disenchantment (redone)

[inbliss]

under the water,
carry me farther.
a kaleidoscope view of a sky and it's blue;
holding the current, pretending it's you-

you, i need.
carry me, carry me nowhere.
pretending you're-
filling, filling my lungs with air.

come to the water, throw yourself in.
don't bother trying to swim.
you are the anchor tied to my limbs,
carry me further, to the deep end.

you're on my side;
but tend to disagree.
we've had the best of times,
but none recently.

come to the water, throw yourself in;
choke on and swallow all your reason.
anchor my body through the deep end;
i won't bother trying to swim.

i'll never understand your reasoning,
not because i can't, but 'cause you keep me from breathing.
in the water, i lost the meaning,
to life, to love, to reach your hand in and pull me above.