listened to this la dispute album like 4 times today

Smoked with some friends who were going out of town and wanted to hang before I left for Europe, still a little high and listening to Boris, life's good.

i don't really like any american rpgs
jrpgs ftw

[url]http://www.geekarmy.com/funny-pictures/2692/half-life-mario-bros/[/url]

haha just found this on stumbleupon

img link fail

FUCK

oh well i'll upload it all to imgur cause it will be worth it

i feel SO much better. went from feeling deathly ill to overwhelming euphoria

let me explain the best i can

this is me all day:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/VJYDz.gif[/IMG]



then i obtained 18 magic opiates:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/Yx13K.gif[/IMG]



twenty minutes after i take them:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/yy7Fg.gif[/IMG]



now:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hEBcx.gif[/IMG]

lol

only possible way i could describe it

withdrawals suck ass. the first day w/o opiates is a cakewalk cause it's just boring. but that second day withdrawals hit me like a ton of bricks

first it's yawning/sneezing

then it's horrible stomach pains

then it's diahrrea and feeling like i need to vomit

eventually feel like i'm going to stab someone

that continues for the next 3 days

withdrawals really are miserable. i don't really sympathize with cokeheads and people that are addicted to drugs that are only mentally addictive. i mean all you have to do with a mental addiction is be sober and bored. when you're physically addicted your muscles ache, eyes water, splitting headache, diarhea vomiting, just general misery. giving something up is so much harder when you literally can't function without it. giving up coke/crack is a cakewalk compared to opiates or benzos

[QUOTE=super_blockhead;18442441]i feel SO much better. went from feeling deathly ill to overwhelming euphoria

let me explain the best i can

this is me all day:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/VJYDz.gif[/IMG]



then i obtained 18 magic opiates:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/Yx13K.gif[/IMG]



twenty minutes after i take them:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/yy7Fg.gif[/IMG]



now:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hEBcx.gif[/IMG][/QUOTE]
wow

exams today

better get shit done

[QUOTE=super_blockhead;18442445]only possible way i could describe it

withdrawals suck ass. the first day w/o opiates is a cakewalk cause it's just boring. but that second day withdrawals hit me like a ton of bricks

first it's yawning/sneezing

then it's horrible stomach pains

then it's diahrrea and feeling like i need to vomit

eventually feel like i'm going to stab someone

that continues for the next 3 days

withdrawals really are miserable. i don't really sympathize with cokeheads and people that are addicted to drugs that are only mentally addictive. i mean all you have to do with a mental addiction is be sober and bored. when you're physically addicted your muscles ache, eyes water, splitting headache, diarhea vomiting, just general misery. giving something up is so much harder when you literally can't function without it. giving up coke/crack is a cakewalk compared to opiates or benzos[/QUOTE]

physiological dependence is one reason I can't understand why you would do this

[QUOTE=McP3000;18442448]wow[/QUOTE]

are you overwhelmed by the quality of my post?

[QUOTE=Destroy All Girls;18442449]exams today

better get shit done



physiological dependence is one reason I can't understand why you would do this[/QUOTE]

well i have an addictive personality first of all. i have a family history of substance abuse/addiction (mostly alcoholism) on both sides of my family. also my opiate addiction happened over years and started out slowly.

i used to take vicodin or percocet every once in a blue moon. two years ago, my curiosity got the best of me and i tried heroin "just once" and absolutely loved it. i ended up buying another bag 2 months later. i started going on the occasional binge. i was able to keep it pretty controlled, maybe once every 2-3 weeks. then i tried shooting up. i started doing heroin more regularly (shooting) with my friend taylor. we hung out at his girlfriends place and a bunch of junkies hung out there. he was constantly shooting up/talking about it and going to get bags and i liked heroin so i was tempted to do it with him. this was two years ago

i moved to texas and got off opiates for a few months. i never had a habit really, it was a little hard to control myself but i didn't crave them every day or any thing. then i started doing hydros occasionally. then i went on an opiate binge (fentanyl, roxicodone) winter break before last and that's when the mental addiction started. i started doing hydros every weekend after that. and over the summer i had a job so i did them every day. then when summer ended i realized i was physically addicted. now i don't want to stop cause i love the high. i can get through the physical withdrawals, i've done it many times. it's just that i can't give up the feeling, i love it too much.

that sucks man

got high last night for the first time in a few weeks, was pretty fucked up.

