I Hate Myself
10 Songs


4.5
superb

Review

by Statrick Pickles USER (63 Reviews)
February 25th, 2012 | 25 replies


Release Date: 2000 | Tracklist

Review Summary: How's your bell curve? Mine's right-skewed, average-low.

I've always held tight to this notion that self-loathing is more of a good thing than it is a bad one. At its core, self-contempt might be the most tragically beautiful of circumstances. As a mortal human being, all one can really know for certain is what they experience and disseminate to others between the moment their eyes first opened and the inevitable event when they will last close - but what if that being comes to loathe itself? What if you as an individual grow to hate all that you are and that you've grown to be? What if it comes to pass that there is nothing else beyond this; what if it happens that your entire existence is confined to being a something or someone that you simply hate? Yeah, that would be a seriously profound bummer.

In general I'd think that most people that experience any degree of self-loathing only do so in transient and intermittent flashes. But in those moments, self hate usurps logic and reasoning and becomes everything; it becomes the only thing. From a personal standpoint, I'm an individual with a nearly unlimited degree of potential for what lies ahead, and I've got thousands of moments to look back upon with a nostalgic smile. I'm privileged and intelligent; hard-working and marginally attractive. To put Sean Bonnette's words into proper use, "I'm a straight white male in America - I've got all the luck I need." I get good grades, I go to the grocery store when I'm hungry, I get along with my parents. I get laid, I have great friends, my health is perfect. Fundamentally, I have nearly nothing about myself to hate and all the reason in the world to live each day with a confident disposition and an empyrean gaze. Yet I, like many of the so-very-fortunate individuals around me, can easily slip into these intervals of self-contempt.

But what if there was only one of these intervals, and it happened to span over your entire life. For a lot of the people mired in such a predicament, that span of life is voluntarily cut short. But for others, namely Jim Marburger of Gainesville's I Hate Myself, such self-loathing can be directly transmitted into the most beautifully cacophonous of soundscapes. 10 Songs is exactly that - the angst, anguish, and self-driven hate of the brothers Marburger and Steve Jin manifested in a contemptuous sonic form. For just short of forty minutes, the choleric trio channel all the anger and frustration of years past into a collection of songs that have withstood the test of time, even though the band itself has not.

From the tired and bleak guitar intro of opener 'This Isn't The Tenka-ichi-Budokai', to its equally worn-out counterpart which concludes 'Secret Lovers…', 10 Songs is a sloppy, blood-stained discourse on self-deprecation and interpersonal pity. Every one of Marburger's words carries with it the weight of a truly discontented individual, trying their damn well best to not let the bastards get to him but fighting a losing battle. Even the record's minor imperfections - the main one being its lack of transitions between tracks - contribute to its overwhelmingly weary and hateful disposition and further highlight the disjointed and antagonistic individuals that created it. Contrasting such cataclysmic beauty with unbridled chaos, the only full-length release from the Florida-based trio will forever stand as an iconic piece of 90's emo.

It's sad to think that I Hate Myself are no longer around, but the fact itself is by no means surprising. 10 Songs is the product of three traumatically unstable individuals, and while it might seem right to lament their absence, it's a worthier engagement to appreciate their legacy. If nothing else, it might just offer some perspective on the triviality of one's own issues. Either way, 10 Songs is the premier soundtrack to self-loathing and testament that something beautiful can come out of it. Thanks, Jim.



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iFghtffyrdmns
February 25th 2012


7047 Comments

Album Rating: 4.5

five paragraphs, one of which is actually about the music. typical statrick pickles.
but really there was no reason whatsoever for me to write this aside from hearing this played at a party last night. weird fucking kids man.

bakkermaarten007
February 25th 2012


3655 Comments


You go to nice parties.

wacknizzle
February 25th 2012


13619 Comments

Album Rating: 4.0

Review hardly describes to the music but it's still a good read and if your correct does sum-up the album/musical concept. Found this album/band a month ago and i've been digging it a whole lot, im suprised this band isn't more well known.

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Aids
Contributing Reviewer
February 25th 2012


23976 Comments

Album Rating: 4.0

good god this is a sexy review. and a nice rec'd by reviewer section as well. also I fucking love this album.

all in all, I enjoyed my stay at http://sputnikmusic.com/review/48295/I-Hate-Myself-10-Songs/

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iFghtffyrdmns
February 25th 2012


7047 Comments

Album Rating: 4.5

^hahaha thanks buddy
fuckin love this shit
ironically makes me happy as a clam.

Spec
February 25th 2012


27271 Comments

Album Rating: 4.0

Awesome.

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Aids
Contributing Reviewer
February 25th 2012


23976 Comments

Album Rating: 4.0

one of the worst band names of all time though, let's be real

greg84
Staff Reviewer
February 25th 2012


7433 Comments


Half of this review is not really about music, but... have a pos.

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iFghtffyrdmns
February 25th 2012


7047 Comments

Album Rating: 4.5

yes yes I know
forgive my lengthy and extraneous discourse into my personal relationship with self-contempt I somehow found it relevant.

greg84
Staff Reviewer
February 25th 2012


7433 Comments


Ok. I got it because they call themselves I Hate Myself. Haha.

wacknizzle
February 25th 2012


13619 Comments

Album Rating: 4.0

I don't think this is overrated, the band is hardly even known. Besides the album is pretty original, it doesn't sound like any similar emo band of the time.

Katechon
February 25th 2012


684 Comments

Album Rating: 3.5

KA ME HA ME HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Trebor.
Contributing Reviewer
February 25th 2012


50872 Comments

Album Rating: 3.5

awesome band name

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Adabelle
February 25th 2012


4258 Comments

Album Rating: 4.5

I agree with Trebor

Katechon
February 25th 2012


684 Comments

Album Rating: 3.5

I might bump this album up to a 3.5 or 4. I've only listened to it like 3 times now and it's starting to grow on me.

Omaha
Staff Reviewer
February 25th 2012


10363 Comments


I tend to not write about the music itself as much as I probably should, because I also find characteristics of the music much more fascinating to talk about than the music itself. Pos'd, love your writing style.

iFghtffyrdmns
February 25th 2012


7047 Comments

Album Rating: 4.5

cheers bud thanks!

eternium
February 25th 2012


16338 Comments

Album Rating: 4.5

R.I.P.

sniper
February 25th 2012


19080 Comments


great album/band. didn't read the review but i support it on principle.

sixthgoldenticket
February 25th 2012


1176 Comments


great review, i'm pretty sure most of their songs are tongue in cheek so the band name fits perfectly.



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