seth putnam died :(

ya we know

way to go

[I]great job.[/I]

sisters b-day

family is out at an italian place (inferior food)

I'm home alone not givin A SHIT

this is how many fucks the rest of r&m gives:

0...

I didn't' even know adb had a sister

the more you know eh?

[QUOTE=Deth;18540310]go to gym
listen to swill of the knaves
stare down black people[/QUOTE]
yes.

nobody cares

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you can't count people saying that they don't care as people caring

so 1 response

you can't count people saying that they don't care as people caring

so 1 response

now that nick's gone i can finally say he's one of the ugliest people ive seen ever without feeling bad

lol nick gone? okay sure.

just found out today that someone got shot the other night on the corner i buy my heroin at.

in other news my ex girlfriend told me that if i get off opiates for real we can be close again and possibly get back together. thinking about doing that because I really love her and care about her way more than drugs. we'll see what happens.

about as romantic as im sure that new julia roberts and tom hanks movie will be

do it sam it's worth it and if it doesn't work out opiates will always be around

yeah tbh i don't really like most people and she's one of the only people other than a few REALLY close friends i have ever really cared about outside myself. she's the kindest most selfless person I have ever met and I feel really bad because she worries about me so much. she told me that she still loves me and shit and it just hurts her too much to be around me much when I'm self destructing like this.

i'm not going to rehab though fuck that. might go to some NA meetings and just wean myself off hydros and stock up on xanax so i can sleep/not give a fuck through the withdrawals. i'll keep you guys posted. i'll probably be an emotional wreck getting off cause opiate withdrawals are hell

i dont understand the allure of opiates or powder. I mean, yeah ive tried shrooms once and love weed as well all know, but i really feel like going much further is so reckless and unneeded

[QUOTE]yeah ive tried shrooms once and love weed as well all know[/QUOTE]

:lol:

Yes, that sentence was just hilarious

hxc user

[QUOTE=lukeskywalkertakingadump;18540356]yeah tbh i don't really like most people and she's one of the only people other than a few REALLY close friends i have ever really cared about outside myself. she's the kindest most selfless person I have ever met and I feel really bad because she worries about me so much. she told me that she still loves me and shit and it just hurts her too much to be around me much when I'm self destructing like this.

i'm not going to rehab though fuck that. might go to some NA meetings and just wean myself off hydros and stock up on xanax so i can sleep/not give a fuck through the withdrawals. i'll keep you guys posted. i'll probably be an emotional wreck getting off cause opiate withdrawals are hell[/QUOTE]

we'll be here for you

will you be able to work through the withdrawls?

NA kinda sucks. It really just made me want to get high more.

[I]Super Sonic Opiates[/I]

oh yeah. the physical withdrawals are totally doable. I've kicked at least ten times. the part i have a problem with is the psychological aspect. i just love getting high because you don't have to worry about shit and just feel content and euphoric.

if all it was was getting through the withdrawals i could do it any time with relative ease. it's just so tempting to go back when you have a bad day or something.

decided yesterday i'm going to stop doing heroin and just go back to hydros. my dealer said he's really worried about me getting heroin up on that corner cause those guys are REALLY shady, most of them are crackheads and stuff and like I said someone just got fucking shot up there.

sorry im only half paying attention im in class

[QUOTE=McP3000;18540362]i dont understand the allure of opiates or powder. I mean, yeah ive tried shrooms once and love weed as well all know, but i really feel like going much further is so reckless and unneeded[/QUOTE]

so you don't understand a drug you've never experienced first hand? that's a shock :rolleyes:

opiates are a whole world different than weed. i guess the appeal of opiates is that they make you content with your life no matter how miserable it is and are incredibly physically satisfying. the euphoria is incredible, that's what gets most people hooked and people who are unhappy are much more likely to have a problem because like i said they give you a sense of contentment and well being.

i fully admit i have no experience with real opiates(shrooms are closer to opiates than weed is and i have tried that, probably will again too). although i lost all thought of my troubles in the world for the most part (even not being able to understand the concept of time), i must admit trying to completely escape life seems like a form of cowardice to me. At least a complete indifference to one's own well being or future other than short term cost benefits

you're comparing mushrooms to opioids?

what?

do you know what opioids are?

yes i didnt finish my post sorry

[QUOTE]i must admit trying to completely escape life seems like a form of cowardice to me. At least a complete indifference to one's own well being or future other than short term cost benefits[/QUOTE]

thats why depression and drug use go hand in hand together.

i wish you luck, sam.

[QUOTE=12XU;18540401]thats why depression and drug use go hand in hand together.[/QUOTE]
ive even experienced small bouts of depression from sensational marijuana use, Which is why i changed my habits.

this faux-christian I guy I know who reminds me of steve got major depression from smoking weed

[QUOTE=McP3000;18540393](shrooms are closer to opiates than weed is and i have tried that, probably will again too). [/QUOTE]

wut

this is the dumbest thing i've seen all day. they are on opposite ends of the spectrum

[QUOTE=McP3000;18540406]ive even experienced [B]small bouts of depression from sensational marijuana[/B] use, Which is why i changed my habits.[/QUOTE]

Yeah but that's depression brought on [I]from [/I]drug use; I'm talking about much deeper depression that you experience years prior to using drugs.

[QUOTE=lukeskywalkertakingadump;18540408]wut

this is the dumbest thing i've seen all day. they are on opposite ends of the spectrum[/QUOTE]
... it was a shroom vs weed comparison. you missed the point of my post regardless of the fact if ive drugged up myself with tons of Oxycotin and HC

[QUOTE=12XU;18540411]Yeah but that's depression brought on [I]from [/I]drug use; I'm talking about much deeper depression that you experience years prior to using drugs.[/QUOTE]
oh i see you mean as in how depression leads to drug use to try and escape it. Yeah its terrible circle. I would definitely say that the first time i had excessive weed use i wasnt terribly happy with myself before i began the habit

It sucks. That's the only way to put it. Granted I'm not as bad off as Sam is in terms of heavy using, but I'm still an addict and I always will be. I've quit, like, 5 times in the past few months but I always go back. I think I can do it this time... I hate running out of money so fast and oxy is so ridiculously expensive it's hard not to.

The first few days always seem the worst, but I've yet to get past like two weeks clean in the past 5 months or so, so I wonder what it's like past that point, haha.