This Would Be Better If It Was Once And Done

[i am the robots]

White roads, oh glory, crystals are falling from the sky
And I thought the footprints would lead me further from her
I lead myself into a trap this night
Where my false paradise that I once lived
Surrounded me and crushed my courage to be
It feels as though this could be as easily and happily severed
As my very own arm, with a jagged saw
And in my dreams I love her still

I guess she was young
Things were said that lit up like red flags
But I suppressed them and let them pass
"I feel too young to be sixteen"
She felt too young to care for more than three weeks

Should I feel ashamed?
Or embarassed?
Or just used?
Shown that if there's nothing better
There's always me
The second best
A necklace of silver to rest upon the nape

In truth, it was never me that mattered
It was the idea of what I could be for her
The thought that I could make her look wanted
And show everybody that she's loved
Oh how grand the romance,
Oh how bitter the end

Please God just purge her from my thoughts
Purge her from my heart
Purge her from my mind
Purge her from my eyes
Purge her from my dreams
She just won't die for me