that goes down to my lower back(I sent you a picture of me done by my wife- I do not allow myself to be photographed), and although I remain a bit of a fatty I tend to get a lot of attention. I believe I try to compensate for this by way of my tendency to be something of a recluse and in my own way an ascetic. My ex-wife(yes, there's one of those too) once noticed that there's a certain kind of girl who checks me out, and she's usually a freak if I'm to speak honestly. She was. She was an unrepentant chubby chaser and I got pretty big again while I was with her, as she liked nothing better then to zero in on my belly. Most of the girls I've been with have liked an element of shame in sex. They tend to be either really fat, in which case we focus on her body or really tiny in which case we focus on mine. Abby, the gym class girl, was so reliable when it came to teasing me in the way I most liked that I finally started deliberately showing off my gut to her every time we saw each other. What finally did it was running into her after school. She finally just couldn't resist slap- and- tickling the body she'd stared at so long, and we snuck into the mirrored area under the theater. She was super aggressive about everything, she was extremely gropy in the way she touched me under my shirt, and she naturally keyed right in on my submissiveness. she even made me suck on her toes, while calling me fat and making me say my weight out loud. Hot.
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