Was/Is

[Captain North]

Vines wrap around my legs
Twisting thorns into my thighs so
Blood trickles down indistinguishable from piss
Much the same - leaking cos I'm not man enough to stop

No I am! I tear those fuckers off
And off comes my skin in footlong strips
Tie it around my eyes, so all I see is gore
All I see anyway so at least this is real
My stomach does not move

Hahaha
It's all so funny how it's all so fun for her
Wrapped snug and warm in stronger arms

Pathetic! So pathetic!
I am not who I was
Used to be halfway a man
Now I am the eye of Jupiter
Stuck in a cripples body

Sad now angry now sorry now angry now loving now angry
Fuck my legs and fuck my heart
Fuck my coward brain
Fuck my dick, oh wait you can't, my bad
Fuck his instead

Stop thinking!
Crush the sternum stop pressing
Free it up, the beating mess, it beats me in
THUMP! THUMP! THUMP!
Each beat a hammer blow nailing my ribs into dragons teeth
Dare to edge too close and I'll swallow you whole
Imprint every curve of your body into every fibre of me
So when you escape I can still hold you close
So every time you love my teeth clatter
And shatter
Swallow enamel and tongue
Ruins of my jaw still give too much away
But I can't run away

I did this! I did this to myself!
And you hated every scream I couldnt keep in
And you hate every step I cannot take
Haha!
Amputate it all from the waist down
Feed it to the chipper to feed the garden
Let something good become of me
No don't staunch the wound
I'm happy to go

And as the last of it trickles out
I evaporate
Every pain forgotten
Every face forgotten
All forgotten, yes!
Never retrodden
Forget me as I forget you
But sit a while and watch the bushes grow

[Captain North]

Melodramatic and rushed I know, but that was half the point. Just vomited whatever came out

[kitsch]

Whoa

The seething impotent rage is just too visceral for this not to be cool

[Captain North]

Oh, yay