Teen Suicide
i will be my own hell because there...


5.0
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Review

by pixie Jacob esque qt USER (33 Reviews)
November 5th, 2013 | 233 replies


Release Date: 2012 | Tracklist

Review Summary: When you disappoint everyone all the time, it’s hard not to want to die.

My main interest when listening to music is how it makes me feel. If I don’t feel anything, I’m not interested. This album makes me feel, but it doesn’t make me feel any different than I do all of the time. It’s more of a reassurance of just how much of a waste of space I am. I’m not even 16 yet and I’ve basically ruined my life. I’ve been in the hospital for an overdose on drugs, drugs that I have taken again since that incident; I am failing most of, if not all of my classes when all my parents really want is for me to apply myself in school. It’s hard for me to look people in the eye.

I really have nothing to show for my life. Sure, I made a ***ty album, and yeah I’ve written some ***ty reviews on this ***ty website about music. I may not be an average person, but I frankly don’t give a *** how smart or gifted I am. Really the last few years have been a slow, steady decline into deeper and deeper depression. I have not attempted suicide yet; I assume that should be coming up pretty soon. I doubt anything is going to turn around soon.

I guess I should talk about this music. Teen Suicide was a band that was mainly run by Sam Ray, a lethargic ***, just like me. His band released many lo-fi gloomy emo pop type albums throughout their short existence. This one just happens to be the one their most known for. The music is nothing impressive, it’s just chords and simple riffs and samples, all with this soft voice crooning sad little nothings into a microphone. This music can all be summed up in saying that it is the soundtrack to my life; pointless, and depressing.

It is a strange feeling knowing that everything I’ve ever done, everything I’ve ever loved will go away relatively soon. I don’t know how much longer I will be alive, or how I’m going to die. I just figure it won’t be very long from now. I haven’t left much of a mark on the world; I’ve just sort of existed for the past 16 or so years, doing nothing. Just like everyone else. I won’t end up with the girl I love. I won’t ever make good music. I’m not going to make anyone proud. This album is for people like me.

I’m going to dinner with my biological father tonight. I have no idea what I’m going to say when he asks me, “How have you been?” I never know what to say. I feel bad for leaving behind all the people that care about me, but one day soon something will push me over the edge and I just know I’ll jump in front of a bus or something ***ing stupid like that. I’d probably be better off just living out my life, but who knows what pain and disappointment lies ahead in my future. I haven’t even turned 16 yet and I’m already a suicidal alcoholic junkie. There’s really no way to bounce back from this.

So yeah you can neg this stupid review into oblivion, it’s really not going to make a difference in anything at all. Sure, I spent like 20 minutes in my school library trying to write something interesting about my life and how it connects with this album, but really it’s all just a waste of time. So really, this review is more like some stupid diary entry of a teenage girl. I only hope that you can find something positive out of this. I feel like I need to leave behind something good. I have to.

“constantly i feel this weird and shameful feeling
like im being watched by a thousand glowing, vengeful eyes
behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms and in metro cars
and everywhere i go i know i'm not welcome”



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YakNips
November 5th 2013


13181 Comments

Album Rating: 5.0 | Sound Off

why did i do this

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ethos
November 5th 2013


1854 Comments


GOD DAMN

Mort.
November 5th 2013


4048 Comments


why did you do this?

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ethos
November 5th 2013


1854 Comments


now THIS is my kinda SHIT right here, good review
pick up more iNStruments and keep strumming (dilaudid helps) also A RTHUR R U SSELL

can't let the pal who wrote whatever i say is royal ocean 5 review commit TEEN SUICIDE
wtf you're only 15? hoooolyyy

LifeAsAChipmunk
November 5th 2013


4854 Comments


is this actually good??

ethos
November 5th 2013


1854 Comments


nahhh LMAO

manosg
November 5th 2013


6688 Comments


"I guess I should talk about this music."

If this is for real and not trolling, I guess you should talk to a professional. Seriously, now.

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Pheromone
November 5th 2013


3860 Comments


Not gonna pos nor neg but yeah

"I guess you should talk to a professional. Seriously, now."


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iwasnvrurbf
November 5th 2013


626 Comments

Album Rating: 3.5

Alright, here's the 411 folks. Say some gangsta is dissin' your fly girl, you jus' give em one of these

MosesMalone
November 5th 2013


1836 Comments


It's because you work at a carnival dude, shit must be depressing.

ethos
November 5th 2013


1854 Comments


what happened to the other review

HolidayKirk
Contributing Reviewer
November 5th 2013


1674 Comments


Awful review. No insight on your condition or the music. You're goal appears to be dragging us into the same mud you rest at. You could have turned your struggled into something beautiful but you're clearly just too lazy to do so.

"There’s really no way to bounce back from this."

And you're not even 16. I'm not even going to drop any trite sentiments about time or people who have it worse because they'd rebound right off your shell of self pity. There's nothing positive about this.

Hopelust
November 5th 2013


1120 Comments


Hmmmm.... I'd like to help. This review could be smashing if you incorporated the music more in reflection of your own thoughts/feelings. But I'm sensing that the point of this review was not in fact to review the album... Also a little unsure how to help...

LilLioness
November 5th 2013


2727 Comments


Yak, it is a bit early to be having a midlife crisis. You are 15. With a few exceptions, no one really expects a 15 year old to have accomplished more than you have.

slidenslip
November 5th 2013


1016 Comments


yeah my shit was retarded i got kicked out at 16 for drugs but im nearing 20 now and my life is fucking sweet. JUST GOTTA CHILL OUT MAN

slidenslip
November 5th 2013


1016 Comments


at the very least your life would make a better film than people who live regular lives quote unquote also mandatory this is a music website

SugarCubeEmpire
November 5th 2013


49 Comments

Album Rating: 4.0

jake man. if there's anything I can do

hogan900
Contributing Reviewer
November 5th 2013


1724 Comments

Album Rating: 3.0

I remember being 14 and I was filled with a lot of adolescent hormones that drove me to the brink of insanity every time I got pissed. My American football review was the product of an emotional breakdown I had when i was 15. But dude, 4 years later I literally laugh at how weak I was to such things, just find some time to relax and think things through. It's all about growing up.

ethos
November 5th 2013


1854 Comments


believe in the me that believes in u

http://youtu.be/tVJL4orS9zI

LifeAsAChipmunk
November 5th 2013


4854 Comments


"yeah my shit was retarded i got kicked out at 16 for drugs but im nearing 20 now and my life is fucking sweet. JUST GOTTA CHILL OUT MAN"

dam that sounds awesome.



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