.......i just remembered something from a long time ago, I think it might help you! once when I was little, I dropped my shoe into a river.. and when I tried to get it back, I fell in.. I though I'd drown but the water carried me to shore.. it finally came back to me! the river's name was 'The Kohaku River'.. I think that is you, and your real name is Kohaku river!
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