[QUOTE=Cocaine;17542293]i cant sleep

this sucks, i really wish i knew how my friend died. i can't go to sleep not knowing.[/QUOTE]

searched local news sites and ****?

[url]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6MsxZaLlovU[/url]

o fabio

[QUOTE=Against Miik!;17542296]If nobody has heard anything yet its probably something really embarrassing like autoerotic asphyxiation[/QUOTE]

**** off, that isn't cool. really ****ing tasteless thing to say.

[QUOTE=AA-12;17542297]searched local news sites and ****?[/QUOTE]

yeah but it happened this afternoon so i donno. i dont think it was anything 'newsworthy' so i'll have to wait until obits tomorrow.

[QUOTE=Nepenthe;17542294]sorry to hear bro. call the sister?[/QUOTE]

nah, it's almost 3am and i haven't talked to her in ages. the last thing she needs right now is me calling at this hour.

didnt even think about what time it was

ive had two 'friends' (use the term loosely) die. both were ODs go figure, so idk its hard for me to feel sorry for them, even though it may not have been on purpose. any death sucks, but in reality they killed themselves so idk the heartless sociopathic part of me is unable to feel sorry for them.

that's the kind of situation where i'd probably think they 'died' before the addiction. idk, never experienced it so i can't really say how i'd feel.

this is foreign enough to me. i've never really had a friend die, let alone someone i used to see every single day. he lived in my building, i saw him literally every day for almost a decade. i hadn't talked to him in a long time, probably a year or two, and i hadn't seen him in much longer, but the fact that he's actually gone now (and that i dont know what happened) is a really awful feeling.

[QUOTE=Nepenthe;17542307]didnt even think about what time it was

ive had two 'friends' (use the term loosely) die. both were ODs go figure, so idk its hard for me to feel sorry for them, even though it may not have been on purpose. any death sucks, but in reality they killed themselves so idk the heartless sociopathic part of me is unable to feel sorry for them.[/QUOTE]

I'd feel sorry for them. It's not like they died from their own stupidity. I've had a friend die via suicide from extreme depression (obv) and I felt pretty bad about it. Other friend died in Iraq two weeks after getting deployed, so yeah that one was pretty bad.

i had an ex-very serious girlfriend kill herself a year and a half ago over a bunch of **** some of which involved me.

totally different than a family member dying its weird.

ive known a bunch of people who killed themselves/died. pretty horrible stuff.

everyone i know has killed themselves

i learned a lot from those experiences, like how to peel an orange.

yeah but you dont count josh

Eliminator.

my father died when i was young, but it was before i could remember him so it's kinda different i guess. my cousin died (it might have been suicide, we're still not sure) when i was 11 or so.

A few guys I know died racing a few miles from my house. I wasn't really friends with any of them, but I did see them sometimes and it's weird knowing they're actually gone.

in other news, this crazy black guy like duct taped a cat today. like, he wrapped a cat in duct tape and threw it on his lawn. i guess it took the vets like 3 hours to get it all off

kinda lol but in a ****ed up way.

edit: oh yeah and my mom's dead, but w.e

Thats second time I've heard that happening in the last week

And I've never heard of it before this week, so weird I guess

I don't know anybody

there was some kid that went to my school that offed himself

he blew his brains out after his girlfriend left the room and when she came back he was dead lol

[QUOTE=Nostalgia;17542320]
in other news, this crazy black guy like duct taped a cat today. like, he wrapped a cat in duct tape and threw it on his lawn. i guess it took the vets like 3 hours to get it all off

kinda lol but in a ****ed up way.
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wtf? that is an atrocity, dude should be given death

oh yeah and this kid killed himself when i was in 6th grade. me and my friend were sitting on the bus and he tripped the kid as he was walking off. later that day he hung himself with a dog leash.


i guess he was teased majorly but of course after he died everyone was his friend

[QUOTE=Cocaine;17542309]that's the kind of situation where i'd probably think they 'died' before the addiction. idk, never experienced it so i can't really say how i'd feel.
[/QUOTE]

this is actually about exactly how i feel. its not like they snorted heroin for the first time in their lives and were given poisoned **** or something, they were addicts who knew exactly the risks they were taking. it is awful, one of them was a girl who no more than a year before it happened was like a goody goody prep girl.

still, they did it to themselves in the end


hahaha elim

[QUOTE]It's not like they died from their own stupidity[/QUOTE]

they did though

king jeremy the wicked

my cousin got run off the road by some douchebags and a car wheel that was disconnected from a car ran over his head, i kind of blocked that out because i was like 5 when it happened, he was probably like 18

chris from alat killed himself during my senior year of highschool, that was upsetting, the kid was really nice

my brother jay is psychotic and pretty out of touch from reality, which is honestly worse than someone dying

im listening to current 93

i like it, but this guy is clearly insane.

insane people make good musics

and also clearly homosexual

[QUOTE=Cocaine;17542334]im listening to current 93

i like it, but this guy is clearly insane.[/QUOTE]

thats whats so awesome about it. what album are you listening to?

i did a pretty good job describing tibet in a thread i made about thunder perfect mind years ago. let me find it.

i can

yeah? yeah? well

fabio

i dont know if he has recorded any neo folk

he played kantele on a split with of the wand and the moon

[IMG]http://www.fbesp.org/pix/fabio.gif[/IMG]

thats the birds blood not his fabio is a golem he has no blood