[QUOTE=Destroy All Girls;18442468]that sucks man[/QUOTE]

it does and it doesn't

the withdrawals suck but the high is unbelievable. opiates are the king of drugs. the high is always enjoyable, nothing else comes close.

i look at it as my life has more highs and lows than most people. when i'm withdrawing, things suck. but when i'm high, i get to feel better than any normal person ever does.

i think it's worth it.

yeah fair enough, sounds like it balances out and becomes an unnecessary activity to have began doing though

well it's unnecesarry in that it's not essential but it sure is fun and my quality of life is a lot higher for it i think. the song "heroin" by the velvet underground does a really good job of getting the lifestyle/atmosphere/feeling of opiates right. idk it kind of sounds like it feels

"herooooooooinnn, it's my life and it's my wife
because when the smack begins to flow
i really dont care any more
about all the jim jim's in this town
and all the politicians makin crazy sounds
and everybody puttin everybody else down
and all the dead bodies piled up in mounds"

it's perfect. because when you're high, really nothing else matters. you have your own inner contentment and everything is pretty peachy. scratch some itches and nod off.

I'm trying to quit my kpins, my head is gonna explode.

benzos are a hard addiction to kick. i used to be hooked on them for about two years but i got off. just switched to valium cause it's longer lasting and tapered down. just kinda lost interest in them and wanted to focus on opiates

do you even use them every day noonward? are you physically addicted?

dont u ever wonder when blockhead is going to shut up

[QUOTE=super_blockhead;18442441]i feel SO much better. went from feeling deathly ill to overwhelming euphoria

let me explain the best i can

this is me all day:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/VJYDz.gif[/IMG]



then i obtained 18 magic opiates:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/Yx13K.gif[/IMG]



twenty minutes after i take them:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/yy7Fg.gif[/IMG]



now:

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hEBcx.gif[/IMG][/QUOTE]

lmao

[QUOTE=super_blockhead;18442484]well it's unnecesarry in that it's not essential but it sure is fun and my quality of life is a lot higher for it i think. the song "heroin" by the velvet underground does a really good job of getting the lifestyle/atmosphere/feeling of opiates right. idk it kind of sounds like it feels

"herooooooooinnn, it's my life and it's my wife
because when the smack begins to flow
i really dont care any more
about all the jim jim's in this town
and all the politicians makin crazy sounds
and everybody puttin everybody else down
and all the dead bodies piled up in mounds"

it's perfect. because when you're high, really nothing else matters. you have your own inner contentment and everything is pretty peachy. scratch some itches and nod off.[/QUOTE]

sounds good when you don't have stuff to deal with

I couldn't imagine most heroin addicts trying to take care of children, for instance. or holding a skilled job for long. in a way I like being wired in this way under pressure life has it's own meaning when all things are full of labor.

just seems like temporary escapism with a lot of potential negative downsides to me, I understand everybody has a different constitution and can handle things differently though. it'd never work out well for someone like me

it's not really hard to do skilled labor as long as i have my opiates at least every other day. the real problems arise from getting sick and not being able to function. if i had to work a job that was difficult i would be fine because i don't do opiates until it's night time any way. i spend 75% of the time sober and get high around 7 each night after my responsibilities are taken care of

cool lets hear more about this

sam has you on ignore list hsg, dont know why you bother

[QUOTE=super_blockhead;18442527]it's not really hard to do skilled labor as long as i have my opiates at least every other day. the real problems arise from getting sick and not being able to function. if i had to work a job that was difficult i would be fine because i don't do opiates until it's night time any way. i spend 75% of the time sober and get high around 7 each night after my responsibilities are taken care of[/QUOTE]

idk, a 9 to 5 laboring job might not pose much difficulty but what about rotating shifts and having work to do outside of business hours

sounds like asking for trouble having a dependence, if you can't get what you need for some reason and wind up sick having to explain that to your boss would be hell

[QUOTE=super_blockhead;18442493]benzos are a hard addiction to kick. i used to be hooked on them for about two years but i got off. just switched to valium cause it's longer lasting and tapered down. just kinda lost interest in them and wanted to focus on opiates

do you even use them every day noonward? are you physically addicted?[/QUOTE]
yeah for the last few years

[QUOTE=adbforever;18442554]sam has you on ignore list hsg, dont know why you bother[/QUOTE]

i post for myself

I still click View Post when adb posts most of the time anyway, I don't know why I bother