I just want to know where the bottom is... you know.. rock bottom.. so I can finally start to climb back up or something? It's like, everytime I think I'm doing good and things are decent, I get another slap in the face. Something knocks me off the ladder. And I always feel like I'm carrying the weight of a bunch of people. Screw my problems, I have to take care of everyone else's.

This is where the line between depression and a complete breakdown become vague.

LR

LightRaven - did the CAT scan show other tumours? Do they know if it's malignant?

Suddenly my own problems (needing to pick what I'm going to do with my life by Friday at the latest) seem rather inconsequential...

Ace - my uncle's wife had a miscarriage not too long ago, but now they have a very happy little boy, tottering around re-arranging things and answering 'YES!' to any question he's asked.

[QUOTE=LightRaven]I just want to know where the bottom is... you know.. rock bottom.. so I can finally start to climb back up or something? It's like, everytime I think I'm doing good and things are decent, I get another slap in the face. Something knocks me off the ladder. And I always feel like I'm carrying the weight of a bunch of people. Screw my problems, I have to take care of everyone else's.

This is where the line between depression and a complete breakdown become vague.

LR[/QUOTE]

Know what you mean, it feels like your life just stops and you feel extremely tired the whole time, nothing motivates you, and it's just so hard to get out of the freaking bed.

I'm sorry, it's just that lately I'm so ****kkin depressed, it's my lil' bro first anniversary since he died, and I'm sooo stuck in a relationship that I just don't want but can't seem to break free. I swear, I'm buying a motrcycle with a bass carrier and taking the road for good.

[QUOTE=LightRaven]I just want to know where the bottom is... you know.. rock bottom.. so I can finally start to climb back up or something? It's like, everytime I think I'm doing good and things are decent, I get another slap in the face. Something knocks me off the ladder. And I always feel like I'm carrying the weight of a bunch of people. Screw my problems, I have to take care of everyone else's.

This is where the line between depression and a complete breakdown become vague.

LR[/QUOTE]

That really fuc[I]k[/I]in sucks. I pray for him.

LR - just read the other post on the matter, and at least it isn't malignant. He's in with a good chance, and if there is such thing as Karma he'll be ok...

That or the rest of your life will be solid gold.

this is depressing. i feel for ace. sorry mate.

[QUOTE=ocdrumandbass]this is depressing. i feel for ace. sorry mate.[/QUOTE]

that it is. first ace with the miscarage, and now LR's dad has cancer. sorry to hear about all of that.

[QUOTE=Wintermute]LR - just read the other post on the matter, and at least it isn't malignant. He's in with a good chance, and if there is such thing as Karma he'll be ok...

That or the rest of your life will be solid gold.[/QUOTE]

Malignant=cancer ... or did I miss something in biology? The CAT scan shows that there is no other cancer in his body, which is great. esphogal cancer is difficult though... they will be taking out a portion of his stomach and his esphogus..... but it doesn't look like chemo will be needed since there is no other cancer elsewhere. And esphogus cancer doesn't respond greatly to chemo anyway.

LR

How fricken ironic that when I posted that ^ the banner ad was about acid reflux causing damage to the stomach and esphogus... (my father's cancer is caused by acid reflux)

:(

LR

Taking out part of his stomach? Sounds risky..... best of luck..... and he'll come out a lot thinner after losing half of his stomach..... My godmother is having a Cornea transplant soon, that's really hard to predict an outcome, as is any operation...

[QUOTE=PaulSimonon]Taking out part of his stomach? Sounds risky..... best of luck..... and he'll come out a lot thinner after losing half of his stomach..... My godmother is having a Cornea transplant soon, that's really hard to predict an outcome, as is any operation...[/QUOTE]


Well... he's probably down to 325 from 380+ right now... loosing weight for my father isn't going to be a problem.. it'll be a good side effect...

[/weird humor]

LR

I've always loved those good side effects.... :lol:

LR, tumours can be either benign or malignant. The simplest explanation is that a benign tumourr is just a strange growth in the body. A malignant tumour grows and causes more and more damage. I think that some people use cancer to refer only to malignant tumours. However a lot of people (at least people I know) usually think of cancers as falling into the same categories.

In the case of esaphaegal cancer, the tumour is by definition malignant.

That aside that's totally crappy. :( I'm glad to hear that weight loss shouldn't be that large a concern but feel I should point out rapid weight loss can be bad too. As to where rock bottom is, I don't think any of us know. :upset: There always seems to be another fall waiting, and I guess we just have to keep climbing back up. I wish I could offer more encouraging words, but I'm not a spiritual guy or anything like that. Sorry...

so um cmon you smart people help me figure out when my bass was made... (refering to my bass age thread)

I don't even know when mine was made..... don't be asking me.......

I wish I had some basic woodworking skills. I'd love to add a dual-coil J to my P-copy's bridge and a single-coil J near the neck.

btw fox, how much is the DB500, I know it's been said countless times before, but nothing stays with me.... I'm warming up to it rather than a POS cheap head and set of cabs...probably cheaper too....

I wish I had some 2 ^, Im glad someone tried to change the mood in the casual thread fox.

Paul - depends. I found two used on eBay for 350-375 USD.

ScorpSath, I thought that it was "changed" when Dragoon posted it.

I didn't really want to post because I felt that whatever I said, be it "that sucks", "I'm sorry," and whatnot, it would not be what they felt. I haven't experienced someone that close to me being so sick/injured. What I would say is probably one millionth of what they feel.

I could muster $375..... Maybe, just maybe.....(dreams) (realizes parents won't go for EBay....) maybe with money from holidays....... yes........ mhuahahahaha (tube!!)

well, it feels like a tube anyways

[QUOTE=Foxfire]Paul - depends. I found two used on eBay for 350-375 USD.

ScorpSath, I thought that it was "changed" when Dragoon posted it.

I didn't really want to post because I felt that whatever I said, be it "that sucks", "I'm sorry," and whatnot, it would not be what they felt. I haven't experienced someone that close to me being so sick/injured. What I would say is probably one millionth of what they feel.[/QUOTE]

Yeah I know I was actually complimenting you I was getting depressed.

whats all this I hear about 1500$..... Maybe I can convince the rents that eBay is the way to go....

Well this is horribly horribly slow, nite mx...

Later.

I just got back.

Going to go to bed though.

GRR I want an Overjoyed tab.

:upset:

while you's go to bed, us aussie come out to play :thumb:

If you had of been here sooner, imagine the fun I could be having instead of sleeping.

Sleep is for the weak.

Night MX.

**** aussies <---------------- So bored needs to be flamed.

[QUOTE=Foxfire]Sleep is for the weak.

Night MX.[/QUOTE]

Dont go, I will stay and dance!