he looks excited about the future!

i feel like horseshit for no real reason

you certainly don't need reason to feel like less-than-valuable byproduct.

give your mind-body connection some focus

[QUOTE=Haz;18902778]He's like a young, more elvish Steve Albini[/QUOTE]

niooooioooooo plz dont compare one of my heroes to adb

[QUOTE=SugarCoatedSour;18902798]give your mind-body connection some focus[/QUOTE]

yeah could always try this i think i'm havin some problems with energy flow / consciousness

what's good, bros?

[QUOTE=SheenaShiva;18902801]yeah could always try this i think i'm havin some problems with energy flow / consciousness[/QUOTE]

bring your mind to now; focus on breathing (nose and mouth at once, if possible) and letting your senses contact your surroundings. A disparity between your internal and external life can bring some 'separation anxiety' or simple resistance which can drain your energy in the moment. Don't mentally resist feeling "empty"; this is when you can truly feel, and alternately, think with unparalleled gravity.

listening to thou trying to beat skyrim but its taking forever

what quest are you on, bro?

trying to find the elder scroll right now, don't know how far that is though

havent even joined the imperial legion or the rebellion yet though i honestly don't even know the difference at this point

i joined the rebellion because those shady and uppity thalmor need to gtfo of skyrim, it belongs to the nords

Feel like I'm having a mini asthma attack. Which makes no sense 'cause I'm not doing anything.

be careful, shortz

you got me all worried

was walking around and this mammoth was just walking around in the clouds and then fell and died

this game is buggin

hahaha, i've never encountered a bug that bad

are you playing on 360?

[QUOTE=Juddybear;18902832]be careful, shortz

you got me all worried[/QUOTE]

Yeah, a few puffs of the inhaler cured that. Actual attacks are not fun. Was so weird 'cause I was just sitting here, listening to music when all of a sudden I felt short of breath.

Now I'm procrastinating studying for my exam tomorrow, I know I should but I'm just so far behind that I feel there's no point in even trying :(

[QUOTE=SugarCoatedSour;18902812] A disparity between your internal and external life can bring some 'separation anxiety' or simple resistance which can drain your energy in the moment. [/QUOTE]

Yeah i've been experiencing a heavy disconnect between my internal and external realities

also a lot of weird subconscious material surfacing and causing me to revisit past experiences

think i need a couple days to sort things out

@justin yeah, i've never seen anything like this happen before either but apparently its pretty common

also i went all cross eyed today for some reason and it took me a minute to fix it, definitely thought i was going to be like that for the rest of my life for a little bit

[QUOTE=shortz;18902837]Yeah, a few puffs of the inhaler cured that. Actual attacks are not fun. Was so weird 'cause I was just sitting here, listening to music when all of a sudden I felt short of breath.

Now I'm procrastinating studying for my exam tomorrow, I know I should but I'm just so far behind that I feel there's no point in even trying :([/QUOTE]

Think the anxiety is what made your almost-attack flare up?

[QUOTE=publicastration;18902800]niooooioooooo plz dont compare one of my heroes to adb[/QUOTE]

purely talking visuals here

[QUOTE=Astronaut;18902848]Think the anxiety is what made your almost-attack flare up?[/QUOTE]

I dunno, possibly. I have been pretty stressed the past few days 'cause I'm so far behind.

[QUOTE=fingers mccoy;18902427]you're paranoid dude

nothing a girl says or does in a break-up means anything

they just do shit because they're trying to take control of themselves[/QUOTE]

yeah i figured this out

she sent me an email and asked me to call her

we talked and discovered that while i've let what's happened go and am focusing on myself she's still just pissed off and wants to hate me for lying to her for months about my drug abuse

also she said that she "deactivated" her account for the summer
pshh

[QUOTE=Haz;18902502]Yeah kitsch that is rough bro. My girl and me have the occasional tiff but i'd never want it to get to a point where we have arguments over settings on facebook. You may well restablish that contact on there i'd read it more as she currently requires distance than that she never wants to be friends again. It is a kinda critical stage I wouldn't advise flipping out over it.[/QUOTE]

its not so much the settings on facebook. its the blowout fight that we had saturday night that the aftershocks are still being felt


[QUOTE=Stevie;18902497]she prolly did that when she was feeling pissed off some evening[/QUOTE]

yeah she has a lot of resentment built up towards me. apparently she thinks that drugs are for second class citizens or something

and fingers, ive been detoxing from cigs and vicodin, 3 days clean on vics, 5 days clean on cigs

my bro and his crazy gf just get crazier

my friend they were rooming with spend thousands of dollars remodeling his basement and made a room just for her to stay in, really nice stuff


the other day they told him they're moving out, so he's losing out on rent AND basically spent all of that time and money for nothing

i know this sounds really bad

but i can't wait until the fall semester

i can find a 18 or 19 y/o freshman that i can train

hopefully one without some negative sexual experience

i dont mean train in a derogatory sense, but most of the women ive dated have been older than me and have already been in relationships with assholes who take advantage of them so they develop paranoid defense mechanisms and blah blah blah

basically i just want someone innocent who will give me benefit of the doubt

if i could have that then i would treat her better than anyone else would

[QUOTE=Mr. Ron;18902865]my bro and his crazy gf just get crazier

my friend they were rooming with spend thousands of dollars remodeling his basement and made a room just for her to stay in, really nice stuff


the other day they told him they're moving out, so he's losing out on rent AND basically spent all of that time and money for nothing[/QUOTE]

That's really shitty. Is it possible for your friend to find another renter?

[QUOTE=shortz;18902872]That's really shitty. Is it possible for your friend to find another renter?[/QUOTE]

Eh, my friend only rents to people he is really close with.


I want to say something so bad but I fear my friend will resent me for it.

[QUOTE=SheenaShiva;18902838]Yeah i've been experiencing a heavy disconnect between my internal and external realities

also a lot of weird subconscious material surfacing and causing me to revisit past experiences

think i need a couple days to sort things out[/QUOTE]

as you become more conscious you become sort of open-eyed to certain states of mind that you'd otherwise abstract, or use as a catalyst for some activity. It's sort of a tricky thing to do, but I believe if you consciously take the time to truly wake up in the morning (before all the desires and queued functions come into play) then you won't simply jump from one thing to the adjacent thing, and so on and so forth until massive resistance stops you. Obviously our definition of self arise from our immediate relations (the people, the places) so try to observe from the inside how you are influenced and inflected...once again it's easy to say but 'doing' it is a balancing act.

watching the wonder years, winny cooper is a bitch

fucking love wonder years


his dad is a lot like my dad haha