Save Me

[WarLust]

At a time when i felt most unsure of my self you were there
you helped me conquer my inner demons
only afterwards whould you leave again
I kept thinking you were around the bend
but were are you now?
self doubt has reared it's ugly head to devour me
and leave only a whisper of my former self
it sends me reeling into the realms of
depressing and occasionally suicidal thought
I need you with me to ward this off
I don't think i can do this alone
and right now i'm on the brink of insanity
even in my own home these creatures follow
hoping to catch me off guard
since it's my soul they want to swallow
where are you when i need you most
have you abandoned me?
only leaving your ghost
I'm in self pity now
yet i don't know there is a new low i keep hitting
If i could cry i would
but it's gotten to a point where I'm numb
so even though I should it's impossible
now I'm so deep in it I barely think of you anymore
It's like I'm developing amnesia
forgetting my real personality
and if you ask me the meaning of life
I'd say there was'nt any
at my last desperate attempt to be released
I walk to my door and hope to get lifted spirits
from the outside air
when i open the door to my surprise it's you standing there
looking me in the eyes