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Old 09-19-2012, 08:56 AM   #1
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Early Onset Alzhiemers

Thunder leaps about my ears as waves break over my head and
As they curl and collapse into themselves
I mimic.
The tide drags out, clutching greedily at the sand it kissed
Doesn't want to leg it go
I mimic.
I don't float and I can't paddle
But I sure can hold my breath
If I don't surface here I've crawled away
Hiding beneath the pier
Peering up, I just want an embrace
But these arms smell of salt and dead weed

I give my mind a rest, give it thoughts of sex
But the best porn reminds me of you
Her moans and her skin and her kiss
But I look nothing like him
He's bigger and better and stronger and better
He looks like fun
I'm glad you enjoy him
Really, I'm so happy for you
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Old 09-19-2012, 09:27 AM   #2
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I had that problem. Didnt wack it for weeks after we broke up. We kept having sex for like a month after the breakup and when we were together we did the same shit, snuggled and watched netflix, called each other pet names, consoled etc. I have pics of her sucking my dick and a few weeks ago i looked at them and they just made me cry.

I have a new gf now and when i see her move a certain way or rub her feet against my shins when were spooning (sth she always did) i immediately think of her, feel terrible and out of place, im holding this stanger that i dont love. She asks whats wrong and i have to make up some bullshit.

Lately though shes been trying to contact me (i want to get back together now, but i didnt at first, which is when she wanted to) and so its been unavoidable that i have to tell the new gf about it, cause she asked me if i was still upset about the break up. Shes been pretty supportive cause she knows how involved she was in the rest of my life. We basically lived together. My mom would ask her to get lunch without me. My parents paid for her to go to cali with my sister. Everyone loved her and were preparing for us to get married.

When she found out i was dating someone else, that conversation was actually pretty funny. She was always jealous of the new girl in the past and for good reason, i thought she was cute. She was like 'did you fuck her? Has she gone down on you? Have you gone down on her? Have you guys had anal???' I said, 'why do you want to know this? You know that its only going to upset you more.' She then told me to never touch her because my fingers had been in that girls vagina.

It was funny in a morbid way i guess. Idk why im saying all of this, but this poem really triggered my feelings about this whole situation. I dont really have anyone to talk to about this that will listen. Even my parents are on her side telling me that i fucked it up and i deserve to have her leave me.
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Old 09-19-2012, 09:54 AM   #3
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What you described in the first paragraph is pretty close to what happened the first time I broke up with my ex (except the Netflix, we don't get that here haha). Eventually we did get back together again, but it was basically just so we could end it on a much better, gentler note a few months later once we both realized and came to terms with the truth. And even though I can no longer orgasm, I miss her body. She was a fucking babe.

However...thats all pretty painful man. I can actually totally understand your exs point of view, in that that's exactly what I was saying to my own ex shortly after we broke up (she never did get with anyone but I was paranoid she would and she kept saying she wanted to). Hell Ive asked this time as well, even though it'll only hurt me.

So I can only hope for your sake she comes to terms with that bitterness like I did and forgives you. I hope your parents stop being dicks too, and that you're kind to the new girl when you choose to do whatever you do.

(also, anal? Icky! But then I have a foot fetish so I can hardly talk)
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Old 09-19-2012, 10:55 AM   #4
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sucks about not being able to orgasm. any chance of that coming back?

i can understand her point of view, i'd probably feel the same about her doing that.

we were into a lot of kinky stuff, dom/sub, straps, really rough sex, etc

the most lol part of the breakup was that she lurked on here after we broke up and saw all my posts about us in the L&R thread. one post in particular said 'shes probably such a psycho bitch that she's reading these posts'

she called me up the next day and was like SO IM A PSYCHO BITCH HUH? DONT TALK ABOUT ME ON THERE YOURE FRIENDS WITH ALL THOSE PEOPLE ON FACEBOOK THEY KNOW WHO I AM etc
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Old 09-19-2012, 06:32 PM   #5
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I dunno. I've noticed it's come back partly, but it's nothing like it was and I'm pretty sure I'm only ejaculating a tiny bit of semen without the sperm. But oh well.

Haha, yeah we did stuff like that too. She liked a bit of pain and I don't mind dealing it out, although only a little bit. But she was one of those lucky girls who orgasms at the drop of a hat, so easy to please really. I'm scared about the future there too, what if I can't please anyone else haha

Hahahaha, ok that's pretty funny. Dem crazy bitches
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